I give the hell up!!! I'm to nice, sweet, and caring for anyone! I'm the one that always gets hurt whenever it's with someone I want to be with. I'm tired of it! I guess it's just time for me to focus on myself and my job. Forget about all the rest. And if I end up alone, or dying alone, then so be it. Screw them all. Not even good enough to get invited to parties...so why should I expect a relationship to work out. Damn romantic that I am. Does anyone really believe in me?
So my cruise in May is coming up soon, finally. Felt like it was taking forever to get here since it was booked back in October. I can't wait to get out of this place for a week. Seems like every time things are going great, there's always one things that screws it up and I try not to let it down all the other stuff. Have a wedding to go to on the 16th and now have no idea if someone is coming with me or not. I was restarting myself and my life (so to speak) at the middle of the month when things were good, but now I think I need this cruise to start over on EVERYTHING! It's all gotten to be to much at times. I try to make to many happy or do my best in things, and I'm always the one that gets hurt or gets no where when others who do less get everything. So there it is.....
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You never did write the sequel to this. I am wondering if you did go on a cruise and what intrigue if any transpired. You really must tuck more tidbits in your journal. Please. Inquiring minds wish to know. *smiles*
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XTrueApathyX
03:33 Apr 25 2011
I believe in you and YOU Know that.It just takes time and what not.I remember you ALWAYS helping me when I needed it and now its my turn to help you.Like you told me,just do you for awhile and not worry about being in a relationship.I never get invited to parties either,but that doesn't stop me from being who I am. Just take some time to yourself and things will work out for the better.Keep your head up high. :)
Laila696
04:05 Apr 25 2011
Don't give up. You're not invited to parties cause you're better than the people at the party. You'll find someone who loves you for you, it just takes some time. I believe in you. *hugs*
KanePendragon
13:00 Apr 25 2011
No one can believe in you until you do. Self Esteem is one of the most attractive things to most people. You have all the tools to get the job done you just need to put them to work. You are a great person never forget that
TaintedPoison
14:09 Apr 25 2011
I do!! Your a amazing man. If the women don't see that, then you deserve better. hugs
BornfromDeath
19:35 Apr 25 2011
there is someone for everyone Tony...your someone will come along and when she does you wont even know what hit you...your an awesome guy with alot to offer your special gal...it will happen...we love you :)
DragonWolf
21:26 Apr 25 2011
Thanks all you guys! It helps. I really mean it. Shows that there are some people who really do care about how I feel :)