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ugh I hate stupid emotions.

Boring day just listening to my classic rock and chilling. I'm going to be watching The Frog Princess in a few minutes. Yes I love cartoons still so F you if you don't lol. Just kidding. Well My mysterious mood is gone today I'm feeling quite chipper.

I feel quite strange today. I feel like the mad hatter from wonderland. Time stands still and I'm cursed to drink tea for eternity. But in this wonderland there is no tea party, or un-birthdays, there is no red queen screaming off with her head, there is no white rabbit with a pocket watch frantically running about saying I'm late I'm late for a very important date, there is no Cheshire Cat grinning quite menacingly, there is only the drama and illogical human behavior that is to be expected from them when they are institutionalized, perhaps not institutionalized, but live in captivity. I not being bred in captivity feel a bit like the caterpillar, transforming and changing as time goes by. Adapting. Even as though it would seem time is standing still, how can I change when time stands still? Am I trapped to feel like this is an eternal state of mind? Strange indeed. And why do people come up and ask me, "Are you alright you see like something is wrong." All the while in my mind I'm screaming of course there is something wrong look at the world! It has gone mad, and yet we try to keep order! As creatures of this world we have to adapt to survive yet we continue in the humdrum sense that nothing has changed! Embrace the madness, let it cover you and consume you. Hogde podge the day away if you like but the Jabberwocky comes and you will stand to accept his gift. I'd rather carry the Vorpal sword and be ready for The Red Queen's screams of Off With Her Head! Through the Looking Glass there is a world quite different from the one we live in, it is strange and new and I hope to see you there.

I have a fool's heart it would seem. I fly into the air prematurely just to fall back down. My Angel is not mine as I'd have had it. We decided to stay friends until the time is right. Though my heart screams for him this place we find ourselves in is not the place for us to be together. If we are meant to be, we will be together in the real world, but this surreal plane we live in now is no place for true love to flourish. It would seem this place is only for the shallowest of flings and trick romance. This world we live in now is only temporary and will not be when we leave. Will our love be after we leave? Only the great mystery knows.