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09:26 Jul 31 2011
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Is it supposed to hurt this much? It feels like somebody tore my heart out and rubbed salt into the wound. I just want things to be okay again.

God, please...make it all stop.

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JustinDupree
18:46 Jul 31 2011

Everything will work out. Friends don't let friends have salty wounds. :D

09:14 Jul 26 2011
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Harry Potter. Dammit.

Well, I was alseep for about 20 minutes and then a few of the roomates decided to watch a DVD at an ungodly volume. Harry Potter. I could hear it right through the walls. Jeeeeeeeeeeeezus.

Seriously!? *growls*

No. No no no no no. Dammit. No.

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10:20 Jul 05 2011
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I should have never said anything to you. Not one god damn word! I should have shut my mouth and stayed silent about anything and everything. I feel so stupid now. How could you do this to me again? Why would you do this to me again? Am I that fucking disposable to you...even after all this time being friends?

I get it now. Point taken. I will NOT bother you ever again with my stupid, silly and pathetic little life. You simply don't have time for me and you certainly do not want to hear about what goes on in it...or what's going on with me...or how I feel.

My mistake.

I thought we were friends.

I thought you (of all people) would understand...or at least try to. You don't have any room for me in your life...and apparently, you're too upset with me to try. I get it. Point taken. My feelings mean nothing to you now. Everything that I am and every fiber of my being is a joke to you.

The tears I have in my eyes right now reflecting on our friendship...they mean absolutely nothing to you. The pain in my heart...you put it there. The sadness I am going to feel...that's something you caused too. I'll get used to it though. It's all I have known and all I will know.

I hoped for better. I hoped that we could have communicated better. You didn't want to. You ignore me. You think it's perfectly fine too. IT HURTS! I've always said that I learn something new every day. With you, I learned that you think it's okay to fill my heart with sadness when you used to fill it with joy and laughter.

I don't get it. I don't get how I deserve this. I don't get what I did. I just don't get it.

and yet.................................................I do now.

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