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Rain is my favourite weather,

It's like depression my favourite mood.

Raindrops are like the tears of sadness,

Coursing down my cheeks.



I know why I'm crying, don't say I don't,

I'm crying because of a broken heart,

I opened my heart to him,

He drove his knife into my heart,

And tore it now it's bleeding.



Why does he do this? Did I deserve it?

I will never know now because I'm not going to live much longer.

I wish I didn't have to do this,

But this is the only way for me to escape this pain.



The pain has gotten too much,

I can't handle it anymore,

To get rid of this pain,

I drive a knife through my wrist,

Cutting through skin and vein.

Gushing my life flows like a river out of my wrist,

Looking at the mirror I hold the knife to my throat,

Rip through the skin,

Tearing the artery.



My dark red blood spurts all over the mirror,

Dying it red.

I see my relfection covered in red as how i must look now.



Dizzy, the floor starts to play tricks on me,

I can't walk.

I fall down the stairs,

Leaving a trail of blood along the rails and the carpet.

The colour begins to fade, my release and freedom is near.



Smiling, I feel my heart die and my vision goes black...



And now? Now i am free from pain, hate, misery, rage and suffering.

I want to feel that knife,

The tear of tender flesh,

Giving way to a sharp metallic edge.



To feel the red flow,

To feel that damned within,

Escape from it's human form.



I want to escape,

Get away from this fuked up world,

This place is my prison, my cell,

I cannot get out.



Let me out of here,

Why can't I leave this place?

I can't break free.



Blood welling up,

And spilling over,

Flowing it runs down my wrist,

Wrapping itself around and down my arm.

Drop, Splash,

It falls to the floor,

To create a puddle at my feet.



Falling is like dream,

An echo instead of a thump,

Of a dying body and soul.



My soul is in the dark,

Darkness is everywhere,

It surrounds me,

It's my love, My friend, My life.

But now...



As my blood dries on my skin,

My soul is finally released,

It's free.



A ghost of a smile is left on my dead and lifeless face.



I am free.

Death...my relief from life,

Black...as a shadow,

It creeps upon us taking our lives,

Sweet bliss in disguise.



Take me into your world of blissful pain,

Sweet death,

Screaming, Falling, Tearing me to pieces,

Pain mixed with bliss,

As I escape the pain of the world.



Flowing,my life runs,

Fading, my sight dims,

As I welcome this release.







Black is the colour of death and depression,

Black is the colour of nothing and everything,

Black si the colour that best describes me.





Cries in the dark,

Screams at night,

Who is this person calling out their pain?

Is it the screech owl who eats at night?

No...It is me as I tear out my pain filled heart.

It is the madness within and excruciating pain that is tearing me apart.

As an escape I have cut myself over and over,

But now...This is the last time.

I will not live again,

My blood flowsfrom my wrists and punctured neck.

I sit in my room as I greet an old friend called...

Death.

Screaming, Tearing, Falling to pieces,

As I surrender to madness,

I welcome this descent with joy,

Flowing, my life flows out of me,

As I lay screaming with hate and rage on the floor.

Stab, Rip, Pull out the knife,

I lay there surrounded by red rivers,

Giving into insanity and hate within,

Struggling I look at the mirror shard on the wall,

And see a face full of peace as it finally get,

The release from a painful and cruel life...



Laughing, Darkness takes me and I smile in bliss,

When I finally know nothing...

Drip, Drop, Drip, Drop...

Blood falls down my face,

On to the sink as I stare at the face in the shattered mirror,



I grip the mirror shard in my bare hand,

put out my wrist and jamed it into my wrist,

Blissful pain,

Numb sweeps over me as I smile in joy,

As cursed life flows from my body,

Darkness comes sweeping in carrying me to blessed oblivion.