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I live around death.

It cant be avoided.

I have lost so much.

Lived with so much death.

I want to be rid of this.

But i cant at the same time.

Its always around.

It will not leave.

People die that I love.

And it hurts so much.

Now I live with pain.

Of those who died.

I miss them so much.

I want to be with them.

They were so close to me.

And now they are gone.

Through my whole life.

I have lost someone.

All I got left is myself.

In my life I had many relationships.

I got hurt from every one of them.

I cant forget the pain I was in.

The hurt I felt from being played.

The lies, deceit and the head games.

They played mind games and love games.

Told me they loved me and lied about it.

Now my mind has gone insane.

I am not the same since those relationships.

People have tried to make good out of it.

But I do not see it.

I am insane believe me or not.

I have been told many of times.

I love being insane and Im not changing.

There is a place I dont want to be.

Its a place that is in my soul.

I hate going to this place.

But when I get hurt I go there.

Once there I do things Im not proud of.

And when my heart breaks.

It makes it that much worst.

The more I hurt the more Im there.

This place is the darkness within me.

I cant get out.

Nobody gets in.

I am all alone there.

Nobody can help me stay away form this place.

It tortures me like Im nothing.

It tells things you dont want to know.

Today I was walking to the library and some dummy comes up to me and makes a threat. I just laughed in his face and told him if he want to punch me out then just do it. I dont care for the threat, just follow through with it. I dont give a crap. He told me that he wont but I better watch my back. Again I told him to follow through with it and stop threatening me like that. He turned around and walked away. I looked at him and I couldnt help but laugh. I am not afraid of people, like come on. I am mental, im twisted and im sick. No threat is going to intimidate me, no person or people will ever scare me.



If you havent figured it out yet, Im not afraid of anything or anyone. I dont care if youre tall, strong, or smart. If you attempt to hurt me than Ill hurt you. Dont just sit there and threaten me and not do a damn thing about it. Do something.