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I saw the weirdest thing today..cereal straws. Wouldn't they get soggy if you used them like regular straws to drink milk? Having a straw fall apart on you half way through your glass of milk doesn't seem all that fun to me.



Still haven't finished my 'Thank You' notes from graduation..but I'm working on them, althought a little slowly.



Great, now I want a glass of milk.



Starting to spend less time on VR now, I think I might eventually dissapear for another few months.

Ever get the feeling you fucked something up beyond repair?





Oh yeah..I know that feeling well.

I know I should write this, but what else can I do? Laying on my bed and staring at my ceiling for nearly an hour, hoping for sleep but consumed with guilt and some odd emotion I haven't placed yet.



I went outside around 9:30, if felt nice, and I saw two fireworks through the trees, a nice green one and I think a little gold sparkle one. After that I just stood there and stared at the sky and listened to them. I must have been a sight, a little blonde girl in a white tanktop and pink Hello Kitty PJ bottoms with a pink rabbit in her arms, staring up at the sky like some weirdo.



I came back in, listened to some more music in the hope of going to sleep, but I couldn't so I got online and stared at my messenger for nearly twenty minutes, just curled up and watching the white background illuminate the bed covers.



Then I came here. Pretty much my night.



Happy 4th of July.

Well, another day of just lazing around the house. I thought I might want to go outside and down to the lake, but since it's a holiday, it'll be crowded, so I suppose I'll go tomorrow morning with the early morning walkers.



I've been feeling a lot better lately and I'm glad for that. Going to be moving soon, living with my friends Kat and Kortni at Kat's house, and our friend Josh will be living in the house behind us, so I'm really greatful for that. I guess sooner or later I'll get my own place, but I'm glad they wanted me to live with them, I hate being by myself. xP



Listening to my favorite song now. It's not the first Jrock song I ever heard, nor my favorite, but..it's me. I hear it and it speaks to me so I thought I would share the lyrics with everyone, the blend of Japanese and English. to sum it up, it's about a girl trying to be everyone but herself to get the guy she likes, and when she finally gives up and becomes herself again, he falls in love with her.



Smile Ichiban Ii Onna (The Woman With The Best Smile)



The glittering Venus is beautiful

The glittering Venus is golden

Illuminating my heart, you are the woman with the best smile



You were being jealous of that pretty child, and thinking,

If is was possible to be born looking like that child

then won't life be different?

What a mistaken idea

The same person cannnot exist as two different persons and,

I am attracted to only one smile in this world



The shining Venus is full of innocence

The shining Venus is full of pride

This world is lit only by your light



The glittering Venus is beautiful

The glittering Venus is golden

Illuminating my heart, you are the woman with the best smile



Being in flashy makeup is like being a nail

Being a woman who is able to just let go of her identity,

is making a wrong impression

Making up lies is bad too isn't it?



I can't help but love you the way you are now, the way you've always been

Even loving someone does not require a reason



The pulsing Venus is naïve

The flickering romance of Venus

I have fallen for you, who have loved me

With glittering eyes that flicker,

unable to spot my feelings,

and igniting my chest, you are the woman with the best smile



Despite being afraid to smile,

only towards you who have that courage,

I want to say, "You really did your best!"



The shining Venus is full of innocence

The shining Venus is full of pride

This world is lit only by your light



The glittering Venus is beautiful

The glittering Venus is golden

Illuminating my heart, you are the woman with the best smile



You are my sun~

I haven't updated in..well..ever. So I might as well get off my lazy butt and type somthing for the people that actually want to read this.



Well, my friend is opening a cosplay cafe which is awesome, and he wants me to work there as a maid waitress, which is ever cooler. I've always wanted to open my own cosplay cafe for anime fans and be a waitress in a maid costume. Odd dream, I know, but I love it.



I've met a lot of people since I last udated but one recent person has managed to go from just a VR person to a really good friend and a bit of a crush. He's one of my few precious people and already I eagerly await him getting online and talking to me every day. Even if he is a bit...lemme just leave it at that before he smacks me.



I would write more, but someone..you know who you are..is distracting me with screaming about bees. It's kinda cute in a way and you just wanna kiss him and make it better, but at the same time you wanna roll your eyes, shove him in a chair and kill the damn things just to stop his dramatics..but then you'll have to hear him whine about dead bees everywhere. Oh well.



When you wake up tomorrow, there will be bee corpses lining your pillow.