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I'm sick inside and out. No i won't die from it but it still hurts like hell. Having a cold is bearable but the pain i feel inside my soul not so much. But don't worry you won't notice like always I'll just suck it up take in the pain bottle it up and save it. Opening it when I'm alone when there's no one to hurt or see me hurting.So if i smile who knows whats behind it i don't fake but won't cause others the hassle of having to see me in pain. So if you read this and try to save me well not to be rude but your wasting your time, no can save me but myself. No matter how selfish i sound it's the truth;sadly I'm not strong enough to pull myself out of the darkness or to fight my own demons. we are all our own worst enemy. And the ones who say they'll stand by me understand accuse me say that i don't care how wrong can someone be, if they knew the pain they put me through. but I'll take the blame and the hurt and bleed for them;that's just the way i am.So if you read this and i damper your day, well I'm sorry but every entry that i write is laced with my feelings and thoughts so your warned. I'm no angel....

well i've joined and i'm new to everything, i guess i'll use here to vent. for once i feel like maybe just maybe i can belong, the world is full of hatred and everyone breaks into the norm, trying and fighting their way to fit some sort of conformist standard that one has been deluded into thinking is the way to act or live.who knows maybe i found the right place for my wandering soul who craves affection, or maybe it isn't, well it doesn't hurt to try. like always i'll wear my heart on my sleeve hopefully it won't be stolen by someone who'll crush it...again.

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Writer2Soul
02:51 Jul 15 2010

A very good start, you are very sweet

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nitewulf
16:41 Jul 17 2010

I hope you have found a home at last I now I did here

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