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I can't take this anymore, I want to tell you who you are but the stress of others and the thought of you not wanting me too is kiling me. Should I just give up? No! I want to fight for you! But what choice do I have if your with someone else? I see yor name everywhere and it drives me insane that they get to have you. I had my chance, I had my time, and I ruined it!! Ahhh!!! I can't take this pain. Seeing you, being close to you is what drives me to try to win you over, but not only do I want you, but THEY want you too. Everyone wants you. I heard about the things others do to you. I wish I had the guts to do it. Because of my stupid nerves I am a coward, Im scared!! I just don't want to kiss you and it just be a kiss, I want to kiss you and show you that we belong together and that YOUR MINE!!! But, I ruined my chance before and now all I can do is sit and watch people put their hands all over you. I feel the jealousy and envy. I feel the hate and greed. How can one person put someone through this and not even know it. I want to say your name your perfect name, And so you will finally understand who you are, I want to hear that you love me too, I want to hear that you will give me another chance. I want to be the one to make you happy, NOT THEM. I want to be the one to hold you and call you mine. I want to kiss you, hold you, and give you the world. I want to change. I have changed. Everytime I see you I want to run to you and hold your hand. I want to be your everything, I want to be your love. I can feel you want me, but I was always wrong about feelings, I was always wrong about love. I feel as if you are my drug and I am fully addicted, and with this drug of mine, I do not want to be recovered. I would relapse every time they try to heal me for I will never stop wanting your love. I am here waiting... Waiting for you... I am sure you know who you are, just scared to admit it, so I will wait here... waiting for you to tell me that you love me and that you knew all along that it was you...

Who Am I? That shy girl that roams the halls, with no one looking to find me? Who Am I? The girl in the back of the room that no one can really see? Who Am I? The girl who wishes to be noticed but is afriad to fly? Or am I that girl who will sit down and lie? Who Am I? Am I the girl you love and hold? Forever thinking of the lies I've sold? The girl who wishes she can be yours and more but when you wont even open that door. Who Am I? Your worst enemy of darkness and the shame you put on the wall? Or am I the girl who is destined to fall? The girl of who you cant get off your mind? Even when you try to find? Who Am I? Am I someone speical, someone ONLY you can love? Or the girl who flew away like a free dove? Who Am I? Someone who will never be noticed not by you or she? Why cant you just understand I want to be me? Who Am I? Someone to mold for your only pleasure? When in the end I was worthless treasure. Who am I? The mistake you loved but not anymore? When I go and hit the floor? Who Am I? Some girl you just met and you noticed me? Or are you to blind to see? Who Am I? A hidden face within the crowd? When the silences seems to loud? Am I the mystery you want to crack? But your knowledge you are starting to lack? Who Am I?

I wish you'd love me the way you used to, the way you did when you wrote me that text message that stopped my heart and turned my cheeks red. I wish you still wanted to be with me, the way I still want to be with you. I wish I never gave up and held on a little longer before letting you go. I wish I could have been more patient and gave you time to get used to me and get used to the thought of us being together. Maybe then you would have held my hand longer, and actually kissed me on your own. I wish you would have been more protecrtive over me and actually showed me you loved me. I wish you told me your feelings like you did the text message about me being the girl of your dreams. Why cant I have that again? Why cant I reverse the time and go back to when you loved me and I had you? Where are you my ray of light? Where are you my hope? Where are you my dream person? I used to know you, I used to know what you like, I wonder if your likes are still the same or have they changed? I wish I knew your thoughts and desires, maybe then I could have given you the world. I wish I never let you go, and fought harder to keep you in my arms. I wish you knew who you were because maybe then, I could hear or even read the words that you love and want me back as well. But, Why do I even bother thinking that you will find out who you are. I dont want to tell you who you are because then, I dont think there would be any magic left. I mean, arent any of you even curious of who I am talking about? I guess not, no one has asked me. So, I am like magic and I want to keep you guessing for those who are interested in my writings. I know that "YOU" will be reading it soon, and you might even be the first person who reads this. So, to my "PERSON" of who I am talking to you, I am sorry. I am sorry for all the pain and confusion I created, I am sorry for all the lies and shame I placed onto myself and I really want you back. I want to give US another chance, but I am sure that it wont, but I will keep dreaming and hoping that it will, and that you will find out who you are and you will say you love me still, and maybe then I can have you back, but I dont think that will be anytime soon, but I will wait PATIENTLY hoping and dreaming of you to come back. But until then I cant give up hope and I cant stop dreaming or hoping for your return, I love and miss you my secret person

How is it that everytime I see your face, I see how bad I messed up, I see the what could have, and the should been. Why do I continue to play these games with my heart? Just to see your smile and hear your gentle voice just makes me want you to be mine, to want you to lay so tenderly in my arms, and keep your lips so passionately pressed against mine. Why do I do this? Only knowing it is going to turn out to be a mistake, because I always end up screwing myself over and then I lose you, and I already know, that you aren't going to give me another chance. Because I have messed around and lost you. Your so amazing, has anyone ever told you that? I bet people have; but, I dont think that they mean it like I do. Your so amazing, and wonderful, words so simple and weak such as mine couldnt even cone close to what you mean to me. Creative, Smart, Strong,... but fun, loving, sweet, and shy. How I love how your cheeks would turn to a slight hot red to show your shyness. That giggle, the one where you show you like what I do, but hate how I make you smile. That smile of which can make a heart skip a beat. That heart of which you have stolen from me. Just being around you, for more than five minutes, I realize, how I just cant seem to get over you. Even though, time after time, I try to over look how I feel about you, but being alone with you makes me notice my love. But, I dont want it to stop, except the fact that you will never love me back. Maybe one day I will become strong and better and better myself for you, and maybe, just, just maybe one day you will love me too and give me another chance. Until that day, I can say, I will never stop loving you, and I know you don't know who you are right now, and maybe you will know who you are. I love you whoever you are, and I miss you terribly. I hope one day, you will be mine. So, will you be mine?