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One knife... One cut.

A bad feeling in my gut



Maybe I went too far,

Because this blood is very dark.



But why would it matter to you,

If you already think I'm a fool.



I had my chance & you had yours.

But you turned away and went with her.



But no more suffering or pain...

'Cause in my life I have nothng more to gain.

If I should suddenly pass

That would just be my alas

Don?t be sad and don?t be depressed

For lying on this pillow is the best

For this is just the time when I decided to rest



Rest to never awake again

I wouldn?t want anyone to cry as a new day begins

I am so sick of life, and I don?t know why I try

When every day I wake up I want to die



Sometimes it?d be better to walk off the balcony

Than for people at work to see me

Why I am so afraid i'll never know

But somehow this pain must go



I believe he put more on me than I can bear

As my life is one big tear

A tear that continues to rip

As my life slowly from me slips



I kind of blame myself; I knew this pain would never end

As ever day it feels like my life begins

Feeling the same pain from day to day

But all the time it's in a new way



Why do I continue; why do I go on?

I've had enough, so to everyone, so long

I cry, I scream

But no one hears

I yell, I shout,

But no one's near.



Why aren't you here

With me.

Why am I all alone?



Everyone's gone, having a life,

But I'm here now with a knife.

I'm going to do it

I don't know how.

But I have to end my life

I must do it now.



I slit my wrist

And watch the blood flow

And I look up to see you

And the tears start to flow.



You try to stop the blood

And all I do is stare.

You look into my eyes

But there's nothing there.

How should I do it?

Wrist, blade, neck?

Drowning, jumping, how?

Will any one care?

Will anyone try and stop me?

Will anyone even understand? Should I write notes?



Should I try and explain?

how I was raped in 2004.

How I've been through so much since then.

Should I tell anyone how I'm feeling?

Would they judge me?

I'll just do it.



No one will care,

no one will stop me,

no one will even understand.

There'll be NO notes

I will not explain.



They'll have to hurt just like they've made me hurt;

if they even notice I'm gone.

My heart is in a gillion pieces, it can't break anymore!

Goodbye everyone...

I'll see you in HELL!

No matter how many friends a person may have

They can still feel lonely.

No matter how loving there family may be

They can still feel lonely.

No matter how beautiful a rose may look

Its' thorns will still make your fingers bleed.

No matter how happy a person may act

They can still find themselves crying every night.

No matter how good food may look

It can always be ones enemy.

No matter how evil a knife may look

It can always seem like the answer.

No matter how long life may be

It can always be shortened.

Every night I cry in bed

And hope that tomorrow I?ll be dead.

So today?s the day

And there is nothing you can say

Because all my life

I wanted to get ride of the pain and strife.

But you made me feel worse

Like my life is cursed.

What did I ever do

For you to taunt me too.

I thought you were my friend

But now she took the stand,

So now I will say goodbye

To the evil ones who made me cry

As I sit here on my bathroom floor,

I have no feeling, no pain.

Blood is all I see,

and to me it's my everything.



I'm not sure why I'm here

with this picket knife in my hand,

cutting through my tender skin.



I don't belong in this world.

Nobody loves me, nobody cares.



My two best friends say I shouldn't do this,

but I'm the one to refuse it.



I'm confused.

Do I want to kill myself,

or do I want to do this because it feels good?



I can't think because I'm so confused

and I don't understand

why this knife is in my hand.



One slip will take my life in an instant.

No tears, no fears, and no goodbyes.



How would this world be without me?

Would anyone notice I was gone?

Would anyone even care?



Maybe the knife should accidently slip,

making my life become extinct.



No last words,

no goodbyes.

Darn, I wonder if they'll cry.



Maybe I shouldn't do this.

I mean, I can stop.



Tears are running down my cheeks

and there isn't a thing I can see.



Everything's so blurry

and it's making me so worried.

Can't see a thing or where I'm cutting through my skin.



Now I feel it.

Now there's pain.

What should I do?

I'm going insane.



I didn't want this to happen.

I didn't mean it to,

but there is one thing I ask of you.



Tell my friends I love them

and it was something I didn't expect.



Now I'm leaving this world

without a reason to let go.



Now it's too late

and there's nothing I can do.



Now I understand the meaning

of "no feeling, no pain".

Let me do it.

Let me cut,

Let me die,

Let me scream.



Let me do it.

I can't take this anymore,

Everybody treats me like crap.

Do this, Do that.

Gimme this, Gimme that.



Let me do it.

All this pain will go away...

if you just let me do it.

suicide blood

it drips from my hand

isn't it grand

thinking of death

thinking of life

I slit my wrist with the knife

a silent scream

inside my dream

I hear ur voice

I hear ur choice

u look at me

see what I can be

now it's peaceful

I'm gone please remeber

I hated u gramps

I hated u

I hated all the pain u put me through