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I been told to keep Hope. Hope that I will find true happiness an love. But I have given up on hope of happiness an love. Why should I hope for happiness. When every time I find a small pace of it rips away from me.Why hope for love . When in the end the other person does feel the same.Or they leave me after 6 mouth.I give up on both hopes. Scene they will never come true......I wish I could find some one who could prove me wrong. I hate this human world.