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How is it that even though you feel as if you have taken two steps forward, only to fall three steps behind, you can still feel as if you have come out ahead of the curve? I've been thinking alot lately about the last year of my life and all of the twists and turns that it has taken, and it almost brings me to tears. In the last year, I have experienced a happiness so profound that there aren't any words to describe it, and yet, I have felt a sadness so horrible that death would have been a suitable alternative, and yet here I am: stronger, wiser, and alot older (maturity wise, not age wise). It is a funny sensation, to be completely mature, and yet still long for the carefree, worryless days of my youth, as short and abrupt as they were. I suppose the price for maturity is the absolute loss of innocence, and yet I cannot hold true to that in my heart. I've said and done a great many things in my short lifetime that I regret, even though I try not to regret anything, because I believe that everything I've done is exactly what I wanted to do at that time.



I think that there comes a time in every man's life where he puts away childish things and either becomes the man he was born to be, or begins to run from his destiny. For the majority of my adult life, I have succumbed to the latter of the situation and have only recently found that running from my destiny is not only incredibly foolish, but rather dangerous, so I really had no choice but to follow my destiny and, while I am not quite as happy as I want to be, I am quite content with my situation in life.

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XxNephthysxX
01:42 Oct 25 2009

I know what you mean.



No regrets.



:)



And I'm only 18 :P

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