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What is it to find a stillness in your heart? A place where your pain does not hurt you anymore, where the wind blows true on your face. The face you see is a gentle one, calm and only caring for you. A place where the river's rapids do not hold anger but only happiness, where the grass shines bright green in the unhindered rays of sun. The tree's grow strong and the happiness of my heart fly's as free as the eagle on a unclouded day. What is this you make me feel? Even though you are not with me i still feel you inside me, let me be the tree that holds you close in the darkest storms as you have done for me with only the words of your voice. Cry no more tears and know that i am always with you, be my eagle and i will be your wolf. Loyal to only you, protective, and ever watchful over the one i care for. Find the stillness in your heart that you have helped me to find in my own, be who you are and let me come with you down what ever the road of life as to offer.



For my Snowangel.

Whats mine is mine and yours is yours, but yours was mine and mine was yours whose mine would be ours? Any idea's? yeah me either so let's just say your is mine and mine is yours and our is theirs for the sake our theirs to be someone else's. Because we care and in our care we bleed, if we bleed we feel, and i feel that i am yours and i want you to be mine. Time on time is the sign for you to be mine, now will you take me for what i am in the blink of a eye and take the risk to keep me forever? never let fear guide your heart, only the best of it inside you to move to to what you want, 50/50 is always the time and in time i hope for you to be mine, because i am already yours.

How can you tell someone your sorry? How do you try and tell them what you mean? How do you let someone know you care? Why am i always so stupid with what i say? Some people just don't understand or take what you say the wrong way. How do you tell someone how you feel and get them to believe you? Can i even do that when i am already so stupid? When i said i cared i meant it, it didn't mean i wanted you to go. When i told you i wanted to help i meant it, it didn't mean i didn't want to talk. When i said i wanted you here i meant it, it didn't mean i wanted you to leave. I guess no matter what i say it will always be me who screws everything up in the end anyway. I am learning that most of the time it is better for me to just not say anything at all, to just keep my stupid mouth shut. Whatever i say seems to turn to poison, and always effects someone close to me i care about. I meant every good thing i said, and i still do, I am not going anywhere if you want to believe in me. I am sorry, i don't know what else to say. I wish you understood what you are to me, and i wish you felt the same.



The person who reads this knows who it is for when it is read.

A thought for all you who would hear it, a thought for all who pass by.



May time lay her finger's onto your heart and comfort you in the darkest of nights, where do you walk?



How do you run from all that has shed upon you?



Find your way in the forest of life, mark your path, may you always move forward, to never have to go back.



See your tree in the distance? Where will you go from here?



Follow her shadow, follow her until your heart can be free, free like the wind on the ocean, bathed in light.



Never let her go from the eyes of your sight, cherish her always.

Lets see here . . . and just how should i start this nice little rage feeling i am having right now? Why i don't know lets sit and think about it, or maybe we could talk about it what do you think. No? Hmm i didn't think so, of course you made that pretty clear when you decided to just stop answering anything i said. Or maybe it was because you decided you wanted to be with the asshole that treats you like his dog, hmmm not really sure. It is just kinda funny to me how someone can be so sweet one min and then a total backstabber the next. Did i miss something? Leave something out? I have no problem giving you my heart but im really getting very tired of having someone take my heart and say oh well thank, ill take care of it. Yeah by take care of it did you mean oh hey btw i am going to see just how much fucking pain i can cause you before you lose your mother fucking mind! Oh wait is that maybe not what you meant? Hmm now why would i ever think such a thing? How strange, oh wait . . . maybe because that is just want your fucking do RIGHT FUCKING NOW!!!