WTF
09:36 Oct 30 2007
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Ok I have 2 WTF moments from new whelp profiles I've rated tonight.



1. WTF is this obsession with Jeffree Star??? I mean really... sure he/she tries hard, but how serious can you get about someone whose claim to fame in their "singing" career consists of a. stealing other people's music, and b. saying fuck and cunt every other word??? He/She doesn't even look that good! Maybe I'm showing my age here... I don't know. I suppose I'll get a round of emo kids banging on my doorstep vehemently defending their idol now... cry me a waahmbulance kids!



2. WTF is it with people putting dating site blurbs on their profile pages??? As in, "hi, I'm 24 and 5'8 and blonde and single and looking for someone to care for me and love me and share good times with..." WTF is up with that! This is NOT a dating site kiddies!!!!* You see those ads at the bottom right hand corner of your page.... THOSE are dating sites! Go there!!!



3. WTF is it with people using the wrong spelling of a particular word to convey a particular meaning??? My current bugbear is, coincidentally, the word bear. As in, "please bear with me". I'm sorry kids, it's not "please BARE with me". That would imply we're getting naked together. And we most certainly are not! GET IT RIGHT!!!





* disclaimer: that is not to say that a whole heap of hook-ups haven't happened in here, coz I know they have (hell I've participated in them)... however that's not the main purpose of this site... it's just kind of incidental...









Anyhoo. Those are my WTF moments of the night. I'm off to go to D&D now. Woo!

07:29 Oct 28 2007
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Grr.
01:03 Oct 28 2007
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For those of you who aren't aware I currently have my mother living with me, due to a complicated set of circumstances. She's been here since January. I'm starting to feel the strain. Not being someone who lives with other people on a regular basis, I'm really starting to miss having space, peace, quiet and time to myself. Mum is lovely don't get me wrong, but she's just here all the time.



It's exceedingly frustrating.



Friday afternoon I bought Oblivion and had grand plans of playing it all weekend. I think I've managed 5 hours tops. Why? Because every time I manage to get on the computer, mum's like, oh you're not going to spend all day on that thing again are you? And lays the guilt trip on me.



Grrrr.



I'm trying to subtly encourage her to move out. It's difficult however, as she doesn't have a permanent job, and her current casual job is up in the air security wise right now.



In the meantime I'm putting up with her well-meaning but incredibly annoying presence as best I can. As I don't want to snap and go psycho on her. Lol.



Sympathies anyone? Hehe.

Lonely
14:28 Oct 26 2007
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It's No Good I'm going to take my time I have all the time in the world To make you mine It is written in the stars above The gods decree You'll be right here by my side Right next to me You can run, but you cannot hide Don't say you want me Don't say you need me Don't say you love me It's understood Don't say you're happy Out there without me I know you can't be 'cause it's no good I'll be fine I'll be waiting patiently Till you see the signs And come running to my open arms When will you realise Do we have to wait till our worlds collide Open up your eyes You can't turn back the tide Don't say you want me Don't say you need me Don't say you love me It's understood Don't say you're happy Out there without me I know you can't be 'cause it's no good I'm going to take my time I have all the time in the world To make you mine It is written in the stars above Don't say you want me Don't say you need me Don't say you love me It's understood Don't say you're gappy Out there without me I know you can't be 'cause it's no good

13:19 Oct 26 2007
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I bought Oblivion today. Spent the last 5 or so hours playing. Feeling a bit dead now =P

For Her
13:08 Oct 25 2007
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I just found this on another community I'm in.
21:13 Oct 24 2007
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This is the Seventeen Body Peace Pledge.

• Remember that the sun will still rise tomorrow even if I had one too many slices of pizza or an extra scoop of ice cream tonight.



• Never blame my body for the bad day I'm having.



• Stop joining in when my friends compare and trash their own bodies.



• Never allow a dirty look from someone else to influence how I feel about my appearance.



• Quit judging a person solely by how his or her body looks — even if it seems harmless — because I'd never want anyone to do that to me.



• Notice all the amazing things my body is doing for me every moment I walk, talk, think, breathe...



• Quiet that negative little voice in my head when it starts to say mean things about my body that I'd never tolerate anyone else saying about me.



• Remind myself that what you see isn't always what you get on TV and in ads — it takes a lot of airbrushing, dieting, money, and work to look like that.



• Remember that even the girl who I'd swap bodies with in a minute has something about her looks that she hates.



• Respect my body by feeding it well, working up a sweat when it needs it, and knowing when to give it a break.



• Realize that the mirror can reflect only what's on the surface of me, not who I am inside.



• Know that I'm already beautiful just the way I am.

Yes it's from a fashion magazine aimed at younger girls. But finally, finally, people are starting to put the word out that just because you're not a size 6 (size 0 in the U.S.) doesn't mean that you're not worthy.



I'm a bigger girl, I freely admit to it, those of you who have seen my photos or talked to me know it. I've struggled with my weight all my life and missed a lot of opportunities because of it. I hate feeling substandard because of my weight. I hate knowing that I'm looked down upon by the "thin" people. I hate feeling that I'll never find someone because no one loves a fat girl.



So yes. I think it's a good step. Now I just have to take those points to heart myself!

There is more than one kind of love.
13:28 Oct 24 2007
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I was just talking to a friend on MSN.



Sometimes... the love you don't expect, the love you didn't look for, is the love that surprises you and turns everything around again.









Jesse says:

everything is a thing >.> and whether people like it or not.. they call into that subject!

Juwee says:

i's not a fing

Jesse says:

Even though I definately consider you to be a someone =P

Juwee says:

i's a juwee

Juwee says:

well, good!

Jesse says:

of course =)

Juwee says:

i'm glad i'm a someone =P

Jesse says:

of course =P a very special someone, at that =P

Juwee says:

awwwww shucks

Juwee says:

*blushes*

Jesse says:

>.>

Juwee says:

*shuffles feet*

Jesse says:

s'true=)

Juwee says:

awwwww *blushes more*

Jesse says:

>.>

Jesse says:

Going to be ok? =) =P

Juwee says:

i'll manage

Juwee says:

*gives you super hugs*

Juwee says:

fanks

Jesse says:

woot *accepts the super hugs and hugs back* =P

Jesse says:

of course =)

Juwee says:

woo!

Juwee says:

i get hugs!

Juwee says:

what a fabulous day!

Jesse says:

Makes me feel good t hear that I helped make your day fabulous =)

Juwee says:

awwwww

Juwee says:

now i'm all gooey =P

Jesse says:

lol my bad >.> =P

Juwee says:

nono

Juwee says:

s'good

Juwee says:

i like being goooey

Jesse says:

=D

Juwee says:

don't get gooey too much lately

Juwee says:

so, s'good!

Jesse says:

woo!

Jesse says:

how come!?

Juwee says:

gooey tends to hurt

Jesse says:

=(

Jesse says:

yet.. you are accepting this gooey >.>

Juwee says:

yesh

Juwee says:

hurts but i still like it

Juwee says:

n want it

Juwee says:

n stuff

Jesse says:

=P

Jesse says:

=)

Jesse says:

Dun wanna hurt my juwee =(

Juwee says:

awwwww

Juwee says:

s'ok

Juwee says:

you won't

Juwee says:

coz if you do i'll come over and poke you

Jesse says:

>.>

Juwee says:

don't think i won't!

Jesse says:

i know you will =P

Jesse says:

but poking can be nice

Juwee says:

well... i'll use fingernails!

Juwee says:

wait... i think yo ulike that.

Juwee says:

hm

Juwee says:

with a stick!

Jesse says:

=)

Jesse says:

uh oh

Jesse says:

aww =(

Juwee says:

awww

Juwee says:

*huggles*

Jesse says:

I wouldn't do nuttin' to hurt you =)

Juwee says:

nuttin'?

Juwee says:

=P

Jesse says:

>.>

Juwee says:

awwwww

Juwee says:

s'cute

Jesse says:

lol =P

Jesse says:

I still dun like that it tends to hurt >.>

Juwee says:

well...

Juwee says:

i make a lot of bad decisions

Jesse says:

=(

Juwee says:

s'ok

Juwee says:

everytime i do i learn a lil more =P

Juwee says:

soon i will know everything!

Jesse says:

learning is good =P

Juwee says:

hehe yes

Jesse says:

lol =P well, if you will soon know everything.. atleast you come to terms with the fact that you are going to make bad decisions =P

Juwee says:

oh i'm already to terms with that

Jesse says:

=P

Juwee says:

i'm like, decision time! *braces self*

Jesse says:

uh oh >.>

Juwee says:

mmhmm

Juwee says:

one day i will learn enough to have learnt not to base real life on online life... one day

Jesse says:

That can always be a toughy =/

Jesse says:

I met Julia online >.>

Juwee says:

yep

Juwee says:

i know

Jesse says:

its always a rough decision to make >.>

Juwee says:

it is

Juwee says:

am not saying it doesnt work because sometimes it does

Jesse says:

yep yep

Jesse says:

Well, I hate that you have had bad experiences with it in the past =( I'd just hate to be someone that could hurt you >.>

Juwee says:

aww

Juwee says:

well thank you hun

Juwee says:

and, you won't

Juwee says:

unless you suddenly stopped talking to me =P

Juwee says:

then i would cry.

Juwee says:

or something

Jesse says:

'course not =)

Jesse says:

lol =P

Juwee says:

good

Jesse says:

Well, I'm the one who blocked everyone and cranked up the volume so that I would get woke up if/when you logged on after no matter how much sleep I got just so I would get to talk with you for a few >.>

Juwee says:

i know

Jesse says:

=P

Juwee says:

makes me feel spesh!

Jesse says:

You are =)

Juwee says:

awww shucks!

Juwee says:

no youare!

Jesse says:

lol

Jesse says:

Nah, we discussed this yesterday =P I'm nuthin special =)

Juwee says:

yesh you are

Juwee says:

so there

Juwee says:

nyah

Jesse says:

>.>

Juwee says:

no, you are. seriously

Jesse says:

oh? o.o

Juwee says:

mmhmm

Jesse says:

but why >.>

Juwee says:

hehe

Juwee says:

oh the conflict =P

Jesse says:

yup yup =P

Juwee says:

lol

Juwee says:

same page is good

Juwee says:

wait, what page is that again? heh

Jesse says:

I'm pretty sure it's a pretty good page =P

Juwee says:

cool

Jesse says:

but ya know.. I just closed the book.. and I don't really wanna flip through it again =P

Juwee says:

with pictures

Juwee says:

awww

Jesse says:

do you want pictures in this book? =P

Juwee says:

yesh!

Juwee says:

purdy pictures!

Jesse says:

mmk =)

Juwee says:

yay!

Jesse says:

:D

Juwee says:

pictures are good, mmkay?

Jesse says:

'course

Juwee says:

:D

Jesse says:

:D

Jesse says:

still can't get the whole.. bad decisions gooey hurting thing off my mind >.>

Juwee says:

i'm sorry =(

Jesse says:

oh, it's fine =/

Jesse says:

Just you're too special a person.. shouldn't have to worry about such things all the time >.> You deserve to be able to get all gooey w/o all the worry =P lol

Juwee says:

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

Juwee says:

*sniffs*

Juwee says:

thank you

Jesse says:

of course =) s'true =/ dun like a hurt juwee

Juwee says:

aw fanks hun

Jesse says:

>.>

Jesse says:

'course =P

Juwee says:

*hugs*

Jesse says:

aw

Jesse says:

*teh huggage* =P

Juwee says:

yesh

Juwee says:

i'm feelin the lurve!

Juwee says:

lol

Jesse says:

:D

Juwee says:

hehe

Juwee says:

s'good

Jesse says:

ok =) s'long as it's good =P

Juwee says:

of course =D











This is the kind of unlooked for, completely unconditional, unerotic kind of love that makes everything else seem worthwhile.



Love you Geinie =)

Quandries
23:35 Oct 23 2007
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Ok so now I'm trying to figure out what I'm going to do with myself.



Obviously my current job I have no attachment to any longer. I'm already starting to withdraw myself from it. However, it does pay the bills, and reasonably well.



Maybe my future is approaching closer than I thought.



I believe 26th November is when the current changes at work are going through, which would be when I lose my acting position and go back to being a grunt. That's a month away. If I were to resign, I need to give 5 week's notice. Coincidence??? I think not.



So I had to shelve my plans for going to the U.S. at Christmas time for various reasons. Now, I may just be able to do it again. And stay for the full 3 months allowable. Hmmm. Very tempting.







Ultimately I think I need to let go of my fears and embrace the unknown. I believe it will be for the better. It's just hard...

22:33 Oct 23 2007
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So once again I'm back down to level 26.



I am so sick of this constant teetering backwards and forwards between one level and the next.



It's impossible to gain level under this new system. I'm just not going anywhere.



And I'm completely fed up with the fact that it's the posting in the forum that takes you to the next level so quickly, when it has the least weighting.



Am feeling very blah and beset-upon today.



Want huggles =(

09:44 Oct 23 2007
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Didn't get the promotion.



Fucking PISSED.



Don't want to talk.



What I want is something involving knives, and blood, and screaming.



Unless you want to be the one screaming, don't talk to me. Not just yet.

13:17 Oct 21 2007
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I don't wanna go to work tomorrow. I don't wanna find out whether or not I got my promotion. I don't wanna have to deal with the argument with a staff member I have lined up for first thing Monday morning.



I wanna stay at home, in my bed, holding my love. I feel... bereft. I feel like there's more and I'm not having it. I feel like I'm missing out somehow.



The mundanities of life... what are they for. What are they for??? What's the purpose to it all. Why... why do we keep doing it?



I have a promise of more, I just have to find the strength to do it, to not back down, to not take the easy way out like I always do.



Goddess help me, I will.

Lolz
08:15 Oct 20 2007
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I just took the Acolyte test... and failed =P



It's harder than it looks, peoples!!!



And no I'm not going to say what I got =P

=(
09:54 Oct 18 2007
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I just found out an old friend died last week. He committed suicide. I have no words, really. We hadn't been close for a while, but that doesn't mean I didn't care. I guess that's it though. I didn't show it. =(





The sad thing when people die is that they leave all their websites up and running. And then people comment on it.



Reading those comments has brought me to tears.



Farewell Etchi. You will be greatly missed.

He who is wise in his heart,

Sorrows neither for the living nor the dead.

All that lives, lives forever,

Only the shell, the perishable, passes away.

The spirit is without end,

Eternal, deathless.

Blah.
23:05 Oct 16 2007
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On Friday I have an interview for the job I'm currently acting in, in order to be confirmed for the position and (most importantly) start getting paid for it.



I've been acting as a team leader since the beginning of this year on a pretty much full time basis. I haven't been getting paid for it, I've been doing longer hours (case in point, last Monday I worked an 11 hour day...), I don't get the added benefits of being managerial, I just do more work. Every so often the centre manager gives me a lump sum payment which just sends my tax through the roof that pay (goddamn HECS debt) so I end up getting paid less that fortnight.



These positions actually went up for filling permanently previously in April/May this year. I applied for them but didn't get them (obviously). At the time they said I wasn't experienced enough. Well I bloody well better be experienced enough now!!!



I've been thinking about it and I've decided if I don't get this job I'm just going to go. I've got better things to do with my time than sit in a soul-destroying job with no career opportunities in a company that is hated and reviled and putting up with whinging, whining and abusive customers and staff every day.



Besides I need to learn more about horticulture and herbal crafts... and that's not going to happen while I'm working so much.

Hope.
12:25 Oct 14 2007
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Who dares deny that this is true:

The whole is more than all its parts?

A whole love than divided love,

Or than half love from fifty hearts?

Yet who dare either this deny:

The part is more than is the whole?

That treasures halved with one dear love

Are more than double to the soul?



Arthur Dillon

you lie
12:57 Oct 12 2007
Times Read: 1,008

Barrel of a Gun   Do you mean this horny creep set upon weary feet Who looks in need of sleep that doesn't come This twisted, tortured mess This bed of sinfulness who's longing for some rest and feeling numb What do you expect of me What is it you want Whatever you've planned for me I'm not the one A vicious appetite visits me each night and won't be satisfied Won't be denied An unbearable pain A beating in my brain that leaves the mark of cain right here inside What am I supposed to do when everything that I've done is leading me to conclude I'm not the one Whatever I've done I've been staring down the barrel of a gun Is there something you need from me Are you having your fun I never agreed to be your holy one Whatever I've done I've been staring down the barrel of a gun

*yawns*
17:50 Oct 06 2007
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...ish late. I realise I haven't posted anything in here for a while. My apologies to my avid readers *coff coff yeah right*. The thing is someone has claimed my heart and my time, hence I am on here less. And I'm not even going to talk about the lack of time I have due to work. So yeah =P



If you really wanna talk to me, email me.