Words flow so easily from my lips
You've heard me a thousand times say
I promise it will be better
But I have quickly realized that
"I'm sorry" won't take the pain away
Those words are not ointment enough
To assuage the heart unveiled
To receive a undying love and devotion
Two requirements attempted, yet failed
I don't want to be considered a liar
Yet again I catch myself, but
"I'm sorry" is an empty recompense
It soothes not the soul but rather makes
The conscience feel less guilty
Forgiveness is my goal
And I want it known
That I have deep regret
Over the seeds I've sown
So, before hand I will
State plainly and sincerely my intent
Not some lovely hollow words of comfort
For the broken heart and promises
They can not remove the hurt
Tonight,I had to break things off with Vampyrium...not that he isn't one of the greatest guys in the world...I have met someone else...I feel like such a terrible person,but I just don't want to have to string BOTH guys along...& the guy that I'm interested in,knew that Vampyrium & I were in a relationship,but things just happened between us...I feel so freaking horrible what I did to Vampyrium,but I HAD to do it...I am sooo sorry Vampyrium,you'll ALWAYS be in my ♥
I don't know what else to say,I'm at such a loss for words...I feel horrible,sometimes honesty ISN'T the best policy,cause I feel like my ♥ is broken....I'm quite sure that Vampyrium's is as well...I'm so so so sorry Vampyrium ♥♥♥...I know that doesn't mean anything right now...but I hope someday we can be friends again.... *cry*
yes,I survived my 1st day at Spencer's...it's not that I haven't worked hard before,but for 3 months working the parking booth,all I pretty much did was sit on my azz,but I busted my azz 2day....so I'm my feet & legs are all sore,godda get back into working hard again...♥
by the way,my job kix azz!!!
I quit my old job working at the parking booth on Friday & Saturday's midnights,my last night was October 29th...now I start my new job working at Spencer's,I think it'll be a kool job!!!
Didn't have a name,but I've had them fish for quite a few years,then when I went to feed my fish,I saw it kinda at the bottom of the tank...
~Rest In Peace~
I know it's kinda stupid to put in my journal,but it was a sad thing for me...
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