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well today i'll be getting my meds back from my aunt rose that way i can take them and start to feel better cause right now my mind is'nt clear i been trying my damnest to stay calm and not go off on people around me.
last night i tried to get some rest but my body and mind would'nt allow me to do so it was driving me crazy i kept wanting to scratch my lag and arms but when i have my meds in me i dont seem to do that at all.
i want to go back to normal like i was when i had my meds in me ugh..
i know one thing i really do need some help from a doctor that deals with mental health i need meds that are made for ptsd and bipolar i been trying to keep my mind clear of any bad thoughts i been fighting with the voice's in my head and there are many fighting with eachother i keep trying to get them to stop yelling cause it's driving me fucking insane.
i know i sound crazy but im really not yeah i have some mental issures to deal with for the rest of my damn life and no one understands what i go through day to day only time things calm down some what is during the night when i go to bed to sleep.
yeah i have dreams that are not normal but i deal with them i never talk about them to my family cause they would think im going crazy that is one of the reason i never say a damn word to them cause i just dont trust them with my little secerts that i keep to myself i know its good to talk about stuff but i just cant well not to my family cause they wont ever understand anything about me or my life what i have to live with.
so i play on my playstation to keep my mind busy and my hands i have to always be doing something to ignore the voices cause they are trying to drive me damn crazy.

I will not get in the middle of your's and lana's fight so please do not message me about lana yeah she's my bestfriend and has been for a very long time but that dont mean i will get in the middle of the fight and deal with stress of it i have enough stress to deal with in real life that has to do with my family and my mental health issure's so please do not bring it to me.
i just dont want any part of..so if you message me
it will only get deleted cause i have to much going on in my damn life right now to have to deal with the damn drama between you and lana.
you and i dont have promblems cause i try my damn hardest to keep my mouth shut when it comes to the fighting and the drama im not the type of person to stick my nose where it dont belong
i keep to myself when it come's to drama around here

your's truely
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