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I stand in the mirror

My face twisted with hate

How did I become this

Why am I so angry

I know what I must do

I have to punish myself

I tell myself I am a horrible person

I scream I deserve to die

I pull the razor from my pocket

I hold out my arm

I know I deserve it

First cut the tears are pouring

Second cut blood is gushing

The hate slowly fades away

Cause I know its almost over

Its only a matter of time

Til the world fades away

Then I will have what I deserve

Death with no more pain and heartache

I sit here all alone

With nothing but my mind

My thoughts screaming loud

My heart weeping tears

Yet I can't even understand

Why you break my heart

You hurt me so bad

I just cry anymore

My love for you

Keeps me vulnerable

I wish I could escape

I hate this feeling

I give my heart to you

Just for you to rip it out

You don't understand

How much you keep hurting me

Soon my blood will be on your hands

And I will be but a memory

Of a girl who loved you so much

And you killed her heart

Now she is dead to the world

With one regret

That she ever dared

To give her heart away

It keeps building up and up

While I sit alone in silence

If only I could tell some one

Or whisper it in the wind

Instead I must suffer in silence

Left alone with dangerous thoughts

My mind wanders to dark places

Who knows what will happen next

It gets darker and darker

Till the tears stream down my face

But I can't let anyone know or see

What would they think of me

I try to be strong

I try to control myself

But no one knows

The pain I have deep down inside

How its eating me up inside

How bad I want it to end

Thou I will never tell

I'm so close to the end

Am I really this alone

Or can I trust some one

Some one to share my pain with

Who won't judge me

Maybe its just fear

That keeps me alone in pain

Am I to weak minded to share

Or to strong to let some one in