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So they say,

My doll has human hair.

I swear its just suits her so well.

So they say,

Her eyes follow your every move.

I swear she only does it cause she cares.

So they say,

Shes more alive everyday.

I swear im not dieing.



But why,

does she smile when I frown.

Howd do i seem,

so invisible latly...

Im shivering away!



Howd she do that!

She wast laying here befor.

What are you giggeling about?



My eyes!

There not moving!

AH! I cant move anything.

Stop! what are you doing!



...So she says

When shes done ill feel no saddness were I go.

She swears theres no pain there.

So she says

Thats were all the little girls like you go.

She swears Shed love to trade places.



So I say

Please my child yes ide love to.

I swear on my heartless sould please take me!

With a peak on the cheak.

It happend all to quikly!



Now my child I must ask you one question.

Would you let me be your doll

We could trade places youd love it here.

The disease that keeps spreading.

Its taking me for a ride.

Disinerating my brain.

Sinking to madly insane.

Following a satisfaction.

To restor what was lost.

Its made of love.

Its made of mud.

Its more of a...

Feel of nothing

Feel of a waste of time.

SICK from hate.

SICK from love.

The disease that keeps spreading.

Its Kissing me, Holding me, Bitting me.

The snake with venom.

Has placed his mark.

the devil does everything backwords so here

it kinda sucks sadly sounded better in my head lol



I speak in tounge backwords.

I hold my cross backwords.

I aim my gun forewords.

I hit my finger

while nailing him to the cross.

For the sake of all man kind.

Burn the temple to keep the book a secret and write it backwords.

Take me to when it all started. Ill speak the forbiden truth Backwords.



My secret name is misoury.

For ive done it for 7 years.

This fucking arrmageddon.

will beat you to death.

youll soon like the pain.

The moon has now eclipsed the sun...

Are bitter futer has just begun!

the antichrist has played his horn.

Slaughter time, so fresh with blood.

Dripping out of your victums mouth.

Holding the innocent befor they fall sinking the kinfe deeply,

To the back of there kneck through there mouth.

Licking the knife loveing every drop of blood.

Candels Raise my intension.

For yours wasnt any diffrent.

The blade of a knife.

Shall kiss your heart.

Pushing it as deep as i alow.

Your screams wont be herd.

For this ones from the heart.

Tieing you down tothe machine.

So close your eyes.

Open your fear.

This ones on me.



Burning your skin.

With my special gassoline.

Cry in terror as the screw driver digs.

deep into your terrified eyes pulling them out.



You realy shouldnt of done that!

You made me this way!

No dont fight!

Dont make me do this!



Now that the night is silent...

I shall use my favorite tool.

The buzzing of my saw.

Will always echo in your mind.

But it shall take a finger off at a time.

Blood splatters on my hands.

What a lovely aroma.

What a lovly taste.

Pushing the serenge needle to your neck.

Injecting the acid in your vain.

Drop by drop you shall burn internaly.

Suffering slowly but bitterly painful.

Kissing your blood staind lips.

Befor plaving my black widow in your mouth.

stitching it shut for her to dwel.

to wipe my blade to call it one!

Finding the perfect place to..

hide the remains, to burn the evidence

He's burning in cocain.

He's drowning in vodka.

Living his life so intoxicated.



His brain is ash.

His hearts a beer bottle.

We see money,

he sees drugs.



He lives like ceasur.

He dies like jesus.

They say the bodys a temple

you say its a place to get wasted.



So many decades of being sick,

toxic, and uncured.

So many decades of being injured,

wounded, and forgotten.



He says he loves life

then he finds another way to kill life.



Soon his drugs wasnt enough

he needed more.

so one after the other he whent

she takes her last breaths of mortality and runs.

runs to the lost woods.

for it was lost for just to long.

hearing the howls of night.

but most of all her tears hitting the floor.



"This is just a nightmare".

says the voice in the back of her head.

"ill wake soon?"



she runs to the depths of the woods to find a willow tree.

sitting in its glory of emerald.

she then climbs

with blood shot eyes still full of tears.

she ties it tightly.

Just like she practiced

around her neck.

a rope

a suicide rope...

The man with power?

The man that cares?

The man of war.



Bow, close your eyes, and

Pray with glory.

For he will set us all on fire.

After he drowns us all.



He gave the miracle of life.

He gave the power of choice.

But do handle them well.

For if you dont he'll send you straight to hell.



He sends a book of wonder.

To prove whos worthy and who not

But be carful, dont eat an apple.

for if you do you wouldn't be welcomed in a Chapel.



He want to see if your worthy.

He wanted to see if ide do it.

So he told me...

Grab a bloody knife

pin down a dove and make my sweet sacrafice.



Is it love

or is it lies

to pray and all is forgiven

or that just why everyones doing it

Falling in the same battle.

Fighting a war of acceptance.

Or waiting for it to end in a bloody regectencs.

A never ending Armma Geddon.

Captivating myself in a warhead.

Until my self conciencs explodes.

Hurting the ones closests but most of all

leaving the rest brain dammaged in radiation.



Im worst off then the doctors expected.

There is no cure for such disease.

but they forced me to fight.

My only weapon of choice...

My mind

Ill pretend to look ok.

Ill pretend to make it through the day.

Ill pretend that I didn't consider anything.

Ill pretend that my life means many things.

Ill pretend ill pretend that theirs people who cares about me.

Ill pretend that im any other person you see.

Ill pretend to smile.

Smile and pretend.

Smile and pretend.

Smile and pretend.

My angels afraid.

My angels crying.

She always is...

She fears the monster

Behind me,

inside me,

me.

She bleeds from scars.

Scars of sins.

Her face is pale.

Pale from following me through shadows.

She watches me.

When I cast a circle.

When I say a chant.

My monsters...

Tourcher her,

Rape her,

Slice her open.

But she still follows me...

She still crys for me...

She still prays for me...

Why wont she understand.

I killed your passion for love and hate.

I plot the plan to take your soul.

I spun the web the trapped your heart.

I served the army that killed the innocent.

I built the atom bomb that blew your family away.



From the people with skeletons in their closets.

To the people who clamied united we stand.

Even the people who said all well that ends well.



They all lost their mind but found their way.

To have hundreds killed in one day....

This tainted love youve given.

Fighting for love? or hate...

Where war born, we just cant.

and most of all we wont...

stop fighting wtih silver bullets...

knowing one day the aim succeds.



Sharing love?

Or infedelity...

Captivting are love secretly from the enemy.

To stare in wonder or to stare in relization.



We lived through civil war I.

We lasted Civil war II.

But will we last the arrma gaddon?



Wearing gas masks to hide my frown.

Or to make me keep my mouth shut in ur secretcy...

My messages are somtimes not understood.

But shall I blame myself...



To slam the door in my mind.

To grab the gun of truth.

And pray for nothing.



The bomb that once kept us united.

Has now been tamperd with another?

Or has it just plain whent off.

and killed once was?

Just crucify me.

And watch me bleed.

For three days on a.

Cross.



But befor you do.

Ill sell my soul to you.

Ill give you my.

Blood.



Blood for rituals.

And my soul as a.

Sacrafice.



Ill sell it to you for anything.

Anything but faith.

For what is worth believing.

could be bitterly.

Deciving.

Your whispers speak calmly to me.

I cant find a reason why they fear me.

So well...



These thing on my chest.

That I can never confess.

Fear pulling me in.

Holding me back.



For what is a voice for

when you just cant scream.

Afraid they relise who I am...

So lost in my own words.



Choking because they cant be spoken.

Taking my tounge out.

Ripping my voice away.

They have no use.

Not in this world....

You loved the childish smile.

The little hands that wrapped

around the fathers hands.



The innocents in me.

The ignerance in me.



Time flows but do you still love me?

Even when i dont smile.

Not as long...

When the blood on my wrists.

Stains her fathers hands.



When the innocents in me.

when the ignorence in me.

Is all faded away.



Would you replace me.

Or just plain for get me.

Im burning

Im bleeding

Im internaly suffering!



Captivate me

suficate me

By every waking mean.



These secrets holding me back

My self consens waiting to attack.



Picking my skin.

Picking my scabs.

Tearing it all apart.



pushing it in.

holding it back.

waiting for the right aim.

pulling the trigger.



percing my skin.

through my heart.

through my soul.



Clicking the gun

Pulling the gernade.

Theres no were left to run!



The war of etirnal flam.

Has only left yourself to blame.

a child stapped to a bomb

Reverance left in vietnam



soulders

comrads

armor

weapons of choice.



shouting

crying

screaming

with no voice



hurting and betral

for theres nothing left in this world

not if its not worth fighting for

What is it realy... that fills your heart

is it that motavation from a life with a god?

or is it a mind full of suffer cause you know you cant go...

in the end of times will you relize....

who is your god and who is the devil!



are you ready to die

cause your life will stop any moment.

any moment your god will soon take over....!

soon your house will burn!

soon your seas will turn...

in the darkest hour of your miserable life....

in the end of times will you relize....

who is your god and who is the devil...

im not dieing for a last chance... im dieing

with your name in vein...



drag me to hell one more time

twist everything that you say one more time...

smack me in the face with your reality again and again

just stay away from me

your not my destony...

A death befor its time was due.

Just a life forgotteen no one knew.



She was crying as her killer pulled a gun...

Such a tragic way to die, such a tragic place to lye

Shot bettween her blood shot eyes, laying in a cathedral...

Candels flickerd as he closed the door leaving a crim scene.

her remains were spared, her remains were used,

what was going through your mind?

When did you losse your soul?

he dumped it on her skin, he dumped it on his life,

just anyother gassoline bottle, just anyother life.

he spared a flick of a match.

he spared a pray of remorse.

dieing.... for his sins

Im SCREAMING from the PAIN!....sick,

LIFE...push it tell the END!



what has life made YOU!

Forever in the PIT!

Forever in this SHIT!

Breaking insanity!... Beliver

You pushed me to DEEP!

What do i have to DO!

Why cant you see your in my WAY!!

Your books hurting ME!

hurting YOU!

Why cant you go fuck yourself!

Black eyes...ashamed!

blood spill...remains!

Why cant you see your in my WAY!

Prescription bottels marked love kills.

Poping ecstacy with thrills.

Sidafects may include.

Waking up with someone nude!



Getting high on to much caffine.

Die choking on your nicotine.

Swallowing vicodin so fast.

Fraking out on laughing gas.



Breathing like a ashtray

So drunk they never herd a word you had to say.

Lucifuge lighting kronic in the fires.