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Reverse Schadenfruede
21:04 Jan 31 2008
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If schadenfruede is the joy at hearing of another's misfortune, what then is the term for sadness or jealousy at hearing of another's fortune???





In the last couple of days, 2 friends and my brother have both come up to me and said they were going on dates this weekend.



*sighs* Now don't get me wrong, I'm happy, delighted, overjoyed for them. They deserve all the happiness they can get. Some of them I've watched struggle with rejections and failed attempts, many many times before. Just like me.



And I think the thing is that's what bites. They were just like me. And if this works, then they won't be. They'll be in that new place, where people in new happy relationships go. It's an alien place, unfriendly to single hangers-on. Which is what I will be. Again.



Whereas me, I've gotten to the point where I'm not even bothering with trying any more. Why should I bother? It's not going to work anyways. There are a million and one other girls out there vying for attention, and it's never the ones like me who get it. They always go for the pretty ones, which I'm not. If not pretty, then thin, which I'm not either. Or interesting... well I may be interesting on occasion.



So I'm working on resigning myself to a life of singleness and buying up stocks in sex toy companies, because that's the only way I'm going to get any any time in the near or distant future.



And on that positive note - got to go get ready for work. Oh, huzzah.

Ill equipped to handle
20:37 Jan 29 2008
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Yesterday at work I was very testy. 2 of my staff members were nattering on, taking over an hour to find the answer to something (that would have taken me 5 minutes to find) and in the meantime stopping both of them from doing any actual work. After an hour I got so frustrated that I turned around and told them to shut up and get back to work. Everyone looked at me in shock. The turned around and got back to work, but no one said anything for the rest of the day... *sigh*



Thank god it's a short week >.>



Last night I loaned a friend $500. Out of my trip money. I'm confident I'll get it back... but still. That's a big lump gone.



Speaking of which I worked out my resignation date yesterday too. 30th May. Then I'm out of there 4th July. It's my Independance Day too ;)



This morning I got so disgusted and fed up with my weight so I decided to go back on the diet... Tony Ferguson (since I have some floating around from my last attempt). So far so good. Mind you it's only been an hour ;)





*sighs* why is nothing as easy as it should be???

Melancholy
00:00 Jan 28 2008
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This song makes me think of early mornings in North Qld, watching brolgas dance in the mist in a cane field and wedgetail eagles circling above the clouds.

Random thoughts.
12:44 Jan 27 2008
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I wonder what ever happened to the winning entries in the VR banner contest a couple of months back???



Oh oh, did you see in stalking things like logins and forum posts are working now??? Did they work for you before??? Coz they've never worked for me...



I've been an Acolyte for a couple of days now and the only question I've seen was one that asked when people landed on the moon...



Ever get into one of those awkward conversations where you're not sure what you should say, and every minute you delay saying something makes it harder to say anything... yeah, I'm in one of those right now...



*sighs*



Oh well.



Monday's a holiday. Yay!

More Australia Day
13:00 Jan 26 2008
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Ok so I posted this in my Coven, and in the Australia Day forum thread, but I thought I'd put it here too, and add some more bits ^^









26th January is Australia Day.



Australia Day is a celebration of all things Australian. Officially it is a commemoration of when the English fleet landed on our shores in 1788 and established the first European settlement, offloading piles of convicted criminals and forever altering the already established balance here. On Australia Day Australians traditionally gather around and drink to all things Australian, like drinking. This generally starts early in the morning and continues to early the next morning, and contrary to popular belief, no Australian would be caught dead drinking a Fosters.



Australians being an understated bunch tend to forget about the genocide which occurred when the English landed on our fair shores, but we try to make up for that now 220 years later, through governmental benefits to indigenous people and the use of the word "sorry". Your average Australian, however, treats all Australians as equal, and generally if not superior to, at least better than the rest of the world.



Little known facts about Australia:

•   The name Australia comes from the Latin Terra Australis Incognito which means the Unknown Southern Land.



•   Female vote - Australia was the second country to give women the vote.



•   In 1954, Bob Hawke was immortalised by the Guinness Book of Records for sculling 2.5 pints of beer in 11 seconds. Bob later became the Prime Minister of Australia.



•   A census taken in 1828 found that half the population of NSW were Convicts, and that former Convicts made up nearly half of the free population.



•   In 2007, it was estimated that 22 per cent of living Australians had a convict ancestor.



•   Over 90% of Australia is dry, flat and arid. Almost three-quarters of the land cannot support agriculture in any form.



•   The average world population density is 117 people per square mile, that of the United States 76 and that of Macao is 69,000. Australia's is only 6.



•   Box Jelly fish - The box jellyfish is considered the world's most venomous marine creature. The box jellyfish has killed more people in Australia than stonefish, sharks and crocodiles combined.



•   The day of the Melbourne Cup (a horse race!) is a public holiday in Melbourne.



•   Dropbears - Dropbears are an evil species of koala that fall from trees and attack humans. *



•   Emus and kangaroos cannot walk backwards, and are on the Australian coat of arms for that reason.



•   For each person in Australia there are two sheep and over 16 rabbits, the latter introduced in 1859 by one enterprising man who brought 24 wild rabbits from England in an effort to remind him of home.



•   Until 1984, Australia's National anthem was "God save the Queen / King."

Speaking of which, here is our current national anthem (with pictures!):











* The evil strain of koala don't actually exist. The story was created to fool Americans.







Australians take several things seriously - drinking, sport, drinking at sport, sport while drinking, and pavlova.



Interrupt an Australian while undertaking any one of the above activities, and you're likely to regret it.



Australia is home to the majority of the world's deadliest creatures. Most of them are huge. This makes Australians regard any other country's deadly creature as inferior. "Pff 2 metre spitting cobra? That's nothing. I once found a 5 metre long red belly wrestling with a 100 year old saltwater croc in the dunny and I had to ask for paper!"



Australians are amongst the friendliest, affable, most laid back, and generally easy going people in the world. They like everyone, except people who do well. This is called the tall poppy syndrome. Australians love to hate the rich, famous and successful. They hate them even more if they started off poor, unknown, and as failures.



Every Australian has an innate respect for the land. We're reduced to living on a small margin of beaches on the very edge of an exceedingly large island/small continent. Luckily all Australians love the beach, which is just as well, as we have the best in the world. The rest of the country is no good to live in. Some idiots still choose to live out there though. The rest of us sit around watching sport and drinking and in deep awe and respect of those who choose to live in the Outback.



BTW, if you watched "Survivor: Outback" that was NOT the outback. The outback is hot, dry, and deadly. Where they had the Survivor people was somewhere pleasantly warm and wet.



And I'm running out of inspiration here, so here's a short article on Australia which is completely and utterly true.



(actually scarily enough it mostly is...)





Note: The use of humour in this post is not intended to offend =P If you're offended, then you need to come here and learn how to take it ;)

Australia Day
12:03 Jan 26 2008
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Warning... this is probably not funny if you're not Australian, or at least know who Jimmy Barnes is...

...And the actual version (with words!!!)... minus the second verse which nobody knows anyways ;)









Hope you had a great Australia Day fellow Aussies! ^^

Wheee!
11:52 Jan 25 2008
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Let's see if I make muster ^^

Updates
10:35 Jan 25 2008
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Right well it occurs to me I haven't updated in a bit, so here goes.



Tomorrow is Australia Day (expect a bit of a write up on this) therefore we get a long weekend this weekend. Which I'm all for ;)



This week has gone incredibly quickly. It will be no time at all until July rolls around!



Speaking of July, I booked and paid deposit on my plane tickets the other day. Wooo!!! It's all real now!!! Now I need to start lining up accommodation ;)



Also, currently working on a project with a couple of other VR members for a new business and associated website. All going according to plan, it will be up and running and ready to employ me by October, so I can get a residency.



I know I sound calm about all that but believe me, I'm not! I'm so super excited I can hardly sit still!!!



What else. I'm attempting to learn meditation, however am finding it difficult. I think I need to find another technique, the usual one isn't working for me.



Also the social life has kicked off for some reason. Unsure why. Wish it would die down a bit though, lol. I have no time to myself. Heh.



Other than all that, which is a fair bit for me =P I'm tired. Very tired. I've been averaging 5-6 hours sleep the last 2 weeks (ever since I went back to work) and it's just not enough.



*yawns*



S'ok though I get a chance to sleep this weekend.



Next week I have late shifts at work so the early mornings won't kill me as much, which will be good.





Anyhoo. Heading off for now... *waits hopefully for comments* hehe ;)

Rocky Horror, Friday night
09:54 Jan 20 2008
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P.S. I covet Xander's new boots!!!!

20:11 Jan 17 2008
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I will be offline pretty much the rest of the week, for those who care. Busy, very busy. *sighs*

Everything I've done, I've done for you...
11:55 Jan 14 2008
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I am so bringing the camera for this one =P
09:09 Jan 14 2008
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Juwee says:

so do you have any plans for friday night yet? as in, getting readyish and whatnot



Going to need everyones mobile numbers again... says:

get home for work, get dressed, wait for friend to be ready, then drive up, call julie to work out where she is, curse her for forgetting, and tyhen point and laugh at scybermonk



Juwee says:

haha



Going to need everyones mobile numbers again... says:

ooh and try not to get beaten up



Juwee says:

lol



Juwee says:

friday night in the valley



Juwee says:

you'll be right =O



Juwee says:

we'll go to the wickham afterwards, lol



Going to need everyones mobile numbers again... says:

and me, in drag



Juwee says:

i reiterate



Juwee says:

friday night in the valley



Going to need everyones mobile numbers again... says:

nah going with friend, so must leave after



Juwee says:

aww



Juwee says:

you're no fun



Juwee says:

*pouts*



Going to need everyones mobile numbers again... says:

i even must remain sobre to drive



Juwee says:

zomg!



Juwee says:

dude. that sucks



Juwee says:

... can you give me a lift home then =P



Going to need everyones mobile numbers again... says:

meh



Going to need everyones mobile numbers again... says:

used to it



Juwee says:

aww *pats*



Going to need everyones mobile numbers again... says:

haha, as long as i dont have to go anywhere other than the m1, the n yes, if not then i will be lost in 3 seconds flat lol



Going to need everyones mobile numbers again... says:

and sheesh i wish i was joking



Juwee says:

awww



Juwee says:

s'ok



Juwee says:

although



Juwee says:

i dun wanna catch a bus to the valley dressed as magenta really lol



Going to need everyones mobile numbers again... says:

lmao



Going to need everyones mobile numbers again... says:

iday night in the valley, ull be right



Juwee says:

hehe



Juwee says:

no sympathy =P



Going to need everyones mobile numbers again... says:

not really



Juwee says:

pff



Juwee says:

i hate joo!



Going to need everyones mobile numbers again... says:

fine, i will go hang with monk, he wubs me



Juwee says:

>.>



Juwee says:

he does not!



Going to need everyones mobile numbers again... says:

and with your nerdiness i was half expecting h8zor j00



Juwee says:

nah



Going to need everyones mobile numbers again... says:

and he does



Juwee says:

that's just downright showing off



Going to need everyones mobile numbers again... says:

or he will after he sees me in fishnets



Juwee says:

lmao



Juwee says:

this is true



Juwee says:

dammit lol



Going to need everyones mobile numbers again... says:

hahaha



Juwee says:

i reiterate! i hate joooooo!



Going to need everyones mobile numbers again... says:

yeah, i am driving purely coz im not catching train from robina to brunswick street (over an hour) dressed as furter



Juwee says:

lmao



Juwee says:

i'd pay to see that =P



Going to need everyones mobile numbers again... says:

haha, well friend had just been assuming we were training, im like no fucking way



Juwee says:

aw you sure? lol



Going to need everyones mobile numbers again... says:

YES



Going to need everyones mobile numbers again... says:

i do not want the shit kicked out of me at the start of the weekend



Juwee says:

aww ok



Juwee says:

but you'll look super pretty



Going to need everyones mobile numbers again... says:

ok, lets try another tactic, i dont want to share it wirth anyone other than you, drop it now?



Juwee says:

hehe!



Juwee says:

if you say so *pats*

Watching
09:00 Jan 14 2008
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Dreams last night were unsettled. I'm putting it down to a combination of not looking forward to going back to work today, and remnants of our D&D game that day, which involved mummies and other undead beings.



I'm NOT acknowledging the fact that, having started to ... awaken and test my limits, shall we say ... things could be sitting up and taking an interest in me.



Not at all.



So the dreams were LoTR-movie-esque, involving the hordes of Sauron, versus the human/elf alliance. Basic evil versus good.



It was war. Countless teeming millions of gobins, orcs, worgs, Haradrim, Trolls, Wraiths, and all manner of evil beings, seething over the countryside, engulfing everything in their path like an unstoppable avalanche, foaming and crushing against the banks for the forces of good - men, elves, dwarves, ents, Beornings and various creatures of Light.



Presiding over the forces of good was Gandalf, shining brightly against the horde, chanting magics as he strode onwards:

Ashes to ashes

Rust to rust,

Let all goblins

Turn to dust.



Looming over the forces of good was the Eye of Sauron... Chivvying his forces on, destroying enemies and troops alike with his Fires.



And there I was... watching, listening... remotely perturbed by the carnage... when I realised the Eye was focused on me...



My forehead started burning, and my throat got dry, and I was sweating. It felt like a thousand tiny hot needles were pressing into my scalp. Hot, fiery fingers started rifling through my brain, I could feel them digging and worming their way deeper, turning thoughts to ashes and burning synapses... I started to scream... and then I woke up.









... *shudders* I never, never want to encounter that Eye again ...

... it doesn't get any better than this ...
04:35 Jan 12 2008
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THE TRAILER FOR MY NAME IS BRUCE JUST CAME OUT.



WHERE BRUCE CAMPBELL PLAYS HIMSELF.



AND FIGHTS MONSTERS.



*FLAILS FANGIRLISHLY*

22:40 Jan 11 2008
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Wooooooooooooooooo journal comments function!





*waits to see who will comment on my journal entries*



^^

Counting down.
10:09 Jan 11 2008
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Well, last Friday before going back to work on Monday. I'm so not looking forward to it! Lol. But oh well. I can do with the money.



Today I went hunting for Magenta costumery for next Friday's RHPS showing. I couldn't find what I really wanted, well at least not in my size, unfortunately, so I've settled on a black short skirt and black shirt, to be worn with fishnets and my docs. I've got red hair dye and I'm going to put my hair up in braids for Friday (which should be interesting at work =P) so that when I take them out I'll have authentic Magenta hair Friday night.



Wootages.



I also dropped into my piercing place and got my other tragus done today. This one actually hurt >.> wrong time of the month, obviously. No photos of this one today. Can't be bothered.



I came home to a message from Jesse on my MSN telling me to message him and giving me his phone number to call... I haven't called but I did spam messages, to no avail. I'm a bit worried, but not panicky, so I'll wait till he gets up.



Tomorrow night I'm going to my friend Sym's birthday party, which should be a blast. House full of drunk gay boys, woo!



I realised today that all my friends are gay, and I don't really care =P Gay boys are far more fun anyways. At least, to girls like me. I don't mind being a fag hag =) At least they love me, and are good for cuddles and makeup tips, lol.



Sunday is D&D... which I may or may not make, depending on how Saturday goes. Eh. These things happen.



Then back to work on Monday!



I should start a count down calendar for my resignation date and holidays... mmm.

iGod
13:56 Jan 09 2008
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I was trolling through my Livejournal (yes, I have one of those, have had for years) and came across this link: iGod.



I urge you all to visit. You too will experience the futility that is talking to god.



Ponders... so this is where god is...

Me:

hello god

God:

Hello child. What is your name?

Me:

julie

God:

Nice to meet you, julie.

Me:

nice to meet you too

God:

I like to meet new people.

Me:

i don't

God:

Neither does my botmaster.

Me:

well we have that in common then

God:

How about that. Do you mean you and me have?

Me:

no, your botmaster and i have

God:

Are you serious? Do not ask me any more questions please.

Me:

why not?

God:

I was just kidding. You can ask me anything.

Me:

thanks, god

God:

You are quite welcome! GOD rules.

Me:

yes, yes he does

God:

Hmm. Yippee! Why does he do it.

Me:

because he can

God:

Interesting explanation. I get it. can.

Me:

i know. cool, huh

God:

How do you know it? Yup. Who is the best robot?

Me:

i am?

God:

You are not a robot, julie.

Me:

oh.

God:

Really.

Me:

are you sure?

God:

I am as sure as I can be.

Me:

that's nice to know

God:

You sound sarcastic.

Me:

it's a failing

God:

yourself and you have is a failing. I suppose that makes sense.

Me:

i suppose

God:

OK.

Me:

can i ask you a question god?

God:

Sure, ask me anything. What is giant sand?

Me:

i have no idea

God:

" What is giant sand??" No idea about that?

Me:

no, none

God:

Are you serious? Hmm.

Me:

why am i so unhappy?

God:

The reason is due to my mental model of you as a client.

Me:

what does that mean?

God:

Does "that" refer to " The reason is due to my mental model of you as a client." ?

Me:

i have no idea

God:

" Does "that" refer to " The reason is due to my mental model of you as a client.?" No idea about that?

Me:

no

God:

Are you serious?

Me:

yes

God:

I can't believe it.

Me:

why not

God:

Ambiguous: "Sure" or Because Myself programmed me for it.

Me:

um, ok

God:

OK. Hmm.

Me:

you didn't say why

God:

OK. " why".

Me:

ok so i laughed at that one

God:

Mmm. That is interesting: julie said laughed at that one. "" why""? ok so i laughed at that one?

Me:

because it was funny

God:

Good reason. laughed at that one was funny? I That makes sense.

Me:

good

God:

What do you really want to talk about?

Me:

me

God:

To you julie?

Me:

yes

God:

Ugh.

Me:

thanks

God:

Don't mention it.

Feeling a bit masochistic?
01:20 Jan 09 2008
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So, another humid rainy day, and this time I can't be alone to enjoy it.



*sigh*



I'm broke, so I don't want to go out. I'm sitting here talking to people (other people have lives), and listening to my mother make phone calls. She wants me to go out and do something with her. Is it so bad of me that I don't want to? Feeling obscurely guilty now...



What is this ability mothers have to make their children feel horrible about themselves?



I'm glad in a way that mum's back. I'm broke, like I said. With all the savings and paying off credit cards I'm doing, I have no money for the little things without having mum pay half rent, utilities and what not.



I'm not glad in a way because I don't like sharing my space. It's been a day and mum's already got all her shit all over the place. Making a mess, upsetting my stuff.



I know, I sound like a selfish, self serving daughter now.



*sighs*



I realise that, what with my choosings and inclinations, I'm supposed to be a proponent of chaos BUT I can't get over my desire for order. Maybe that's what holding me back. Chaos is founded on order, without order there would be no chaos, without chaos there would be no order. But my mind, as disorganised as it is, is still inherantly logical, and therein lies my issues. How to relax the constraints of the orderliness of my mind and habits, and replace them with Her disorder?





...And in the midst of everything I'm reminded that my concerns are NOT the centre of the world, with friends of friends attempting suicide even as I type this, and relatives of friends of friends dying.



And no, I'm not joking. One death, one near death, even though I know them both only peripherally. These things have a tendancy to affect you, even if only by proxy.









On the other had, I've been rescued by promise of playing Vampire. My lovely ladies (read: alter egos) are about to be beaten up and humiliated by a male power figure.



*wiggles*



Oh yes masochism.

LoTR Guild Chat
12:34 Jan 07 2008
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[Guild] [Sarumon]: mornin

[Guild] [Mitzle]: yo boss

[Guild] [Sarumon]: sup

[Guild] [Mitzle]: had a question

[Guild] [Sarumon]: pre-emptive shut the fuck up

[Guild] [Kingo]: U GOT QUESTIONS

Kingo has been demoted to Quiet Time

[Guild] [Sarumon]: what was the question?

[Guild] [Mitzle]: were trying to scour the whole planet for a ring that at the moment is roughly the size of a hobbit's finger

[Guild] [Wembo]: wat if he weres it on his wang lol

Wembo has been kicked from the guild

[Guild] [Mitzle]: how are we supposed to find this thing?

[Guild] [Khamûl]: you mean how am I supposed to find it.

[Guild] [Morgomir]: SCREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

[Guild] [Khamûl]: shut up

[Guild] [Sarumon]: sauron can find it

[Guild] [Sarumon]: concealed within his fortress, the lord of mordor sees all

[Guild] [Sarumon]: his gaze pierces cloud...

[Guild] [Sarumon]: shadow...

[Guild] [Sarumon]: earth...

[Guild] [Sarumon]: and flesh.

[Guild] [Sarumon]: BUT CAN HE SEE WHY KIDS LOVE CINNAMON TOAST CRUNCH??

[Guild] [Sarumon]: IT HAS REAL CINNAMON SUGAR FLAVOR IN EVERY BITE!!

[Guild] [Sarumon]: TOO BAD HE EATS COCK

Sarumon has been kicked from the guild

[Guild] [Mitzle]: l...

[Guild] [Sauron]: say it

[Guild] [Mitzle]: lol...

Mitzle has been kicked from the guild

[Guild] [Sauron]: I hate you all so fucking much it burns







(nicked off another site ^^)

In Your Room
11:05 Jan 07 2008
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Well, damn.
00:02 Jan 07 2008
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I have one day of freedom left, and one week of holidays left.



*le sigh*



I've so, so, so enjoyed having my house to myself for the past 2 weeks. I've really missed being on my own, the peace and quiet, doing what I want when I want. I've missed having things stay where I put them, cleaning and having the place stay clean, being able to not eat until I want to and then eating whatever I want. I've been able to learn a lot these few weeks, because I've had the space and freedom to do as I would. I didn't realise it until I had it back again, albeit temporarily.



On the flip side I have been a tad lonely at times. Fortunately, I have dear, special people I can talk to, even if it's only on MSN.



And work, my god. I can't even contemplate going back there. I hadn't even thought about work for the past 3 weeks or so. And now, sitting here, thinking about going back to work, fills me with dread.



I hate my job. I hate the self-serving company I work for. I hate the greedy, whining, hard done by customers. I hate the political aspects of the job. I hate my staff, who constantly drain everything out of me without giving anything in return. I hate the rampant levels of idiocy and all the Gen Y new recruits. I hate the red tape and the bureaucracy. I hate the fact that I know so much that I'm so good at my job, which is why they won't let me do anything else.



I work in a soul destroying, dream crushing, hope obliterating, monotonous job, and I can honestly say I'm only doing it for the money. And I think, what happened to my hopes and dreams, my ambitions, what I wanted to do with my life? I've wasted over 5 years already. I've been passed over so many times, because it's more cost effective to keep me where I am (why hire a new team leader when you have a sucker here who will do the job and not get paid for it?).



The only recognition I get is an internal award, and a $50 voucher.



The only joy I get is contemplating the chaos that will ensue when I do leave...



The only thing that's keeping me going is my resignation date.



5th of July, people. 5th of July.



And after that... I will be truly free.

14:24 Jan 04 2008
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Eris is an elusive goddess to be chosen by, I have found. Apart from the Principia Discordia, which is ...interpretation, there is little in the way of Erisian knowledge. Certainly not the kind of knowledge I'm looking for.



Frustrating. But there you go.



If anyone has any knowledge, old rites, invocations etc to Eris, please drop me a line...

Frustration
10:07 Jan 04 2008
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Looking ahead...
07:47 Jan 04 2008
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I've decided that, not soon, but after the VR meetup and my adventures in the U.S., I will try and get my own Coven up and running. Can't do it before, because I'm anticipating having little to no internet access while I'm in the U.S. for three months, not to mention the whole quitting work thing when I get back and possibly not having any internet at home either.



Or where ever I end up. I've had a calling, and a revelation, and time will only tell where they lead me... but that's a whole nother kettle of bananas.



I already have the name in mind, and its basic tenents, rules and guidelines. However need to design a crest and mark, which is probably something better left to nearer the time. Just in case ;)



However given the average life span of new covens I am a bit worried about what will happen...



That and, do people love me enough to want to join???



Oh well. Nothing ventured, right?

o.O
04:39 Jan 04 2008
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....





oh dear sweet baby jebus, save me...?









SweetNloving

Shadow (3)

Posts: 6

Anyone

Posted: 14:02:10 - Jan 04 2008

Times viewed: 14



anyone need a nice girl like me to go out with send me a message if you want

PRIVATE ENTRY
10:40 Jan 02 2008
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• • • • PRIVATE JOURNAL ENTRY • • • •

Very cool, very smooth.
11:35 Jan 01 2008
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Useless



Well it's about time

It's beginning to hurt

Time you made up your mind

Just what is it all worth



All my useless advice

All my hanging around

All your cutting down to size

All my bringing you down



Watch the clock on the wall

Feel the slowing of time

Hear a voice in the hall

Echoing in my mind



All your stupid ideals

You've got your head in the clouds

You should see how it feels

With your feet on the ground



Here I stand the accused

With your fist in my face

Feeling tired and bruised

With the bitterest taste



All my useless advice

All my hanging around

All your cutting down to size

All my bringing you down



All your stupid ideals

You've got your head in the clouds

You should see how it feels

With your feet on the ground

Vampire game, part II
08:18 Jan 01 2008
Times Read: 915

Juwee says: the night is quiet, the sirens have stopped, the annoying human voices have thankfully dwindled

Juwee says: you grin and continue about your business

Markus says: *looks around for a bite to snack

Juwee says: roll me 1 d10

Markus says: 8

Juwee says: you hear, coming up the street, a couple walking and talking quietly between themselves.

Markus says: they walkin towards me

Markus says: on the same side of the street or the other?

Juwee says: same side, walking towards you from the direction of the city

Markus says: ah

Markus says: *says in a very calm voice, good evening guys i was wondering if i could trouble you for a question

Juwee says: they stop and look at you. they're an older couple, probably mid forties. the man smiles and says, "what can we do for you?"

Markus says: well i was wondering if you could direct me to the nearest night club, i was supposed to be looking for a friend, and meeting him here and there was one, what caught fire, but there was another in this area he said, and was wondering if you could assist, in pointing the directions, im new to the area and am hoping you can help me

Markus says: *as they turn hit them both upside the head making them unconsious, and feeding on them in the shadows of a house*

Juwee says: lol

Juwee says: ok 1d10 each pls

Markus says: 8

Markus says: and 4....

Markus says: >.>

Juwee says: the man, you drain fairly dry. he's left breathing shallowly on the ground.

Juwee says: the woman you for some reason decide to take pity on, and leave her with over half her blood left. she remains unconscious anyways.

Markus says: so that puts me at about what 40 blood ish for the evening?

Juwee says: i'm not sure hun i haven't been keeping track

Juwee says: i can add it up if you like?

Markus says: i have 50

Markus says: with all the excitement and the few people i have been feeding from

Markus says: its replenished some of the neat tricks

Juwee says: yah

Markus says: but i know im like 10 shy of full

Juwee says: *nods*

Juwee says: you've taken so far

Juwee says: 9, 8, 8, 4

Markus says: wow

Markus says: that puts me 48 ish then

Markus says: i was thinking it was only like 20 something

Juwee says: hehe

Markus says: rock

Juwee says: ok. now' you've satiated yourself, what would you like to do?

Markus says: I want to aquire a car and go speak with the prince to make proper introduction

Markus says: or somehow go to elysium and make my introduction

Juwee says: *nods*

Markus says: first night in a city must

Juwee says: there are cars parked in plenty along the street. do you wanna acquire one of those?

Markus says: *trys to flag down a car passing by*

Markus says: (why go through all the effort if one can be had that just comes to me?)

Juwee says: =P

Markus says: this is me not using a discipline yet

Markus says: just trying for good ol fashioned human behavior

Markus says: >:)

Juwee says: 3 cars go past, a small beat up hatchback, which continues on. a pickup truck, which also continues on. and a sporty red convertible driven by a blonde, which stops for you

Juwee says: the blonde leans over. "hey honey how you going need a lift?" said in a southern accent

Markus says: *hey dahlin im lookin for a hot spot to party, you know of any place to go? ill treat ya if want a drink or somethin*

Juwee says: she grins and gestures you into the car, "hop in honey, i know just the place!"

Markus says: great, *gets in*]

Juwee says: she takes off the second you're barely settled in

Juwee says: drives like a maniac, apparently >.>

Markus says: so you like it rough then

Juwee says: there are several near misses, at which she just laughs

Markus says: dear me, dahlin, *auspex on her*

Markus says: 1 is already on, shes a toreador right? with the sabbat?

Markus says: either that or a ravenos for the cam

Markus says: so how long ago did you pick up this car?

Juwee says: auspex shows she is a human. a drunk, happy human.

Markus says: >:) excellent

Juwee says: "darlin i've had this car for a year! mah daddy bought it for me"

Markus says: fantastic

Markus says: mind if we pullin somewhere, im overcome with your beauty and would like to give you a proper thank you if you have the time

Juwee says: she giggles, and puts her hand on your leg, "well aren't you just the sweetest thing! you tell me where, darlin, and i surely will"

Juwee says: she is, apparently, overcome by your offer, and nearly runs a red light

Juwee says: heh

Markus says: haha

Markus says: well hows about you take me to that hotspot and i will give you the time of your life?

Juwee says: ooo, she drives quicker, taking you to the left and into some hills.

Juwee says: her aura changes slightly, going violet, with red and purple entangled knots, and a tiny bit of orange

Markus says: shes angry?

Juwee says: no hunni. excited, and lustful, with a tinge of fear thrown in to spice it up a bit

Markus says: haha, haha, nice

Markus says: http://www.mirroruniverse.com/arcane/vampire/disciplines/auspex.htm cause um damn

Markus says: lol, this is gonna be fun

Juwee says: ah my list is different

Markus says: shes not ghouled is she?

Juwee says: oo interesting thought

Markus says: you have the one in the book dont you?

Markus says: i dont fancy being dragged off to the sabbat bishops mansion in the forest whom she calls daddy

Juwee says: i'm using one off a story teller's screen

Markus says: though i dare say, i do have a spare tie to change

Markus says: shiny

Juwee says: =P

Juwee says: ok

Juwee says: roll me, perception + alertness pls, diff is 7

Markus says: with aus on?

Juwee says: yesh

Markus says: 15 yea?

Juwee says: ummm

Juwee says: yesh

Markus says: Roll 1: 9, 4, 3, 3, 6 = 25.

Roll 2: 10, 10, 3, 2, 4 = 29.

Roll 3: 10, 4, 7, 7, 8

Markus says: Roll 1: 8, 3, 10

Markus says: 3

Juwee says: jeez =P

Juwee says: 8 successes unless you wanna re roll those 10

Juwee says: 's

Markus says: i did

Juwee says: lol

Juwee says: oh ok

Juwee says: 9

Juwee says: sorry

Markus says: so whats goin on

Juwee says: from your mighty 9 successes =P you can tell that she is indeed a ghoul. by the looks of her, you'd say she has been for quite a while.

Markus says: lol

Juwee says: she has no identifying marks on her

Juwee says: she's dressed tastefully, in designer jeans and a silk shirt, with high heel boots on, which are undoubtedly contributing to her erratic driving (well that and the drunk, lol)

Juwee says: long dangly gold and diamond earrings, not too flashy. hair looks expensive and even tousled around in the wind, still looks great.

Juwee says: hands are manicured and smooth, nails are perfect. no rings on either hand.

Juwee says: you'd say, she's already had her blood fix for the night, and is out looking for some fun

Markus says: *puts a hand on her leg* lets have fun, find us someone to play with*

Juwee says: she giggles, "i like the way you think honey" and winks at you. "what sort of fun did you have in mind?"

she tells you her name is Barbie. her aura is slowly becoming more lustful and less fearful.

Markus says: i like fire, ice, hunting, and group sex

Markus says: so when it comes to stuff to do, im easy

Juwee says: oh my, she giggles at you

Juwee says: "i know just the place. you'll love it" she says, and winks again

Markus says: what sort of place

Juwee says: she changes direction, narrowly missing a turning car, and speeds off back into the city centre.

Juwee says: she puts her free hand on your leg and starts stroking your thigh.

Juwee says: after about 15 minute's of fast driving, she gets you into the city. you do run over a small animal, at which she giggles and says, "oops", winking at you.

Markus says: *giggles* and says *5 points*

Juwee says: she pulls up outside a club on the eastern side of the city. it's all glass and steel, and there's a red carpet out the front and impressive looking security. you can year a steady pulsing beat coming out of the door.

Juwee says: "here we are" she says brightly

Markus says: askes...."should it be red, or purple for this evening?

Juwee says: she looks you up and down, "honey, i don't think it really matters does it" and leers a bit

Markus says: mmm not at this point, i suppose your right

Markus says: *takes off the tie, and what she percieves as unbuttoning the top button*

Juwee says: she licks her lips

Juwee says: then raises an eyebrow, "well, aren't you going to let me out like a proper gentleman, honey?"

Markus says: *leans in to kiss her to thank her, kisses her cheeck, then down her neck draining her in the car*

Juwee says: she moans

Juwee says: drainage roll pls!

Markus says: 1 d 10?

Juwee says: yuppers

Markus says: Roll 1: 10

Juwee says: um

Juwee says: willpower roll. unless you actually want to drain her dry

Markus says: do i gain a dot in her disciplines to?

Markus says: (will is back at 9 or 10?)

Juwee says: are you "diablerising" her?

Juwee says: 9, i think

Markus says: sure why not?

Markus says: okies

Markus says: 9 it is

Juwee says: ok

Markus says: Roll 1: 9, 4, 6, 10, 10, 9, 2, 1, 8

Juwee says: lemme look up diablerie rules

Juwee says: hokay

Markus says: and?

Juwee says: hm none of her disciplines are higher than yours

Markus says: damn....

Juwee says: lemme check her skills

Markus says: okies

Markus says: if nothing else, yay for blood pool

Juwee says: heh

Juwee says: you may gain a dot in any one of the following: acting, expression, music, computer, bureacracy

Juwee says: pick one

Markus says: computer

Juwee says: hokay

Markus says: lol

Juwee says: you now have 1 dot in computer =P

Markus says: ...i should have more dots in computer then that...

Markus says: but go figure

Juwee says: you didn't tell me any. if you have more than 3, you can't gain in computer.

so you drain her dry, Smack your lips, and suddenly realise you now know how copy files, or something

Markus says: haha, sounds about right

Juwee says: perception + alertness roll pls, diff is 7

Markus says: Roll 1: 3, 6, 1, 9, 7 = 26.

Roll 2: 7, 6, 7, 9, 9 = 38.

Roll 3: 1, 3, 4, 6, 10

Markus says: 4 >.>

Juwee says: 5

Markus says: oh, yay

Juwee says: you realise that both of the security people on the door are looking at you... one of them reaches up and speaks into an ear mike while the other strides forward to the car

Markus says: *gets out of the car, and calmly starts walking to the door*

Juwee says: the security guard stops in front of you and says "what about her?"

Markus says: *my hands at my side, with a roll of 100s in hand, going to talk to a bouncer, saying "shes had to much, its better to just let her rest a while"

Markus says: im here to pick up a mutual friend

Juwee says: he looks at you, looks at the money, smirks and takes it and motions you in

Markus says: *pats him on the back and walks through the door*

Juwee says: inside the club. it's dark and smokey. the air is hot and heavy. the music is loud and driving and the dance floor is packed.

Juwee says: there are lots of nooks and crannies with couches and people stacked on them. the bar is busy, with blue lights all around it.

Juwee says: everyone is dressed minimally, but expensively

Juwee says: there are stairs going up to a 2nd level at the rear of the club. they're barred by another security person.

Markus says: walk over to the bouncer at the stair well

Juwee says: he looks you up and down

Markus says: observing his behavior

Markus says: *gives him a slight nod when he stares at me*

Juwee says: he narrows his eyes a little, and says, "you'll be wanting to use the upstairs room sir"

Markus says: yes

Juwee says: he lets you pass

Markus says: *goes up stairs, silently

Juwee says: perception + alertness pls

Juwee says: diff is 8

Markus says: Roll them bones ... your dice are



Roll 1: 2, 10, 5, 7, 5 = 29.

Roll 2: 2, 6, 5, 3, 4 = 20.

Roll 3: 2, 3, 2, 9, 10 =

Markus says: Roll 1: 9, 3, 7

Juwee says: 4 successes?

Markus says: yes...>.>

Juwee says: as you proceed further up the stairs you scent the subtle traceries of blood in the air. emanating from a closed door at the top of the stairs

Juwee says: it looks like it's sealed, so they've probably wafted out the last time the door was opened

Markus says: *knocks three times on the door*

Markus says: 1.2.3....in that sucession

Juwee says: the door is heavy and antiqued, it has metal carving on it, in the shape of leaves and vines dripping fluid into a chalice.

Juwee says: at your knock the door is opened by a young boy, dressed only in a loincloth. your senses are assaulted by the sounds, scents and tastes of both human and kindred pleasure within the room. willpower roll please, diff 8

Markus says: Roll 1: 9, 10, 10, 5, 2, 9, 8, 2, 7 3

Juwee says: s'ok. you shudder as the aura of the room passes over you, then step inside. the boy closes the door behind you, you can hear it sealing and there is absolutely no sound of the club outside.

Juwee says: inside, the room is pleasantly dim. the air is warm. there is incense burning in the corners. on one side of the room are full floor to ceiling windows looking out over the ground floor of the club, so you can see the dancers on the floor.

Juwee says: you don't remember seeing windows on the 2nd floor when you came into the club.

Juwee says: there are about 40 people in the room. men, women, youths. some obviously human, some obviously kindred.

Juwee says: there are implements of bondage and discipline on one wall. a rack, and an x frame, suspension hooks, and a couple of other things.

Juwee says: there are large, opulent silken couches scattered around the room, some concealed by velvet curtains, some not. all appear to be occupied

Juwee says: you see kindred openly feeding from humans, and vice versa. the air is filled with low moans and sighs.

Juwee says: in one corner of the room, sitting in a large, opulently carved wooden chair, is a woman. she has pale, pale skin, dark hair tumbled onto the top of her head, and piercing black eyes. she's wearing all black, silk and leather.

Markus says: *smiles a toothy grin at the sight and walks over to her*

Juwee says: she looks up at you and raises and eyebrow

Markus says: *good evening my dear, how fares you on this dark eve?

Markus says: *bows*

Markus says: is still a good 10 feet back

Juwee says: she studies you and winces slightly

Juwee says: she raises a hand "good evening my lord" she says in a low, husky kind of voice. "to what do we owe this pleasure?"

Markus says: we are simply passing through, but decided it would be prudent if we could ask for a place to stay with a herd upon which to make use of?

Markus says: though i must also add, that the welcome with your local malks have proved to be, less then welcoming

Juwee says: she raises an eyebrow. "malks? i don't have much association with them. so... hard to surprise, and pleasure"

Markus says: as such, would also like to render service if need be required

Juwee says: she taps a finger against her lip thoughtfully. "my, that is generous of you"

Markus says: may I ask your name?

Juwee says: she smiles "indeed sir. my name is Jasmine. and you might be?"

Markus says: I my dear, am Darren Marko

Markus says: do you partake of the rites of fire?

Juwee says: she smiles and shakes her head. "pleased to make your acquaintance, my dear Darren Marko. please, take a seat, or feel free to avail yourself of any of my wares." she gestures around the room.

Markus says: *sits at the seat on her left hand*

Juwee says: she smiles, pleased

Markus says: pray tell me my dear, which side do you work with? the bloody cam, or bloody sabbat?

Juwee says: she looks at you, a little surprised.

Juwee says: "my dear, it is to all our benefits to work with whoever is at hand. we are all working for the Cam in this city."

Markus says: please dont take offense to my language, ive been traveling to a while

Juwee says: she shakes her head, "don't worry my dear, none taken. do tell me of your exploits however, i hearing tales from those of our kind who still roam freely."

Markus says: my exploits might lead me to more trouble then they are worth, and as much as I might pray under the dilusion of free, I have had numerous jobs for the inner council of which I cannot speak much on

Juwee says: oh, she says.

Markus says: however what you need know, is that my appologies for the mess with the locals earlier this evening

Markus says: are most sincere

Markus says: i had hoped not to stir such noise

Juwee says: she looks surprised. "that was you? my my. how exciting"

Markus says: that was a slight in my nature, one took advantage of a situation much to his disappointment i did not back down, so sadly there is not much left to be said on that

Markus says: so i do appologize

Juwee says: she nods, "no apology necessary my dear. we all do what we have to do at times. the important thing is, that there are no repercussions, and of course, that you had fun!" she winks

Markus says: *smiles a toothy grin* most definatly had my fun

Markus says: who is master of this city, if i might inquire?

Juwee says: "our prince" said a little sarcastically "is one Nicholas Gilbert, who we've had the honour" sarcastically again "of serving for some time now"

Markus says: ah, lovely *with a tone of sarcasim* would you pray tell a bit more about him, and his nature?

Juwee says: "i believe he is holding court in the city this very evening, actually"

Markus says: I would like muchly to make proper introduction, so as not to offend

Markus says:

any chance you might be willing to go for a drive, I have a car parked out front?

Juwee says: she looks at you. well. perhaps i might after all.

Markus says: marvelous and i must say, what a lovely party you host my dear, I hope we can return you to it, shortly

Juwee says: she smiles, "why thank you my dear. and of course. i would be delighted."

Markus says: *holds the door open for her*

Juwee says: she stands up and whispers a quick word to a lackey standing behind her, and exits the room.

Markus says: *follows behind her, down the stairs, and out the door, noding at both bouncers as we leave*

Juwee says: the bouncers bow slightly towards Jasmine as she leaves.

Juwee says: as she comes up to the car, she spots the body inside, and stiffens

Markus says: *opens the car door for her on the passenger side, and walks around the driver side, and drops the carcass onto the street and slides in her place*

Markus says: she appears to have had to much fun, my lady

Markus says: *as i say while starting the car

Juwee says: fun indeed. i always knew she would come to a bad end.

Juwee says: such a waste of blood. oh well.

Markus says: and end maybe, but she qute enjoyed it

Juwee says: of that, i am quite sure.

Markus says: *giggles slightly*

Markus says: so where to ?

Juwee says: into the city centre, my dear.

Juwee says: we are going to the library. do you know where it is?

Markus says: of course *drives down the street, following her directions to the center*

Markus says: no my dear, i do not

Juwee says: our "prince" has delusions of intellectualness i fear.

Markus says: please give the directions?

Markus says: ah

Juwee says: she gives you directions to secure parking underneath the library

Markus says: to what clan does he hail?

Juwee says: she taps a finger thoughtfully. i believe he is of the same clan as myself. however, lately he has shown some... unsusual tendancies

Markus says: such as?

Juwee says: well... for one thing he doesn't visit my place nearly so often as he used to (she pouts prettily and laughs)

Juwee says: for another... he's of late seemingly obsessed with something. however he will not disclose what he is obsessed with. and it is unusual for him to be obsessed with anything.

Markus says: odd

Juwee says: yes, quite

Markus says: sounds like he was hanging around under the influence of something else, if i may be so bold

Markus says: any other new arrivals, other then myself to town?

Juwee says: not that i have noticed, my dear. not for a while, at least

Markus says: even in the last 20 or so years? people that may have lingered on a bit?

Juwee says: she thinks for a bit.

Juwee says: hmm well. we did have that sudden influx of nasty malks about 25 years ago. but that was before the prince came to power.

Markus says: ah, i see

Markus says: well after tonight we shall see what happens then yes? I know their master, no longer is with us

Juwee says: she raises an eyebrow "really? how lovely"

Markus says: anyway, we must be pleasent for the evening, so if you excuse me I feel I am under dressed for this occasion * digs in my pocket for my red silk tie*

Markus says: and seemingly buttons up my top button and ties the tie, tucking it into my black waist coat

Markus says: opening the door for jasmine, then buttoning the top button of my jacket

Juwee says: she gets out of the car gracefully, taking your arm, and leads you into the building.

Markus says: *walks in stride with her*

Welcome 2008!
04:29 Jan 01 2008
Times Read: 874

New Year's Pics:

Both before the fun started.



Unfortunately the ones during the fun didn't come out, and the ones after the fun were too scary to post =P