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I hurt my head

It felt the pain so quick

That it went through my head

I cried and screamed



Because of that pain

It didn't go away

And I was afraid

I wanted to sleep



But no one would like me

They said it was bad for me

They said I would never wake up

So I waited at the hosptial



The doctors say I'm fine

And that I could sleep

And that's what I did

I slept for hours



And I've never felt better

In my life because of it

It's the best thing

That could happen to me

Sometime, it was best to be honest

But another times it was best to be quiet,

When you know if you're honest with someone

Something could come out wrong



You can end up hurting them

And they could end up crying

That's how I feel right now

I feel like I need to cry



When I was young

I was the best singer around

I could sing with a beautiful voice

But when I couldn't hit the high notes



I didn't think there was something wrong

But when my friend talked me I squik to much

I started to cry

It made me feel bad inside



It made me realize that I can't sing

The way I was once when I was young

I just fled home

And locked myself in my room



And I started to cry

I felt my lungs close up

And I couldn't breath once

I just as I ached



And everything went dark

I cried myself to death

I laid on that bed

With tears on my cheeks

And my body was cold

With no heartbeat

Or any air in my lungs



I had been successful

As to cry myself to death

You start to act weird

And I ask you, "what's wrong?"

You ignore the question

And you just shrug it off



I looked at you coldly

You just turn your head

I try to calm down

But I can't if this keeps up



I stare at you for a while

Then I knew you were keeping a secret

I grab your arms

And tell you, "Tell me what's wrong?"



You ignore the question again

Shaking my hands off your arms

I become very pissed off

I turn and walk away from you



You just sit on the couch

Just sulking and pouting

I try to ignore how you feel

But I care about you too much to do so



So I walk towards you again

Asking you, "What is wrong and don't shrug"

You just say, "Nothing and go away"

And that's when I get upset



I grab you off the couch,

Pushing you against the wall

"Goddamn it, tell me, what's wrong?"

I shouted, slamming my hands on the wall



You stare at me in shock

Just shaking as I look at you

You turn your head away

And I scream, not thinking



I grab duck tape and rope

I grab you, tying you the chair

Putting duck tape on your mouth

And you just look at me



"You won't tell me, what's wrong,

I guess I'll have to carve it out of you"

I say with a very cold gaze

I grab my knife



I just start to carve curves into your arm

You scream against the tape in pain

I look at you, "you going to tell me"

You just shake your head



I carve your forehead

Carving your chest

I watch you bleed to death

I look at you with tears

But has no control over my actions



You wouldn't tell me nothing

So now you are dead.

I sat on my table

As I heard my parent argue

Mom was yelling about Dad's sleeping around

Dad was yelling about Mom's obession with work



I just looked at them through the door way

They looked at me

It was an evil gaze that I didn't know

I gasped and saw them move quick



I had my mother

Put my hands behind my back

My father hand a knife

I screamed and struggled



But my mother held me tight

I watched and closed my eyes

As my father stabbed me to death

They both laughed



"This is a way to be happy"

They said with a laugh

I was crying and bleeding

As my mother let me drop to the floor



I had blood all around me

It was then I had my death.

My blood rush through my veins

As I felt his hands running up and down my arms

I didn't understand what he wanted

But he wouldn't leave me alone



He whispered things I didn't know

He slid his arms around my waist

Pressing his body closer to mine

I felt cold at that moment



I had no idea who this man was

But he loved to get close to women

I was afraid for my life

So I tried to free his hold



But he made it a tighter embrace

So that way I couldn't escape

He dragged me into the alley

Away from the streets



He throw me against the wall

And started to ravish my body

It made me sick and I was weak

I couldn't do anything for myself



I wasn't strong

And if I screamed

No one would come to my aid

So I closed my eyes

And waited for it to be over



He tore at my clothes

Undoing his pants

Thrusting inside me

Making me cry with pain



He covered my mouth with his

Trying to keep me from making a sound

I cried against his lips

As he raped me



When he was done

He cum inside me

I was shaken and I couldn't move

He just throw me against the wall

Saying that I was whore



I slid down the wall

Curling up in a ball

I cried and hurt at the same time

I heard him leave



I don't know how long it was

Or how long I was crying

But the sun started to come up

And I had to get home



I got out of that alley quickly

And raced down the street

To my build, getting into my appartment

I throw myself on my bed

And I cried again



No one would have help

Now my life was ruin forever

And I live my life like normal

With a child that I didn't want



So I abort the infant before it grow

And Now I try to be strong

And carry a weapon in my coat

So I wouldn't go through it again

I heard the music play

And I started to spin

While the moonlight dance on the lake

Making it's reflection in the water



I stopped and started to think

On what love can be like

Letting silly thoughts in my head

For once in my life



I saw fairies move slowly on the lake

Dancing in two like couples in love

I sighed as I watch them dance

I wanted to be in a man's loving embrace



I closed my eyes

And wrapped my arms around me

Dancing to their music

As I dance into a waltz



It felt nice and warm

Then I felt someone's arms around my waist

With their breath near my ear

I kept my eyes closed

Hoping this isn't a dream



But if it felt like one

And I didn't want it to end

I felt his kisses on my lips

Sending tingles through my body



I wanted to know what love is

And now it seem like a good time to know

I felt my heart jump with joy

As I was dancing with him

He whispered loving words in my ears



I felt my head spinning

As I opened my eyes

He was still there

So dark, tall, and handsomes



He was the love of my life

And I didn't want anyone to take him

I held him close

And kissed his neck

Tell him he was mine over and over again

For the very first time

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shadewolf
01:32 Feb 07 2008

nice work i love it

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I thought about my Valetine

I had hope to see him in the halls

But when I did,

It wasn't what I wanted to see



He had flowers in his hands

But they weren't for me

For he hand them to another

Kissing her cheek

And whispering loving words



I felt the tears rolling down my cheek

I felt my heart break in two

How could he do this to me

What was I to do



I didn't want to be insulting

So I went to my house early

I didn't care if the school called

I just stood in my kitchen, ready for my fall



I took out my knife

That was so sharp

And ready to take my life

I held out my first wrist

Slit it out with a quick sweep



Doing the same to the other

watching the blood pour on the floor

I felt so dizzy that I couldn't see straight

Dropping to my knees

Accepting my fate



I felt my breath leave my lungs

Dropping on the floor

With no movement at all

I was died now

Because I thought I was loved



Don't let people fool your heart

Don't let them take it and break it

Try to be strong and keep thinking dark thoughts, Try to keep your heart locked

And don't think about love at all.

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shadewolf
01:33 Feb 07 2008

nice work i love it

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What was I to do? When I felt this way for you. Was it your chance to run and leave things undone? Was it your chance to scream and yell and say we're throw when I didn't do anything to you?

How can I leave you when you cry? How can I go when you need me the most? You're the world to me and mean everything to mean that I can't let you go. I don't want to watch you leave at all. I just want to hold you and tell you over and over again that I love you. If something happen to you, I don't know what I'd do. You mean everything to me and there is nothing I can do if I lose you.

I bet I'll cry and weep at your grave. I bet I'll be the one screaming for you to return. I can't run from you and what happen to us, but I know I'll always be there for you. I'm your lover and I love you. It's hard when we believe things that others tell us, when we both accuse one another, when we're trying to tell each other the truth to make up and love each other again.

Let's not disappear and let's fall in love once again, let's hold each other and say I love you over and over again.

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shadewolf
01:34 Feb 07 2008

nice work i love it

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