This isnt fucking normal or good.
The feeling of being transparent and hallow.
The feeling of sorrow.
I dont feel so good......
Because I feel as if something's always off. That everything is on the verge of breaking down and I never have a chance at anything good.
The feeling that you get when you're falling. Screaming. The feeling that something bad is about to happen when it's supposed to get better and you just dont know what the fuck it could be...
Pain.
Because so many things hurt. Especially tonight.
Rambling.
Im doing it. Right now...
It's so strange. I always wake up at the same part. The part where I go off to chase it.
*yawns* Must kill that damn moth and go to sleep...again...
How the fuck did this happen anyways? IM THE ONE WITH PERFECT TEETH IN THIS FAMILY! It hurts. It's giving me a serious headache too.
What else has me awake...? I missed my very best friend today. Dammit.
I have another creative block.
I need a smile. I need a hug. I need for somebody not to let go of me. In that order....
I want my friend. So very much.
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You will always have me as a friend. That should go without question.
Angry that I have fractures in my heart.
One day I might learn to outrace the speed of pain.
Peace
Quiet
Darkness
Nothing at all...
and return home with no voice.
Tonight,
Anger
Frustration
Confusion
Pain
......................and it keeps on.
Just never stops.
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