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Well i feel a lot better knowing how it really is now, got to see my credit report today and damn i am no where near as bad off as i thought. So now i am feeling a lot better, finding that out just gives me even more drive to get all this shit done! But at least now i know what i a going to be looking at bill wise, so i am going to get all this out of the way so i don't have to worry about it anymore. All i can say is it is nice to smile again knowing that things are not as bad as i thought.

Well it is time to start getting things on track for me because i need to start doing thing different i have been like a little kid with a lot of money since i have been here living with my brother. And thanks to a close person in my heart i have seen that i am not really as well off as i think i am. I have no money saved (first bad thing) and i am living check to check (worse bad thing) so now i need to start doing some stuff different. It is just me now (sadly) so i guess it is time to start the fixing, i just wish i got paid sooner cause it seem like forever from check to check and i kinda feel like i have the drive to change but then there is no check to balance and spend and save. But i am still going to be ok just have to start a list of things i have to do and pay and start getting it done. ~takes a deep breath~ here's to the start of change. It is time for me to step and take charge of my life or i am never going to have anything good in it.

Ok i have had it i have looked back on some of the stuff i am doing and want to kick myself in the ass. I need to focus on one thing at a time but i have been stressed out so i have been spending money i don't really have. And i am being like a little kid in a candy store and this is bullshit. As of this next paycheck i am going to start doing shit like i should have to start with, i am getting a place so that will be nice cause it seems like as long as i live with my brother i am always broke and sometime i really am not sure where that money went. So i have done an overhaul of my bills and the good thing is i am not as bad off as i thought. I really only have two main bills, my truck and my car, all the rest are stupid bills i got myself into to. So now i am going to take the advise of person very close to my heart and the other part of my world, i am going to stop being a kid and start dealing with the shit i have to deal with. Not really sure but i sat and thought a lot about my life and the things i am doing in it the last few days, and you know i know i can do better! And with the support of the person i have in my life i am sure i will being doing good by the middles of next year. All this kid shit has to stop now i think my brother is part of it too cause i feel like i am trying to tread water and him and his wife are a big anchor around my legs. Just like now i have to pay a lawyer $1000 at the end of the month to deal with my divorce and my brother knows i really kinda need him to support me right now. But instead he pretty much gave me the boot out of his house, funny how you try to help people so much because they are close to you and then when you need them they are gone. I am so glad to have you in my life Trisha, thanks to you i am done with all the bullshit. It is time to get it done and stop complaining about everything, i think that with you by my side i can handle whatever the world can throw at me!! Thanks you so much babe!!!

Well it looks like being a nice gut will turn out better for me in the end anyways. Talking to a lawyer has helped me quite a bit, and now i know more then i did before. But it does still suck knowing that i am going to have to go through all this shit. But i hope karma has finally seen that i am in need of a break, so lets hope things go good for me.