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*sighs*
22:07 May 31 2007
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People always ask me for advice and I always give it out. I mean, what is the harm of advice? It is just a point of view of a solution to a problem, that's all. It isn't forcing someone to take the advice, it is just offering. That person has free will and should have the aspect of a human being that lets us make a choice based on our own thoughts and beliefs.



Well, I always give out advice, but never follow it. Scratch that! I rarely follow it! I do sometimes but am such a hypocrite others. One piece of advice I always tell people is write for yourself, not others. It's an expression of how the author feels, it shouldn't be altered just for the audience, especially if it is a journal. Yet, I find it so hard to write in my journal as it was meant to be, even though I had it suspended, thinking it would help. I need to stop holding back. I think one reason I do is because I have told Brett he can get on my account to read my journal and he does. I don't really mind it, after all, I want him to know what is going on but maybe I need someplace away from everyone, including him. I am thinking about changing my password, yet again, so I have a private journal, other than admins coming and going when they please.

PRIVATE ENTRY
06:37 May 30 2007
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Hmm
07:54 May 28 2007
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Is it weird that I have an unbelievably strong urge to take a picture of my boyfriend naked right now as he sleeps next to me?



Maybe it is from the loopy feelings from the medicines...



Yes! I just made an excuse! LOL! I have three pictures of him naked already... just not sleeping so peacefully. Something is completely different about it.

The Emergency Room
19:17 May 27 2007
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The other night, Friday night, I started having tremendous pain in my left side and a fever that was 99.8 degrees. I was up all night crying, and got about 2 hours of sleep. I called my mom at work about three or four a.m., and she told me to take a warm bath and wrap a warm towel around the area. Bad idea! The bath and towel, the heat period, just made it hurt so much worse!



I ended up calling her just as she was getting ready to leave work. My temperature was 100.4 degrees by then, I watched it steadily go up through the night. She told me to get to the emergency room. Okay, well I thought my mom was just overreacting. So I called my OB/GYN about it, told him what was going on. He said the same thing, "get to the emergency room as soon as possible."



Brett called the ambulance on me because our friend couldn't come for another 50 minutes. Got to the ER and went insane from waiting. Finally, I was discharged. I have a kidney infection, so I am now on antibiotics and pain killers. I'm just a little loopy.



The only good thing about yesterday was Brett's eyes lighting up so much and the smile on his face when he got to hear our baby's heartbeat for the very first time! I only wish it was under better circumstances!



Man I dislike doctors and hospitals!



Oh and I have decided to leave in Nashville until August at least! If we don't have another place by then, we are moving up to Ohio.

Paranoia is a Horrible Thing!
10:26 May 24 2007
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Ever been so paranoid that you feel like crying? I have and am currently feeling that way. I have been paranoid for at least the past week and it is growing stronger. I can't sleep much at night, keep hearing noises from everywhere, and I keep on looking around like something is going to jump out at me or sneak up on me. I was actually crying earlier and couldn't help it. I don't know if it is coming from my depression or if there is possibly a reason for this feeling. I know I am scared. I know this is one of those times I feel like curling up in a corner and disappearing from everything. Sad thing is, there is more than one thing watching me. I know one of the feelings was coming from the main bathroom, I have always felt it watching me but the past week, especially at night it has been scaring me more and more. Now there is another "something is watching me" feeling and I think it is coming from outside or the kitchen. It is horrible when someone is scared to death to turn their back. Maybe I am pathetic. I don't know anymore. I might need help more than anything. Or a protection spell strong enough to block whatever it is.

Thoughts
18:34 May 21 2007
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Alright, I decided instead of adding to the entry before this one any more, I would just start a new one. Nothing like starting with a blank screen where you can type whatever comes to one's mind.



I am tired of so many things right now. I can't even control my depression, let alone any of my other emotions/feelings. I have been feeling cornered, worthless, and guilty for all kinds of things, which I know are not my fault. Pretty bad when I feel guilty as hell for just having sexual fears and desires that go against them. I know I send mixed messages sometimes, and I know I need to stop doing so but I can't really control that either. All I can do is try not to or explain myself some when I do, that is if I know the reason myself. I am tired of feeling this way, I am tired of nightmares and pain in my belly, along with puking my guts up every day.



I am just tired...



I have gone and done it again. Probably made Brett mad at me or upset with me because of my issues with money problems. He paid off what he owed this morning and we are dealing with it. But I am tired of him spending money and not even mentioning it to me. I told him in an e-mail some of how I feel right now concerning it but damn it, every time I start to say something about money issues he just says it won't happen again or something along those lines.



He even stated the other day, how we disagree and argue about everything lately. Maybe we do and maybe I am just blinding myself to it, even though it is happening right in front of me. But I don't even understand why he won't even tell me to shut up sometimes, I guess he just won't even though I want him too when I get out of line. What harm could really come from just saying "shut up" every now and then?

PRIVATE ENTRY
22:15 May 14 2007
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The Sight of my Baby!
23:31 May 08 2007
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Yesterday morning I had my first appointment with the OB/GYN. Everything looks good, except I have a UTI, which I already knew. They gave me some antibiotics and also ordered my prenatal vitamins, the ones I liked out of the samples they gave me. He also said I could take liquid medicine for my stomach now since I am three months along. Thank god! I was puking up acid!



As I said I am three months along! I am due on November 21st. And when he did the ultrasound, the baby was moving! It was on it's back at the beginning and rolled over on it's side after a stretch! But since it was moving, he couldn't get a good estimate on how far along I am. So he had to do the dang vaginal ultrasound. I wish he would have done that one to begin with. Not only was the picture a lot clearer, the baby didn't move as much and it didn't cause my belly to cramp like the other did. My belly still hurts today, along with my legs. Just when my legs had finally stopped cramping...











Another thing that showed up in the ultrasound is that I have two chambers to my uterus. It shouldn't cause complications or anything during the pregnancy but I am wondering if it will later on down the road. But if you look at the ultrasound picture, it is the band right above the baby, it is actually pretty thick when it was focused right on it.



And thanks to my mommy and Uncle Bill, I am getting to go and visit my Brett Brett before my next appointment! Yay! I can't wait to see him and be able to fall asleep next to him! I will miss going to see the male strippers on the 18th but oh well, if I want to see a guy in a g-string, I will get Brett one and make him wear it! 0.o That really isn't that bad of an idea! Haha!



God I love and miss him!

The Day That Tells All
05:43 May 07 2007
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Today is the day that I get to see the OB/GYN and get to probably see my baby.



Most of my questions will probably be answered within the next couple of months but a lot of them today! The number of fetuses, will also be put to rest! Woohoo! If I am having twins, I want to know! LOL!



I will get to see the doctor in roughly 8 hour and 31 minutes from now, depending on if one of his patients go into labor or not. It might be longer, but that is a great thing, he always puts his patients first!



I also am feeling better, I still have a cough and a little bit of a fever, but I found a way around the dehydrated issue. I can't keep water or kool-aid down, but I can keep apple juice down, which is mostly water! I am getting my strength back and not having as many dizzy spells. Even before getting pregnant, my doctors told me I have to drink at least 12 glasses of water a day because of my dizziness and spells of becoming dehydrated and light-headed. The apple juice trick should work with me until I can keep the water down.



I know I am probably going to get lectured when I see my doctor because I know, right off the bat, that I have a UTI (urinary tract infection) but I also know most women have them throughout their pregnancy.



Not much else to write in here right now. Brett and I are tired of bills piling up on us. We can't even get ahead when we seriously try. I know we will be okay in the long run though. And I might not get to see him for one or two more months. Wow! Nothing like that kind of news to depress one, right?



I am actually thinking about getting some of the money my mom owes me off of her so I can go pay Brett a surprise visit before my next appointment with the doctor. But I know I will feel guilty because the baby needs the money more than I need to see him. But is it really good for me to be this depressed? Either way I look at it, I will feel bad in the end. Why not just go see him and feel a little bit better?



If I do go and see him, he isn't going to know about it this time. I want it to be a surprise. The only people who will know about it will be my mom, Uncle Bill, and Nagey, our roommate. I will only take my one bookbag with me and possibly another small bag. But I would be okay on the bus, it's not like I am showing too much for people to be able to tell, especially if I wear baggy clothes. But it would give us a chance to see each other, spend time together, and discuss what we are doing from here on out. Does it sound like that bad of an idea?



Only, 8 hours and 18 minutes left to go, wish me luck!

Tomorrow Anxiety
19:45 May 06 2007
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I have never felt anxiety this strong for the next day. Tomorrow I go to the OB/GYN for the first time, even though I am three to four months pregnant. I have already voiced some of my fears in my entry before this, but those anxieties are worse now. I can’t wait for it to come but I fear what could come out of it. My argument is simple and here it is:



“Women in third-world countries, who can’t seek medical treatment and can’t eat healthy, have perfectly normal children, except for an epidemic, if the mother or father has it, but other than that, healthy.”



The pregnancy test I took first showed a false negative, then the two I took after showed positive. I just couldn’t make it home. I was trying to get on Brett’s medical and did. But I wanted to see my own doctors up here first, since they know my family history and my own medical history. I mean my daddy alone had over 15 different diagnoses; I don’t know what half of them were. I know I have sleep apnea but never been diagnosed with it, my daddy had it really badly, Brett has it and I have witnessed it, and his older brother had died of SIDS. The odds are against us there but that is the reason why we want the baby monitors that have video feed.



I just believe after a little over two weeks passing, tomorrow is the day I will get to know my due date and everything else. My mom is going with me and even going in the office with me. I think if anyone besides Brett should see the baby, it should be it’s grandmother! I know my health has been, um, stable/unstable. This is the second time I have gotten sick since I have come back to the Ohio Valley. I think it does have to do with the climate change and also with missing Brett. I might actually be making myself sick without realizing it since I have many times before. Other than that, I am doing alright. My weight has been stable this whole time. It goes between 185 pounds to 190 pounds, which I was between 175 and 180 before I became pregnant. I am showing more and more which is a good thing, I guess.



*I wrote this entry about 5 a.m. this morning and I have been calming down some throughout the day. If something is wrong, I know Brett and I will press through it together.*

“Promise” by Matchbook Romance
19:42 May 06 2007
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I have thought about writing this entry before but I am finally getting around to it, I guess. This song has always meant a lot to me since I first heard it. It has grown to symbolize love and pain to me. I sent it to two different guys after starting to date them off of Vampire Rave, those guys being Tommy and Brett. I sent it as the first song to both of them, actually. And Tommy hurt me, and something others do not know is Brett hurt me too in similar ways. Except Brett was truly forgiven and we have found a way through it. My trust couldn’t be placed in Tommy again. I tried, gave him a second chance, and he did it again. Where as I tried to forgive Brett, gave him the same second chance, and he proved to be faithful and learning from his mistakes.



I always believed if you loved someone as much as I did with these two different guys, that you would pick up everything and leave, just to be near that one person. I could never do it with Tommy. I came up with excuses not to marry him, though he wanted to be married in June when he came here. I knew something was going to happen, I could feel it, and that’s why I kept on putting it off. I’m happy I did, especially since I don’t believe in being unfaithful, putting up with unfaithfulness, or divorce. I also happy I didn’t judge all male population on Tommy’s mistake. I did give Brett the second chance, I am planning on marrying him still, and I am not putting it off at all. I think there is a reason why I lost something with Tommy but I am having it with Brett. I picked up and left everything behind for Brett, even though I had never met him in person. I didn’t hesitate, and I went without regrets or most worries. I knew I would come back to the Ohio Valley.



Now the current situation lets the question be turned in Brett’s direction, if he will pick up and leave with me? He already said he would. He knows I don’t care to go out of my comfort zone again, not being pregnant. But he came to the Ohio Valley in April, so he knows what it is like here and he is okay with moving here so we have more security and overall better environment for our baby.



I am happy I made my choice in August of whom I wanted to be with and doing so with no doubts. I couldn’t be happier I chose Brett. When Tommy contacted me, wanting me back, Brett even told me I could go with him, if I wanted, that he would wait for me. I wanted to slap Brett for it but he gave me a choice, just like I gave him with Corrin. I believe Tommy was a stepping-stone in my life. The pain he caused me, pushed me towards Brett, and even though Brett hurt me the same way and didn’t tell me until later, I found a way to forgive him. I think that shows a lot for Brett. I admit I still have the song Tommy wrote and sang to me, the files where I recorded some of our conversations, and the two poems he wrote me from boot camp. I look or listen to them from time to time, but they don’t mean what they once did to me. The meaning behind them has been lost but I want delete or destroy them because of what they did mean to me at one time. I know what I felt was true. Like I said before in forum threads and journal entries, I believe we have more than one true love, it’s just they come and go at different times and last for different intervals of time. I don’t doubt Tommy was a true love but more a step for me to take. Because of him, I found it in my heart to forgive Brett and know it was true forgiveness.



I know Tommy and Britany will probably read this sometime since they always kept up with my journal entries, blogs, and profiles, but I don’t care. I can write what I want and say what I want. I am making this as a closing entry to the whole “Tommy thing” and I am entering it in different places. It might explain a lot to my child, if they ever come across this along with everything else I have written.



~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~



What would you say if I asked you not to go

to forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me

would you take my hand and never let me go

promise me you'll never let me go



and the stars aren't out tonight,

but neither are we to look up at them

why does hello feel like goodbye?

These memories can't replace,

these wishes I wished and these dreams I chased

take this broken heart and make it right



I feel like I lost everything when you're gone

left remembering what it's like to have you here with me

I thought you should know,

you're not making this easy



I never thought I’d be the one to say

please don't, please don't leave me



I feel like I lost everything when you're gone

left remembering what it's like to have you here with me

I thought you should know,

you're not making this easy



you're not making this easy... (easy, easy, easy...)



take my hand and never let me go,

take my hand and never let me go,

promise me...

you'll never let go

you'll never let go

you'll never let go

you'll never let go

make this last forever



I feel like I lost everything when you're gone

left remembering what it's like to have you here with me

I thought you should know, you're not making this easy



you're not making this easy

you're not making this easy

you're not making this easy

you're not making this easy

you're not making this easy



so fall asleep tonight, cause that brings me closer to you

Depression or Not?
06:10 May 05 2007
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I don't even know why cry anymore. I can't even determine if I am depressed, becoming depressed, or just terrified because of the situation right now. I wish I knew.



I am seeing my OB/GYN on Monday and I am discussing it with him.



I know I am seriously missing Brett like crazy, it's normal isn't it? I haven't seen him since he left here at the beginning of April.



I am worried about my baby. What if something is wrong? I am three months, if not four months pregnant and haven't been on prenatal vitamins, except for this last month. I know I don't get enough nutrients to nourish myself and a baby. I keep on thinking about the possibility of my baby bing a medical baby, as soon as it is born. I have gone through that with my nephew, I am not sure if I could go through it again, especially with my own. The closer Monday gets, the more scared I become and hoping this is all for nothing.



I am also scared shitless about giving birth to my baby, whether it be vaginally or a C-section. The C-section is more likely with me though. I had dislocated hips when I was born. I have a great chance of having endometriosis, especially since I am having extreme cramps and pains in my belly. I can't even sleep because of the pain. The only way to even diagnose endometriosis is by the doctor doing a laparoscopy and I seriously doubt my doctor would do one, just to know whether or not I have it. Being pregnant, I don't even know if it would be safe for him to do it. But my body is weird anyway, my stomach is clear up in my chest and I have many stomach problems.



But even knowing I might have to get a C-section, I have to debate whether or not I want to be alert through it or not. Since some hospitals leave the mother decide. Even with a vaginal birth, I have to decide whether I want a natural birth or the epidural and things. I have no clue what I want anymore. One day I think I am strong enough to handle a natural birth and then I can't even stand the thought of it. I fear the idea of it all, the whole "a baby is coming out of me in only months." Don't get me wrong, I am thankful and grateful for the gift of a child. But I can't seem to conquer the fears. It scares me worse than anything.



On top of everything, I am getting sick again. Like I told Brett though, if I am going to get sick yet again, now is the time to do it. I am going to see the doctor on Monday and he might prescribe me something to boost my immune system because this can't be good for the baby.



This is what was on my mind. Today, a whole bunch of other stuff got placed into it! I now don't even know what state I am having my baby in! Where I am going to be living or anything else! How much chaos can my mind handle at one time? We are about to find out...



We basically have two options right now:



1. Move to another apartment in Nashville.

2. Move to Ohio where my family can help us out.



*Problems*



1. If we stay in Nashville, we have to find another apartment because we cannot move into another apartment when I am eight or nine months pregnant. There's no way! We have to be able to afford it with our bills, utilities, and trying to save some for the baby. Our lease at our current apartment is up in November and my due date is probably going to be in November if I go on the formula concerning my last period. We both have questionable credit that will keep us from getting an apartment. And Nagey can't find work down there. But Brett works at Dell and I am on his medical, thank god! Plus I have to get my medical records transferred to whoever I choose to see down there.



2. If we move to Ohio, we basically become somewhat dependent on my mom and Uncle Bill. We would be living at Uncle Bill's old house paying rent. I already made it so Nagey can come with us to Ohio. But he would charge us a set amount for rent. There are no guaranteed jobs up here. There is no way of knowing if Brett would get medical or not, let alone Nagey. I would take them both to talk with the guy I graduated with since he owns his own company and knows all the computer places around here. My fear is they will have to get their A+ certification in order to get the job or something like that. But we would have a security net and I would get on welfare so me and the baby were covered until Brett and I do get married. Plus I would be making an appointment at WIC to see what they can help me out with a little. But if something happened, I know my family would catch me and him, no matter what.



We both are undecided on where we should go. Nashville is completely unknown, but in Ohio we have a safety net in a way. We know there would be more security here. What I don't like is he basically put the decision on me, or made me feel like it when he said no matter what, where I go, he will follow. It is something him and I need to decide together. Not something for just me to decide. I am just hoping we figure out soon so I can see him... I refuse to get on a bus unless I know we are living down there. A 11-13 hour bus ride is too much on a pregnant woman, you're miserable the whole way!



Oh and the other problem is I am suffering from insomnia. I can't even sleep when I am tired as hell and light-headed from not sleeping. That's another thing I need to bring up with the doctor!



**Added an hour later**



I thought I would add about my allergy to water, well the chemicals in water are coming back. I can keep only some water down and even got a lecture from the nurse who took my blood on Thursday. I am just hoping with my being dehydrated and getting sick that my doctor doesn't decide to put me in the hospital. I hate going there, let alone staying!



Another thing, I have been getting horrible headaches and migraines and last night I figured out what they are being caused by for the most part. When I do sleep, I sleep a certain way I am cutting off some of the circulation to my brain. I have this problem when I turn my head a certain way and it is happening in my sleep.



And last but not least, since I have not been able to sleep worth crap, I am getting it whenever I can! I already told Brett, it doesn't matter what his work schedule is, I can't deal with not sleeping and I have to grab it whenever I can right now. And it sucks because warm milk isn't working like it always has with me.

Someone Special
03:00 May 03 2007
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I started to think about something today, well more like someone. And I realized something that wasn’t apparent before. My first real crush that I had and Brett are A LOT a like in many ways. I was in the fourth grade, and my first real crush was on a boy who moved into my small town, no body knew didn’t know anything about it so he was automatically an outcast (like me). He name was Daniel; I have forgotten his last name over the years. He was unusual and not like the other people who rode my bus or even those at school. He was different. I could tell in his past and possibly even had currently been abused by the way he acted. Him and I started sitting in the same seat on the bus ride to and from school. He left me speechless with wonderful and amazing stories that were obviously made up but at that time, it seemed like anything was possible. He told stories of floods, tornadoes, fires, ghosts, and many others. He told me he dreamed of the future sometimes. I couldn’t believe him. I didn’t even believe my own dreams. But he went on to tell me of a dream he had about a fire happening at his house and his family and him would have to move soon. I didn’t want to believe him though, why would I? He was my friend and I didn’t want to lose him to a move. He could tell it upset me and he explained everything would be alright. So I eventually forgot about it. He went on with his stories and tales. We helped each other on homework. And then one day, the bus stopped at his house but no Daniel to be seen. His house was in ruins and they never did decide whether it was artisan or accidental. I miss him. I wish he wouldn’t have disappeared. But I wish even harder that I would have believed him when he told me about the dream. I would have told him how I felt but never got the chance.



But they do seem similar to me. They both have dark brown eyes and unmanageable brown hair. They both love role-playing, which you might as well consider Daniels stories as that because oddly enough, some of them sounded like D&D campaigns (I didn’t know about D&D back then). They were both different and I could relate to them in so many ways. And I miss them both when I am away from them. But it isn’t because of my first crush I fell in love with Brett, I can reassure you of that fact, at least. I just always hoped to find someone who was as sweet, caring, gentle, loving, and imaginative as Daniel was or even more so. I think I have actually found someone who is more of all those qualities but I still wish I could find out what happened to the disappearing boy who influenced and intrigued me so much way back then.

Apology to FrosttBloodstorm
02:51 May 03 2007
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I thought it was appropriate to place this in here since I had done so this whole situation.



I apologize to you Frostt and to you, too Lyric.



I received this message from a woman who is on my friends list and I have talked to in the past. I guess there was a simple explanation. I just wish I would have gotten this sooner!



"Lyric



21:35:16

May 02 2007



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About the rating blackmail.. Frosttbloodstorm didn't leave the comment about re-rating his, I was trying to help him out with his ratings. He wasn't even home at the time. He is extremely mad at me for getting so many people pissed at him. I am so so very sorry I never meant for it to sound rude. He didn't lie to you though, it was me that left the first comment and I don't think he knew about it. I truly am sorry and never meant to sound rude. I haev so many people upset with him for something he didn't even do."





I am sorry!

Excuses, Excuses
04:34 May 02 2007
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So FrosttBloodstorm decided to message me back on my last message last night. He only stated an explanation filled with excuses. Not very good or creative excuse, at that!



My comment from last night to him was:



"Refer to my journal, section "My Twisted Mind/Life" for my reply to this message.



Thank you! Have a wonderful night!"



I didn't care to copy and paste it all to someone who lost a great deal of respect with me.



And here is there reply:



"FrosttBloodstorm



01:33:30

May 01 2007



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hmmm, since you see fit to blast me in your journal take a second to listen. the computer i was using prior to now i was pasting what was originally my "stamp" when i rated people. it seems that the last time i had done so, i had pasted what my ex-roommate had used before and didn't notice, along with the wrong button being hit in my haste to rate people and finish my work that i was doing. you aren't the only one it happened to and not the only one that got offended.



i have gone back to as many as i can to try and appologize and correct the mistake, which was what my last message to you was about.



please feel free to add this message to your next journal entry."



Okay, well lies and excuses add up fast! How many can you count? Well, I see three, possibly four! But that just might be me!



*** Lies and excuses being: ***



1. A stamp doesn't change from person to person, or profile to profile. You rated Sabre a five and left a similar comment.



2. How did you post a "stamp" that your ex-roommate used? Unless he was on your account, rating profiles under your name! And you just happened to not notice the mistake, right?



3. Along with the stamp changing, it's amazing the wording of the stamp, itself, changed miraculously to match what you was rating the person, right?



4. And last but not least, you say you are trying to apologize to people and correct the mistake. Well, I see no where in your first message where you tried to apologize for the "mistake." You had never rated my profile before, actually. So how had you already given me a ten when you rated me?



Here was my reply to that message:



"Sorry, buddy, but the stamp doesn't change with every person and their profile. I know you have done it to other people too and that others are irritated. I saw Sabre's journal entry after I had already posted mine.



Take responsibility for your actions at least, instead of playing "the pass the blame" game.



I gladly admit I rate most people one through five when I first go to their profiles. So be happy you received the six."



Oh and another thing, when anyone messages me, please use proper grammar, spelling, and punctuation! Please? There are spell-checkers that are designed to work with web browser now, use them! Thank you in advanced!

I Despise ALL Liars!
03:36 May 01 2007
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Why do people take a lower rating as being personal? Why is a ten so important for some to have? Yes, I am bitching! It doesn't matter who you are, what level you are, or what your rank is in the society, because I will rate you what I feel is deserved on your PROFILE ONLY! It is nothing personal! It is nothing you should act like a baby about! Grrrrness, get some maturity! Please?!?



Yes, by posting this journal entry, I need to go back and remember my maturity level as well but this irritated me drastically today, just because of the message I got in my private messages!



Going through and rating profiles with my stamp, I gave this person a stamp. Alright, they came to my profile and gave me the same rating back. Do they not know, it is against the rules of the TOS and VampireRave to rate people with a rating not based on their profile, itself? Anyway, here is his comment:



"FrosttBloodstorm

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Date: 08:38:03 - Apr 30 2007

Rating: 6

Comment: I have returned the 6, when you re-rate, so will I."



Alright, I went to their profile to see if they had made updates so I could up their rating. But none had been made in the context of their profile. Here is my comment in return:



"Well I wouldn't even mind you rating me lower than a six, if my profile deserved it. I think your profile is a six so therefore, it got a six from me. I rate what I see a profile deserving of.



So if you are going to be childish and rate me a six, just because I gave your profile one. Go ahead, I don't mind. It just shows your immaturity.



Have a nice day! :-)"



Well, after this, I logged off shortly after because I spent time with my mom and her boyfriend. I came back to this message in my private messages:



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FrosttBloodstorm



17:32:06

Apr 30 2007



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hmmmmm seems i gave you a 10 when i rated you. no worries i never saw fit to rate yours under such before, and see no reason to now."



And this is the new comment on my profile ratings:



"FrosttBloodstorm

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Date: 16:39:22 - Apr 30 2007

Rating: 10

Comment: ~10~"



Okay, what you stated to me in the comment you first left me, and the different message to me in my private messages, it's considered LYING! Didn't you ever learn it isn't good to lie? Especially when the person actually took the time to copy the rating and comment to her e-mail! God, at least be truthful with me or anyone on this site! Anyone in your life you meet, even the ones you hate, at least deserve the truth! Grow up! Get out of the whole lying just to try to get a better rating or seem like a better person! Your first comment and rating shows nothing but immaturity and when pointed out, you try to cover it up with a LIE. Well it just doesn't work that way, buddy!



*And yes, warning people, I have been bitchy lately! Little things irritate the hell out of me! Lie to me and I will hold it against you, for a long time!*



Bottom line: "Don't piss off a pregnant woman!"



That's even what my fiancé and my roommate say when I am in Nashville or even on the phone with them!