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Tommy, skyfire, I Am Done With Him, Never Another Chance.21:45 Jul 23 2006
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*~*~*~*~*This is my kiss sent to me by my fiancé from boot camp. It means the world to me, literally. I cried when I opened the envelope and there it was on the last page of the letter.*~*~*~*~*
Also here is a picture of my boyfriend taken while he was talking with a friend on the phone while I was viewing the webcam that he was on. It is in awful condition but that may just be how blurry it shows up on my computer. Anyways there will be more pictures of him in my portfolio and my profile very soon.
My boyfriend and I met on here, his screen name is skyfire. I love him more than anything and just hope I never lose him. He is in the United States Marines and lives in Phoenix, AZ but we have worked out so far how to see each other when we can. My friends and family thought I was insane for meeting a guy I met online, but I think it was the best decision I have made in my life. My family has even commented that I have never smiled so much. And Osman, a family friend that has known me since I was little, cannot even remember a time where I have been so happy and carefree. I love him with everything I am and that I can ever be. I am so scared of losing him and do not know what would happen if I did, I just pray I will never have to find out. I have never longed so much just to be in someone's arms as I do now or even to get a letter or hear his voice. And I never take for granted when he tells me "I love you." Those words with the true feelings behind them mean more to me than anything anyone could ever give me.
Okay this is written on July 21, 2006. I have added this part about Tommy back onto my profile. I love him very much. He cheated on me with another girl (just made out with her but I look at it as cheating). After I found out from the other girl, he broke up with me because he did not know who he wanted to be with. Anyways, he was granted one chance to prove that he will not do it again. Everyone has been telling me that once a cheater, always a cheater, especially since he is in the Marines. Well I love him and I always will, no matter how much he hurts me. I just cannot promise him that my trust will always be there and a relationship is nothing if there is no trust. He delivered a devastating blow to my trust when all this happened but there is still a considerable amount there for him. He knows and understands he has only one chance with me. If he hurts me in any way, cheats on me, lies to me about something, or even if I just become suspicious that I can end the whole relationship without an explanation or warning.
Virginity Lost03:19 Jul 22 2006
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Okay I am still a virgin and I am very proud of it. I have had many opportunities but want to wait for my Prince Charming to find me before I do. I know most people think that is stupid and what if he never shows up. Well to answer that last one, if he doesn't show up then I will be a virgin until I die probably HAHA Oh Well. And no I do not mean this as an insult to others who have lost their virginity; I am only stating why I have not. I think it is worth the wait but I do hold the ability to change my mind, like everyone else. Maybe one day if I meet a guy I love and trust completely I will lose it, even if we do not get married. Yeah that is it, just MAYBE ONE DAY HAHA and if by any chance in hell I do lose my virginity any time soon, this section will be moved to my journal and be titled what once was. So anotherwards, if you have my journal on your favorites list or happen to stop by my profile at a later date and find this section missing... you will know the reason why. I won't keep it forever but I want everything to be perfect, to be special, and to be magical. I only get to lose it one time, right? Well then it is going to be when I am completely ready and have no doubts.
AND HERE IS MY PRINCE CHARMING HEHE...
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Okay this should have been put off of my profile back on June 20, 2006. But I never found the time and plus there was a long confusing situation behind it (I didn't know I lost it until the day after Shhh! No one say anything hehe). But anyways, it was with Tommy and it was perfect. Except three layers of clothing. But um yeah it still happened. Haha That will be a secret only between me and him. But I love him and I don't regret it at all.
Final Note: I am no longer a virgin!
From Profile... Tommy
11:21 Jul 17 2006
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Fairy tales do end up coming true!!!
I will be getting married in probably December to the sweetest guy ever. He has stolen my heart and I love him more then anything. I wish everything was easier and especially telling my Mother but she will either accept or not. She should not try to stop me since she knows how happy I have been while with him and talking to him. The feeling is like nothing ever experienced and I cannot stop smiling now (even in my sleep).
*Correction: we wanted to get married in December but if we did, I would lose my scholarship. Since I cannot leave that happen, we cannot be married for two years or until I get out of college with my degrees.*
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