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Bleak midwinter, And snow lies all around, My heart is cold and empty, And I long to walk on the hot sand, With the sun burning my body, And my love close at hand, Will you ever return?, Or will I always live in bleak midwinter, Send me word of where you are, Have you found a new love, Have you moved on to someone new?, I am still in a frozen state, Stuck rigid where you left me, Unable to move on, One kiss would thaw my bones, One moment of bliss would unfreeze my toes, I would follow you to the ends of the earth, But my feet are frozen to the ground, And all around there is no sound, In this frozen wilderness, I will live forever, Suspended in time, A monument to discarded love

Maybe someday, that I can open to you, and say all the feelings, I know to be true. Maybe this day, You'll give me your heart, Instead just seeing you tear mine apart. Maybe tomorrow, I'll find my true self to tell you, you mean more to me than anyone else. Maybe you'll love me for all I am, not what I look like for that, I'd be damned. Maybe this day you will kiss me for hours, to hold you in my arms and feel love's true power. Maybe this power, will conquer everything, then I will know, what your love brings. But until then my eyes wont be dry, because every night, I stay up and cry. But I now know, that these tears just bring pain, that all of my efforts, have been in vein. Maybe you'll hate me, and despise my voice too, but no matter what, I will always love you. You bring me joy, unparralled love, and I know that these feelings, only come from above. you are my angel, my very best friend, I will always love you, my friend till the end. But until the day, I can open to you, all I can do, is pray for you. Maybe someday, that I can open to you, and say all the feelings I know to be true.

Come closer and look deeply into my eyes, Tell me I'm the only one, That keeps your heart alive. Sometimes I feel so alone and so afraid, The fear of lonliness grips me, And your cold hand and soul walk me to my grave. I hold out my hands, Look at the Crimson Pain, I Bleed For You Now My Love, But would you do the same? A little closer now look deeper into my eyes, Can you see the death in them? My soul drowning in lies. Sometimes I feel so cold without no chance of warmth, I stand alone in this Dark Void, To brave your frigid storm. I hold out my heart, Watch it beat in pain, Piece by piece I Bleed For You, You wouldn't do the same. So now take my story my Love, Take it with you through time, I Bleed For You Eternally, And I now give you my life.

I was alone, in the masses, I was no one, amongst the many, I searched for hope, when there was none, I searched for love, when I only found frost, I searched for you, on years and years on end, I searched for you, Who I could not find, You were my chalice, quenching my thirst, You were my bread, So I had no hunger, You were my all, to fill my nothingness, Now you are no more, still I won't believe, Now you are no more, Still I search, still I hope, for, hopeless dreams, wishes crushed, and love not found.

So much, but so little.

No matter how many guys like me I'm still alone. No matter how much they say they love me, When I need them there gone. They come and go like the tide, never the same but always leaving. Love they say, like they even know.what I'm searching for does it even exist? Am I looking for they guy that will never be? probably. Searching,waiting,hoping, dying. In the end l'm all alone



Threw all those days I helped you up, you pushed me down. Threw all those days I said I cared, you left me and left me. there. Threw cops and family I pressed on, now I awake a lone at dawn. Threw my pain and teary nights, I ignored the hurtful fights. I sit and wait for loves true kiss, but all you gave me was someone to miss. I lay in bed crying, while inside I am dying. You know I would do it, you know that I tried. Maybe this time you’ll see I died inside…..

Why did you do that? Why did you show you don’t care? Why did you act like I was never there? We had our hard time yes I know, but you said you be there threw sun and snow. So many time have I been hurt, and once again I was thrown in ther dirt. I told you I missed you I told you I cared...but in the end you were not there. I saw her face and shed a tear because you gave it all up for her my dear. I can never forgive you yes its true, but as I sit all I want is you. i went threw thick and thin, I gave up her I gave up him. I put my family in your hand, and you showed it ment less than sand. So now I write this one last phrase and wish i could get back those days......