~No Headline~16:23 Aug 13 2012
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The human mind, what a hell of a thing. It controls EVERYTHING about us, and who we are. The mind controls the body, the heart, the movement of all of us. It can make your day one of the best you have ever felt or one of the worst you can ever remember. What a thing i say, we are the people but we are our own tool, a well of emotions and feelings some of us much more then others. We can wake up one day and be so happy, then our feelings and whole mood may change, on what would seem like it own, to sadness, anger, or many other emotions. I have found music seems to have the effect on me, i like to lose all my problems in music i like. Sometimes we all need to do that, just lose all that we are for a short amount time. Lose ourselves in the music, people, or things we love, this is a good release. I am not even sure what i am saying or why i started this post actually, so much going on in my mind with so many different emotions. I am a thinker, a solver, a lover, a passionate, person, a emotional well of knowledge and love. Like i said before i don't even know why i am writing this, i woke up today in tears but with no real reason behind it. I feel a little numb for some reason, but i don't know why or how i got this way. I feel like i want to scream for no real reason, lost in my own mind i guess. So many thoughts, so many feelings, i am starting to lose myself in them. Things i want to say but cant say because there are no words for them, things i want to do, places i want to go and people i want to hold. I want to hold my mom and tell her i love her, tell my dad he is the best dad i have ever seen, tell my sister no matter how things turn out i will always love her, hold Snowangel and tell her she is one the best people i have had in my life, and i know i should not write this i guess, it can be taken so many different ways. I guess it makes me sound a little bit suicidal, which that thought as well is another made of the mind. I am going to tell you all now this is not a death note or a last post before i kill myself, i have too many things i am trying to do, and people i am holding on for because they need me. My daughter, mom, and dad, brothers and sisters, Snowangel, and even myself. This is me trying to grasp the things around me that make me feel so many different things, the people that make it happen. I will never understand myself, or why any of us do the things we do, we all need to feel loved and when you do love deep and passionate, this is the one feeling that will seems to fix all the wrongs that you have or have had in your life. Everyone deserves to have it in their life from someone that makes you feel like you can fly, like no matter the situation the world is always all the more bright because of them, and their love for you. Sometime you have to fight for every second of something good, and it is worth every swing, so never let anyone take from you the things you hold the most dear, weather it be a outside source, or the person themselves, don't be scared to show them your going to be that pillar they need it may not be what you want at times to have to stand back and just be the one to catch them if they fall, but sadly it is part of what makes us who we are.
This was what brought all this one today listen if you like. http://youtu.be/-zyh02MJg8c
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