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So, it's been sometime since I last wrote here.. life has been keeping me busy with it's mandatory requirements, but.. I try to come on here if I can.

Things are up and down all the time, now, but right now, I can't complain.. things are almost neurtral, just tipping in the good direction, rather than the alternative for once.



I went for a walk this morning after having stayed up all night.. it was a short one, at roughly 6:10AM.. but.. it was worth it.

Why I did it? there was no reason. I acted upon impulse.



Sometimes, in life, we need to do these things. There doesn't need to be a purpose, just will..

will to do SOMETHING.



For as long as that will exists, life's greatest mysteries will be revealed to the few who act upon it.

So, the two tomes I was speaking of earlier got here today (Ordered from Amazon, sweet deal, both books for the price of one, good man selling them), Fosforos and The Catechism Of Lucifer. I've read the Catechism and begun studying Fosforos (Huge, beautifully designed grimiore, of sorts. Very much like a tome of olde.) Pleased with both so far, not EXACTLY what I was expecting, but brilliant nontheless. Knowledge is knowledge, afterall.



Past few weeks have been insane.. unbelievable turn of events happening constantly, both terrible and good. Something feels oddly different.. I can't describe it.. but there's some sort of disturbance in the way things are supposed to be going that I can sense. I think it's just applying to me, it's.. very peculiar.. almost as if I've been sucked into some sort of alternate dimensional vortex that's altering my perception of reality to force me to CHANGE my reality (what we percieve is our reality).

I can't tell if it's a good thing.. it certainly doesn't feel like one, i'll be honest.. but it's not bad, either. There's no overwhelming presence of darkness.. just...

...entrapment, in a way. As if I've suddenly been imprisoned in this alternate version of reality..



Things haven't been going per usual at all.. the randomness of events is insane.. and things just generally do feel very, very different.



Hm..

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xGothicAngelx
00:35 Jul 16 2013

Luke, there is a disruption in the force. Is this what you are trying to say?

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DominicTheDemonic
00:37 Jul 16 2013

XD.. In a sense..

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80 degrees..

80. Goddamn. Degrees.



What the hell was I thinking? It was to go swimming, as such is ritual for me, per saturdays each week if possible (with close friends)..

But..



The heat very nearly killed me. I came in, my insides literally burned to the core, I was unable to breathe, my nose and head blocked, and the whites of my eyes red, as I stumbled all over the place.

Thankfully, I have fast healing rates, so in about 30 mins, I was back to normal, as I am now.

But.. shit.. I have to be more careful. The consequences of going out into heat like that again..

90 degrees and I probably wouldn't be typing this right now.

Ah, I love this feeling. Come on, how can you deny it?

When you're excited about something coming. Something good's going to happen, and it's going to be great. I love the positive energy that stems from such emotion, it's amazing, truly.

I am excited because I've had my eyes on two tomes lately, interesting grimoires that are of much value to me. Call me paranoid, but.. well, their low price offers are VERY limited at the moment, so i'll say the name of said tomes after they're in my hands, incase other prying eyes come to snatch them up before I have the chance to XD.



They're both of amazing value, and I'll have the cash to make the payment for both in a couple of days. Looking forward to having them ordered.



Best thing I've figured out when it comes to energy work is meditation during periods of happiness or positive energy. Meditating (focused, calm breathing and cleansing chakras works best) during these emotions seem to make them last for up to two weeks. That's the longest i've made them last (As in, constant happiness/bliss. I'd recommend this treatment for those whom are depressed, or are generally having a bad day. Seriously, try this. It works a charm.)

I'll give the site more of a chance, and try meeting the more serious members of this communtiy. If any are fascinated, I am interested in magic practices. I have read The Psalter Of Cain, and I am currently studying it's rituatlistic pratices and such. I have also dedicated my soul to Satan through a binding ritual, upon other things in the past, such as rituals dedicated to Satan on particular festivals (Samhain, for example.) I liken the Ancient Ways, such as the Old Norse methods of Rune Casting and general Rune protection magic, and more. I plan to study further areas of the occult in the future. I have read The Kyballion, and I agree with all principles found therein (particularly the principles of Rhythm, and Cause and Effect.) I also believe that raising the Kundalini Serpent through all chakras, and becoming fully empowered by spiritual ascension should be our main goal. Ascension to godhood is linked to this. I plan on buying more satanic works soon, when I have the funds to do so. Considering Vampyres are usually fantastic natural energy workers, my practices are often easier than usual. I have had my dealings with the T.O.V, and I have moved past them, however, I did learn some details about energy work from their books (I read up to the priesthood bible, I think). I was never a member.

I have a deep interest within The Aset Ka, and feel myself linked to both Egypt and themselves in ways that I cannot describe. I won't discuss this any further here, please PM me if you would like to talk about such things.

I would like to speak with a Freemason who knows of the Conservative Movement started by Rob Morris during the 18th Century, for I possess a very rare, and possibly valuable,to the right people, book. I imagine it would be particularly valuable to The Order Of Golden Dawn, for obvious reasons. Again, this is a private matter.. please contact me privately if you would like to discuss this further.



I'll continue to explore the community, and learn more as I travel, as I have always done.

The amount of roleplayers around, those in a craze with drama, is ridiculous. I could put up with the levelling system, that was acceptable to some degree, but from what I've seen of this community, i'm not very happy at all.

I joined a webcam area in curiosity, just interested in what the site had to offer, before being immediately confronted by someone already there. I gave a hello, and was asked about my location, and my age.. even though both are visible on my profile. After saying so, getting along (or so I thought), I was then accused of being an "Alt account" here to "neb shit" and was blocked, and muted. Just like that. Oh, and I was said to not be 15 and lying because I didn't "speak like a 15 year old dude would."

I joined back, confused, and asked what the hell said person's problem was. Before I could go on to ask further questions, I was met with "Who the fuck do you think you're talking to like that" and muted again, before being called a sad attention seeker who's here for the attention of said people.



I'm sorry, but if this is what this community is like, i'll be leaving very soon, and i'll certainly tell as many Vampyres as I know to steer their direction away from this place. I've been to many areas of the Vampyre Community before, including the T.O.V (even there I was open minded), Vampirism Forums, and some other sites, and I have come to face those who judge, but.. that's just plain rude.



I just hope i'm wrong about this place, and there actually Is more to it.. really. I'll give it more of a chance, but i'll definitely take my leave if things don't improve. That's not me being immature and not giving this community opportunity, it's my impression so far.

Words are funny things. You look upon them with your gaze, and at the same time, your mind is making it's decision about whom it is you are reading of. By the time you have finished the sentence to calculate your judgement, your decision has infact already been made, you are simply not aware of it yet. But you will be..

Infact, the very second you come to make your decision, or so you think, you are infact thinking about how you will respond to said words.

You're always one step ahead when reading, and that is why I love reading as much as I love writing. I have a passion for both, twin serpents bound by the same rule of advancing beyond what is considered the first step.

Why not become more?

Why not say "Yes" to moving forward?



You want to know why?

It's because people don't goddamn read.



Nah, i'm kidding.. in all honesty, is because they're used to being a further step behind. Infact, that step means so much, and is so far back, that even when they're shown a glimpse of the first step to US, they say "Wow, that's boring" or "Rubbish. I'd rather not bother learning new things. It's boring."



And so they forever remain back there..

convinced that they are indeed a step forward, as they look back to even lower steps, forgetting to ever look forward, swamped in their own pride.

It's almost a paradox of sorts, isn't it?

I mean, how can we really ever know for certain we are not akin to those people?

Ignorant in our own assumption we are infact that step ahead..

..when in reality, there's thousands, if not millions more infront unto infinium.



The only way i've even began to move forward is saying "Yes" to the things I find 'boring' or 'too difficult'.

Remember.

There's someone out there who's laughing, thinking 'Wow, what a simpleton.'



If that makes you angry, remember there is also another man out there thinking the same thing about them.

You just have to keep moving forward..

..that's how you'll get to laugh at both of them.

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ladyinchains
21:33 Jun 29 2016

i agree with you on that

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