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The month of May was a good reality call in terms of my new single life. My lovely Qwest and Verizon cell phone bill were doubled-up for April/May and I had to pay twice as much as I normally would! :0( Despite this, all my other bills and rent were paid BEFORE June 1st and I'm with roughly $100.00 until June 10th :0o



I KNOW it will be easier once I get NORMAL monthly bills from cable/internet/phone and cell phone. Things will be even better mentally for me once I receive my portion of the retirement funds.



I'm doing it ALONE on MY OWN one day at a time......

I told my ex today that I will NOT be taking Rachel with me when the Kid's Klub closes at noon. Hopefully, this will be my LAST Saturday working for some time to come!



He is very manipulating, and has been bringing Rachel to my job 1/2 hour before the daycare closes on Saturday so that he is working out and I am stuck taking her with me to lunch. This way he HAS to see me later in the day because I have to drop her off....wants me to go out to dinner, etc. I've had ENOUGH!! I need my space to heal from this divorce I have chosen. He's still in denial, and makes it very difficult at times.



It truly sucks. I honestly miss being married and in a relationship. But THIS relationship was never a true partnership and was unhealthy. I had to end it in order to (hopefully) someday find someone new who will be my equal partner in parenting, finances and share the ups and downs in life.



Another lonely Saturday night for me to come....of MY choosing. I'll probably be on here, wanting some support and encouragement......

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TheHellequin
17:13 May 24 2008

*hugs*

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Finally picked up my Honda SUV late Monday afternoon, with a brand NEW engine, hoses, belts and just about everything else. It's costing me a cool $3,500.00 that is coming out of MY new retirement account from the divorce. a**hole paid the $300.00 rental car bill....woopie do! :0(



Once I get this retirement account in my name, I'm cutting all social ties with Allan. He's been trying to spend Saturday nights with me as he has Rachel over the weekend, but I've been able to tell him NO these past two weekends. Once all the assets are set into place, I will be able to set my boundaries even further. I am his parenting partner, but I will NEVER be his romantic partner again.....EVER. He's pretty thick-headed, so I must continue to say NO to him. Maybe, just maybe one of these days he will get the message that no matter what he does for me now that it's just too late.



Leave me alone, let me grieve so I can get on with my life!!!!!!!!!!!!

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nobodysfallenangel
15:23 May 13 2008

He can fuck off! Seriously he does not deserve to spend time with you now. I mean shit you were married how come he did not do that kind of shit then, and all of a sudden now douche is all wanting to be around you. HE IS A FUCKEN CUNT!

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TheHellequin
23:11 May 13 2008

what NFA said!

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My friend Krista brought be to a friend's house for a BBQ. There were several of her co-workers from work there and it was a very nice afternoon. It's been quite a while since I've been out to a party. Refreshing to meet new people.



My spirit feels like it's been crused under such a heavy weight. Pangs of sadness and heartache have been sneaking up on me here and there. Thank goodness the feeling passes and doesn't stay for long.....



Slowly starting to enjoy life again!

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TheHellequin
03:03 May 12 2008

*hugs* Happy Mother's Day :-)

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Waking up to a new month with a new life. April 2008 will be remembered as the most difficult month of my life.



So relieved as I flip over my calendar today......

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TheHellequin
18:38 May 01 2008

*hugs*

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