That's it. I officially give up. I'm too old for this shit. I'm just going to sit back and buy stocks in Energiser, and spend my quite substantial pay packet on myself from here on out, because quite frankly it's not worth it, as much as I might long for it to be otherwise.
I would have thought that at my age I had figured out that there's no such thing as a happily ever after. Or true love. Or hell, even a romance that works. Evidently not. Or at least, not for me. I could sit here forever screaming WHY to an uncaring universe but hey I learned a while ago that that never works. So from now on it's all about me, by myself, the way it was evidently intended to be.
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Oh no! What happened????
I am not entirely sure. It got awkward and then I got the "we'd be better as just friends" email. *shrugs*
Totally his loss
Half of me wants to sing and run and dance and skip around madly, and the other half is waiting for the inevitable crushing despair that comes with the rejection that's bound to happen, because it always does.
Please don't let it be like that this time. I really like this one.
...And also it's like some god somewhere, in a fit of I don't know what, read my list of what I want and ticked off ALL the boxes and handed it back to me with a smile. Because, damn. Everything is there. EVERYTHING.
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Don't go looking for disappointment - because if you do it will certainly find you.
Just live in the NOW - enjoy every waking moment....
I am trying! I am really really trying!
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Nedra
00:12 Jun 23 2011
*hug*