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Hello, I am sitting in this classroom doing nothing. I am in English 4, looking up stupid things for an essay, its kinda a stupid essay so I am not really going to pay attention. I am really bored and tired with nothing better to do, so I am sitting here writing this letter to anyone who cares to hear what I have to say.

This letter is going to be a bit different from the previous letters I have written before. I have 28 minutes to sit here and write whatever I please, and if my teacher decides I am not on task then so be it. I really don’t feel like putting up with her bullshit anyways.

I have come to find that I am a very heartless girl it feels like. I have come to see that no matter what I do I cannot please anyone; not even myself. I seem to always hurt someone in the making of trying to fix myself. I am but a broken woman. Not like anyone cares.

I have broken up with my recent boyfriend. My so called friend’s boyfriend wanted to argue about the reasoning behind of which I broke up with him. But yet hours before I have already gave him reason of which why I was going to break up with him. My friend didn’t even help me. Not like that is of any surprise, seems she is never there for me when I need her. But yet, I am always there for her when she needs me.

Typical how one friend, who is supposed to be your best friend, can turn around and completely forget my face. She can’t even see my eyes that are begging and pleading for help. She looks right passed me as if I was just a ghost in the corner behind the darkness. Doesn’t surprise me. I am used to this, since she has done this to me multiple times before.

I fear for her, she loves so much, but only gets hurt. Sounds slightly familiar, almost like my story, but if you know me, then you would know my story, but this is to anyone, one of you may not know a thing about me. Except that I am alive. At least, at one point of time. You never know when I will be freed from this wreck of a world.

I know this is kind of depressing, but I would like to get a few things off my mind, not like I’m actually going to print this and let someone read this, no…I mean everyone knows who I am talking about, and everyone knows the story about me and her. Friends since elementary, separated for a while, and then matched back up in middle school. Lost slightly in high school, best friends almost sisters, and now. I barely get a high in the morning. She is too lust found.

She sits and walks with a boy who likes her. “I do not like him like that. He is my brother, but he likes me.” Maybe because you spend every loving minute with the poor bastard. She is like a witch; she makes people like her so she can have them for herself. So when one boyfriend doesn’t work out, she will have someone else to fall on. It’s pathetic. I mean I guess I used to be like that. Back in ninth grade, but then I learned what it’s like to have a broken heart. Seems I have never healed from the last one.

No one really gets me. I don’t even get me. I pretend I do so people do not judge me or my actions. Seems I am judged no matter how I look at it. People judge, it’s in our blood. I judge. But I only judge those I know I cannot help, or those who I know are in the wrong. I am not saying I am in the right either. I am not very “holy” or in the right state of mind. I guess I only pretend to be.

But then I am only being a hypocrite. But can you say that you aren’t one yourself? I know at least everyone is a hypocrite within themselves, even if they do not admit it, they are. Everyone is a hypocrite, even church “holy” people, I think they are the biggest hypocrites, and I “insulted” them to the deepest just now.

I don’t understand church people, they actually piss me off. Not because I am not a believer, but because I think they are the biggest hypocrites in the world. They say do not judge, but if you are not in church or have a completely different religion, they judge and call us “sinners” well no shit we are sinners, so are you dumbasses so you can shut the fuck up and get over it. That’s just one of the reasons of which I am not religious, because the people around you are stupid.

I’ve come to learn I hate stupid people. Especially at work I really hate stupid people. It’s common since, but they want to act like they don’t have a goddamn brain in their head. Stupid… I don’t know. This is normally supposed to be a happy, random, and weird. I guess because I am not feeling as happy as I have before. I am not as hyper. I am bored still, not really I lied.

It’s 6th period and I am sitting here doing nothing, but writing something stupid. I don’t see why I keep writing these. I know this is my 3rd letter I have written, but what the point of doing randomness if I am feeling like this? I was supposed to give this to Angela, but she decided to go home. Then again I can make this into an even longer letter than the ones before and save it for tomorrow. I think I will do that.

Its only 1:23pm October 10th, Well the time I wrote this anyways, so don’t look at your clock and go “no its not” Because by the time I give this to whoever, I know it will not be that time since I am going to be writing this for a while. So yeah, of course it will not be the same.

My throat hurts, but only on one side. I don’t know why, that doesn’t make sense to me. Nurse says I may be getting strep throat, that will suck deeply because I’ve heard strep throat hurts like hell, and I do not want to get it. I’ve heard strep throat is contagious, I think it’s a lie.

My boyfriend a long time ago had strep throat, I kissed him and even made out with him and I never got it. So I proved that fact wrong. This is myth busters and I proved you wrong. So I guess that fact is BUST!! I guess if you have ever seen that show you’d understand what that meant.

Yeah I am a nerd, what of it? But I don’t watch like myth busters ever. Unless it’s at school then I have too, and it’s very addicting to watch, but not something I would watch on the outside of school.

I guess I have moved on to a more “random” objective on this letter. But I still have so much on my mind; I do not think I want to write it all down. I would think that it would be too much. My friend is probably going to complain to her boyfriend that I was a bitch today because I told her I didn’t want to talk. And she became a fucking bitch herself.

I think fate is starting to tell me, that it would be better if we weren’t friends anymore. I mean, if every time I see her face I get pissed off that’s a sign, the fact my family doesn’t like her that much anymore is a sign. I don’t even care if me and her ended up not being friends. She is a fucking bitch anyways. I thought we were supposed to be close yet, she wants to turn against me.

I don’t know, I can go on and on about her, and it’s sad because I can give this to anyone and they will know who it is. Fuck you Phil, if you want her number you’re going to have to get it through someone else because I am tired of giving it to you over and over.

I am tired; I am depressed and slightly annoyed at the world. I don’t know why. I just am. Well I know the reasons. I am sick and tired of fake ass friends, and stupid ass liars. I am tired of boyfriends and relationships. I am tired of getting my feelings hurt by people that don’t even give a rats ass about me.

I just recently found out that my so called best friend, yes the girl I have been talking about has been telling everyone that she is pissed of at me because of something very small and stupid. (Like Usual) and its taken me to the next level.

Her “boyfriend” was suicidal because apparently they had “broken up” and he was talking all kinds of none-sense and I was trying to make him get over her and to start looking forward and not backwards, but he kept acting depressed and suicidal and I understand, he just got his heart broken and I am just trying to help. Well he goes to sleep because of work,

The next morning he tells me they got back together and that everything was better. Which is good, I want everyone happy, but apparently no, he told her everything I was telling him and apparently that pissed her off. But that day she stared at me with hatred and didn’t have the fucking balls to tell me whats wrong or what I did or to even HEAR my side of the story. Nope just want to be childish and look at me with hatred with Im supposively her best friend. Nope Not anymore. Im tired of her little bullshit ass… Fuck her and everyone who doesn’t like me .





Corrin

Hello, I am sitting here in Mrs. Smalley’s class bored out of my mind, and I felt like writing to someone, No one specific in mind, just someone to get my thoughts out onto this really pretty piece of paper, I mean I didn’t want it to go to waste. Well then again I wanted to waste time so here I am just boringly writing this letter to anyone I can find that wants to read it. Now you’re probably asking “is there a specific reason why I am writing this?” No… Not really, I think I’ve explained this before that I was really bored and had nothing better to do. Ugh. Time is going by so slow and I am terrifically tired. I can’t wait to go into my room shut the door and sleep, even though Jimmy will probably be a douche bag and not let me sleep at all. Fuck my ever loving life…. I want to sleep and I am sooooo bored that I am literally sitting here typing away…. Damn NO one is role playing with me except for Tori, if I happen to give this to Tori, thank you!!! You helped me get through Mrs. Smalley’s class. Even if we did have a sub, there was just nothing for me to do. I mean, I have no writing ideas in my head which kinda worries me because every year I have a good idea, I just can never get my idea down on paper. Omg!! We have about like 12 more minutes, even though by the time anyone gets this it will be time to go and I will probably be half way home by the time someone gets to finish this message, I don’t want to say any names because who knows if I will give it to Melissa, Justine, Or Victoria. Damn I am good at typing. Even though my hands are starting to hurt because all I am doing is typing away. I must be bored, because I continuously keep looking at the clock and stop to think of what I am going to write next…. Now that I think about this I do not know if it’s going to come out pink, blue, and white. I hope so, I would hate for this randomness to be for nothing, although it really wasn’t meant for anything except to pass the time, damn these colors are fucking with my eyes. YAY!! Only 9 minutes left, what am I talking about?! That’s still a long ass time… I guess it’s not that bad. About 7 more minutes, wow, that looks funny, 7. Lol! I am very random if that is my entertainment, Oh well… we have about 6 more minutes left and I don’t think I should print off another page… Oh what the hell?! Its Mrs. Smalley’s and I am sure she doesn’t care if I print off oh well I don’t care, I am just doing this to pass the time… I have about 5 more minutes left and I think that is enough time to try and get me half way down this page maybe. I don’t think I will be that lucky, maybe I will I don’t know, Im really bored and I am really tired and these colors are really bugging me but I really like them lol I keep getting distracted by random things, well I think I am done because I have to put up some thing. Okay!! Well good luck to anyone who reads this… Bye!!

Corrin

I am bored, and I figured out what was wrong with my other letter, it wouldn’t print because it was too pretty. That makes me sad, because I put my heart and soul into that letter, no I didn’t I lied, I was just really bored writing randomly, Wow, this is going to be harder to get to page 3 at this pace only because 1) this is really small text 2) I do not know what all I can write about except the fact I am bored…. I only have 2 reasons? Well that’s stupid; I normally have at least 3… Oh well… Moving on. I am bored and tired, maybe because I didn’t go to sleep until like 2am? I think that was the time... I am really bored and I feel better  Ha! My computer is smart because it can make a smilie  Ah!! That’s so cool. Lol wow, I think I would remember it does that, I have nothing better to do but chill here and listen to music. ICP mmm… I am in love with Shaggy 2 Dope… He is sexxi

Victoria

I’ll never forget walking over to your desk in coach Charleston’s history class. It was me and Irma sitting in front of you and Melissa. Melissa was annoying you, and I was trying to make you laugh. I remember turning around with Irma saying something. I believe I had made a joke, and I’ll never forget that’s the first time I heard you laugh. You introduced yourself, as did I. And started then became our friendship. I always wanted to sit next you, talk to you. I wanted you to think I was cool. But, in all reality I was just a weird dork, but to you, I was your crazy weird dork. I remember volleyball, us getting lost at Bucky’s. All the sleep over’s and walks to the park, getting to lazy to walk back so we called your mom. The first time I got my kiss, poor Bobby about blew his ear out. All the promises and secrets we made and kept. All the tears and sadness we withstand together. We were inseparable for so many years. Best friends. You and I. We had been friends for a very long time. Almost 6 years we have been friends. When we were in the assembly, you of course were in my top ten. If I didn’t have to count my family, I would consider you my number 1, only because I have felt like I have put most of my trust and love into you. You were always there for me when I needed you most, and even after our fights and arguments you were always there for me in the end. If I were to end up dying before my time because of an accident or something, I want you to know that I do love you, and cherish you as a very important friend. It feels like this year we are starting to grow closer again; and I like it so much. I hated that we were barely talking or hanging out. We were friends, but not like how I remember us. I want us to be there when our children are born. I want you to fight over who gets to hold my child first, just like I will with your first child. I want to be the one you have to tell first when something big goes down just like I do with you. I want to take our road trip after high school, and be there for each other whenever we need each other. Even if we are thousands of miles away, if you call me crying, with a blink of an eye, I promise I would be right there beside you, ready to kill any jerk that hurt you. Even if it wasn’t a guy, and you just had a lot on your mind, I want to be the shoulder you cry on, I want to be the person you call to make you feel better. Forget Dustin, I can do it too. Lol, I’m just saying, you’re my number one friend, no matter how far we become you will always be number one in my heart, and if I were to die, I would want you to know that. I love you, and I appreciate everything you have done for me, and I am so glad I can call you friend. There is so much I can could say, but I about summed it all up in this letter. You are and always will be my best friend, no matter who else comes along into my life, and no matter how long you and I will be distance and if we do become far apart. You, Victoria Katherine Segura, will forever be my best friend. I love you





~Corrin