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ive lost my touch for writing,

rhyming.

expressing.



nothing feels magical like it used to,

things have no meaning.

i'm not seeing.



this feels like lashings,

whippings.



but this,

even when i bleed,

i dont feel.



i've lost my apetite,

racing thoughts take over.

every...single...second.



as if a blooming flower suddenly gave up on the sun,

then dies and wilts,

and is no more.



an ocean full of fish,

they say.--ahead.

only problem is,

i don't know how to swim.





so here i am, in the middle of the sea.

standing still, looking up at the blue sky.

but as i sink,

deep.

the light turns to darkness,

the sun becomes clouded.

the ripples lessen,

the air bubbles pressing,

leaving, away from me every gasping breath.

the pressure increasing,

the noise getting louder,



yes, im drowning.





im drowning because i cant breathe,

the memories rush in,

but i close my eyes,

because i don't want to see.



the pain of losing you is greater---

greater.

GREATER than my lungs compressing

and my physical body dying.



my soul is hurting,

my heart is breaking,



my mind is giving up on love.





the meaning is gone.

What is it about WINE

Wine, that when I drink it, I just cant live without him.

I feel a pain in my chest that longs to be with him.





My mind betrays me.





What is it about WINE...that when---

WHEN I am without it,





When I am sober, ---yes, SOBER.

I cannot stand him.

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Deity
00:36 Jan 03 2011

Wine is the unspoken drink of love. ♥

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DarknessBound
00:41 Jan 03 2011

So, I need to be inebriated all the time?? LOL

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BubbleGumClaudia
00:54 Jan 03 2011

No You Don't And Have Some WINE for me!

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When I close my eyes I can almost feel him.

His presence is strong--he's a real man, a man's man.

Oh yes, his grasping embrace feels like nothing in the world can pull me away.

Not that anything could, because I'm all his; yes, entirely his.

His touch, gentle as a feather floating on the flowing wind.

Feels like heaven--clouds and all.



His voice sounds like music to my ears; that sweet, sweet sound that makes my heart race.

Especially when he whispers my name; oh yeah, that is what gets me.

His lips close to my ear, breathing on my neck.

Slowly saying the words that he knows make me melt--weak at the knees.

Without a doubt.--As he plays and twirls my hair.



I can almost reach out to him,

when I close my eyes.

He's there, standing, in front of me.

That makes me smile.

Makes my heart skip a beat.



He's kind hearted--more than I ever will be; but that keeps me grounded.



He's adventurous and spontaneous---it brings life into my life;

i love his surprises. Yes---those are the best;

they let me know he thinks about me ,

wants to make me happy---and I him.



Most of all, he LOVES me.

No mater what.

YUP, no matter what!



Despite my crazy antics,

my quirky humor,

my madness and---

even my temperamental mood swings--HA! Lord knows I have those.

--because despite those, he also knows I love him no matter what, above all else.

He has my heart.



We are all flawed, deeply. But we have one another.



He understands me, like no one ever has before.

And I know him, and understand him.



Acceptance





he makes me a better woman.

he makes me want to be better.

he doesnt make me feel guilty about who i am or the things i want and need.

he gives me my much needed space, but yet knows when to sweep me off my feet again to make me forget things---like our minds are ONE.



Yes, Acceptance







we are one.









My heart feels so much passion---it feels like it wants to burst.



Brings tears to my eyes---but tears of happiness.

Because every day I count my lucky stars.

Im thankful. very. Deeply.









WE accept one another.

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birra
13:57 Jan 01 2011

A beautiful sentiment... :)

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