There's really not alot of point to this entry except to say my friends rock their geeky lil sox off, and I lubs em. Read from the bottom up.
From: "John W"
To: "Julie *"
Subject: RE: Hiya!
Date: Sun, 17 Jun 2007 18:00:53 +1000
lol!
See, I can imagine that, and now it's really hard on a deity.
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From: Julie *
Sent: Sunday, 17 June 2007 5:56 PM
To: John W
Subject: RE: Hiya!
i know but that's why you're my favourite one *flutters eyelashes*
=P
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From: "John W"
To: "Julie *"
Subject: RE: Hiya!
Date: Sun, 17 Jun 2007 17:54:44 +1000
;P
*sigh*
OK, I'll see what I can rustle up.
You make it hard on a deity you know?
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From: Julie *
Sent: Sunday, 17 June 2007 5:52 PM
To: John W
Subject: RE: Hiya!
hahahaha
lol, thanks :)
um, i dunno. i'm still waiting for my knight in black studded leather to come along and steal me away, lol...
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From: "John W"
To: "Julie *"
Subject: RE: Hiya!
Date: Sun, 17 Jun 2007 17:51:27 +1000
LOL :)=)
Hmmmmm how unexpected!
(see, I didn't even include Timmy in the joke.)
So, what now?
You are one of the most interesting women I know, although, granted, my breadth in this area is not great.
And you look hot in your glasses :)
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From: Julie *
Sent: Sunday, 17 June 2007 5:43 PM
To: John W
Subject: RE: Hiya!
uh, no
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From: "John W"
To: "Julie *"
Subject: RE: Hiya!
Date: Sun, 17 Jun 2007 17:43:03 +1000
Shane and Tony not meed your needs in an available male huh?
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From: Julie *
Sent: Sunday, 17 June 2007 5:42 PM
To: John W
Subject: RE: Hiya!
it's all my social life too. need to change that and get noticed lol. biological clock and all, y'know
not that you guys aren't the best, just, lol you know
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From: "John W"
To: "Julie *"
Subject: RE: Hiya!
Date: Sun, 17 Jun 2007 17:37:49 +1000
We could, but I would miss you.
I know I get tired of organising it all.
But the games represent 95% of my social life.
And I'm kind of looking forward to running WoD again, we'll have to speed up Tony's game a bit. :)
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From: Julie *
Sent: Sunday, 17 June 2007 5:23 PM
To: John W
Subject: RE: Hiya!
stop rubbing it in! lol
well, we could just take a break from all things game related for a bit... i know i'm feeling a bit over it all right now... but that could just be me
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From: "John W"
To: "Julie *"
Subject: RE: Hiya!
Date: Sun, 17 Jun 2007 17:21:56 +1000
Hey. [big hug]
I suppose I should also organise for the omega game that week (26th June) to be at Paul's or Cheryl's place.
I'm sure they can organise it for themselves.
Yay, holidays!
I'm on holidays....
Wow. That list of jobs is longer than I remember....
Work function on tonight. I'm fairly drunk. Sitting thinking. Should I send him an email? I really want to. But, would I be wasting my time? More than likely.
(so many typos edited out of this you wouldn't believe.)
Fuck.
I'm so lonely.
Where are you?
Must be the night for it. Just got a reminder about the previous ex, who was an even bigger bastard. *sighs* Obviously not my night.
I just got an email from the ex being a bastard. I just want to stab something now.
Today I found out a friend of mine, an internet friend, who I've known for about a year and always had a fairly good girly relationship with, is not in fact a girl. He's a guy. He's young. And he's gay. He hid who he was from me in order to not have to face the possibility of rejection. That's so sad.
I'm completely disgusted by a society that enforces such standards of morality that someone cannot admit who they are and have to suffer because of it.
BTW, I would never reject someone for their gender, age or sexual preference. I'm kind of hurt that he'd think I would...
It has occurred to me that I'm waiting to be rescued.
6 years later and I'm still waiting...
Note to self: leave out smilies involving greater than and less than symbols... eats remainder of posts *facepalm*
Well after taking ages to shift off Ghoul, I suddenly find myself at Fiend, lol.
Today is a gloriously rainy day! I love the rain! Love listening to it on my roof, love staying in bed and being all warm and snuggly. Hate having to go to work in it though.
People laugh when I say the rain is fantastic, but over here, we're in the middle of a drought. We haven't had a decent fall of rain in probably 2 years now. We're on level 5 water restrictions which basically means that all water use is monitored, you can't water your garden or wash your car, and showers are supposed to be 4 minutes long maximum (though I can never get mine to only 4 minutes... maybe if I was a guy *shrugs*). It's very restrictive, but it's supposed to be, and I guess it's the price you have to pay for living in one of the driest places in the world.
Other than the rain, I've got the rest of the week off work, so I'm pretty happy about that too. I do have to do some work from home, and I have to go in on Thursday to see one of the managers, but I'm glad to have this time off =)
Friday night we have a work funtion on at the Sheraton, I was going to go buy a new little black dress, but I think I'll just make do with what I've got. And hey, free alcomohol!!!
I've also just been inducted into the Coven of Shi Jin Ten Chi Sho. It's very exciting ^^ I've been playing Hangman, lol. The American spelling gets me almost every time though >.
So I'm having a hard time shifting off Ghoul status lol. I guess it's a long slow slog from here on in.
In other news it's been 3 days since the deletion... while I'm still thinking about him it's not constant. I have the urge to as how he's going but I haven't. And I've discovered I'm actually having fun...
Ah well.
Today I went ahead and blocked and deleted him from my msn.
I'm free. Just sad it had to turn out this way. He encouraged a future together, then it ended up like this. He said he wants to be "alone", if he keeps it up like this he certainly will be.
Don't know what I should be feeling to tell you the truth...
So this morning, I logged into MSN when I got up as per usual, and he logged straight out.
It fucking hurt :(
Now I have to go to work and think about this shit all day...
...and in other news I tried talking to the boy last night. I'm... not entirely sure how it went though. I intendend to ask him to let me go, so I could move on... but... he was such a wounded puppy >.< and now I don't know what's happening...
Bah!!!
I think if I maybe maneuver myself into being a big sister type of figure... someone he can talk to and ask for advice maybe... I dunno. I still love him, but I'm doubting that it would work, because he's just too young to give me what I need, and I'm too old to sit around waiting for him to get his shit together forever.
*sighs*
Damn I didn't realise I'd spent so much time in here o.O lol
In celebration, here's a bit of a quiz about me:
This is me | |
Basics | |
Your Full Name?: | Julie... |
D.O.B?: | 14/03/1974 |
Place You Were Born?: | Nowra, NSW |
Current Location?: | Brisbane, Qld |
Siblings?: | 1 brother, Phillip. A raft of step-brothers and sisters. |
Hair Colour?: | Brown with reddy and blondey bits in it |
Eye Colour?: | Hazel (I love my eyes they change colour all the time) |
Height?: | 161cm |
Weight?: | A lady never tells =P let's just say I'm comfortably plump |
Tattoos?: | No |
Piercings?: | Only ears, these days |
Your Worst Fear?: | Being alone all my life |
What School You Go To?: | ... finished school years ago. Finished uni years ago >.< |
Whos Your Best Friend?: | Selener |
Favourites | |
Music?: | Alternative type music, hard rock, darker stuff, leftover bits of 90's stuff |
Band?: | Right now I like a wide variety of bands. In no particular order: Mudvayne, Type O Negative, A Perfect Circle, The Cure, The Smiths, Tiamat, Depeche Mode, Tool, Korn... etc |
Song?: | Hm don't really have a favourite song right now. On my repeat list are Mudvayne - Goodbye, Type O Negative - Angel, A Perfect Circle - 3 Libras |
Film(s)?: | Horror, sci-fi, fantasy |
Colour?: | Purple. Specifically dark, dark purple |
TV Show(s)?: | Don't watch tv |
Food?: | Italian or Asian |
Drink?: | Coke |
Alcohol?: | Frangelico or a sweet red wine |
Car?: | Don't drive but I'd love to have a Firebird *purrs* |
Video Game?: | Tie between The Sims 2 and V:tM Bloodlines |
Guitar Make?: | Dunno |
Place To Be?: | In front of my computer |
Animal?: | Cat |
Soap Programme?: | Don't watch |
Cartoon?: | I like anime or hentai |
TV channel?: | Don't watch |
Actor?: | Don't have one |
Actress?: | Don't have one |
Word?: | supercalifragilisticexpialidocious |
Shoe Make?: | Don't have one |
Time Of Year?: | That little bit in between winter and summer when everything's perfect |
Have You Ever? | |
Bunked School?: | Yes |
Beaten Someone Up?: | No |
Been Beaten Up?: | No |
Been In A MOSHPIT?: | Yes |
Smoked?: | Tried it, didn't like it |
Been Drunk?: | Several times. Not so much any more, though |
Been In Love?: | Yes |
Been Nearly Killed?: | No |
Been Depressed?: | Yes |
Have You | |
Got A Best Mate?: | Yes |
Who?: | Selener... read up >.< |
Girlfriend/Boyfriend?: | Technically, no |
Who?: | ... |
Love? | |
Are You Single Or Taken?: | I'm on a "break"... don't know how long that will last |
Love Him/Her?: | I thought so, but now I'm wondering |
Your Perfect Girl?: | Cute, dark, short, funny. Like me =P |
Your Perfect Guy?: | Cute, dark, tall, funny. Blue or light coloured eyes. Good sense of humour. Secure in themselves. Not afraid to commit. Loving. |
What Does Your Partner Look Like?: | Nothing, I don't have one |
How Far You Willing To Go With Your Partner?: | I went halfway across the world for the one I'm on a "break" with now, what does that tell you... |
Randoms | |
Rock Or Metal?: | Rock |
Sunny Or Rainy?: | Rainy |
Best M8?: | I'm not saying this again... really |
Play An Instrument?: | No |
Like Thunderstorms?: | Yes |
Thing You Most Regret?: | Possibly wasting the last year of my life on an idiot who doesn't know what he's missing |
Do You Look Like A Celebrity?: | Uh... no |
Right Now | |
Who Are You Listening To?: | No one |
What Are You Watching?: | Computer screen |
Who Are You With?: | No one |
What Are You Wearing?: | It's cold here... so trakkies and fluffy socks lol |
How Do You Feel?: | Ok, not great, but not too bad either |
What Are You Thinking About?: | What to have for breakfast =P |
Take this survey | Find more surveys | MySpace Surveys Bzoink - The Original Survey Site |
Hm well. Post the first.
Let me start by saying I'm in something of a fragile state of mind right now. My relationship of the past year, which I had thought was "the one", ended yesterday.
Well, technically we're on a "break", but I'm not an idiot. I know there's no recovery from that.
So as a result, I've been moping a little bit, spending time being melancholy. Looking up depressing quotes and listening to breakup music.
Here's some quotes that took my eye.
Hell's afloat in lover's tears ~ Author Unknown
You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly ~ Sam Keen
Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop ~ Author Unknown
Ah well. No doubt I'll get over it all soon enough.
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