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The Reason for my smile is him..

The Reason for thousand's of my tears is him..

All the long restless nights are because of him...

all of the magical happy moments are because of him..



and yet..he has no idea..

that for him i would give the world.

he has no idea...

that he has my heart spinning in a fast whorl



my first though that brightins up my day...

the last though before i fall asleep that can make the worst of days feel great...

its all him..

and the control i have of controling my feelings is growing slim...



i have never before felt this kind of feeling...

i want to be the only girl in his heart

if i knew i could have just one day to be in his arms...i would be wheeling everything.

and i would pray to god..that we would never be apart.



he is everything to me.

i've never had a feeling like this to anyone else.

never has anyone been able to make me go from crying to smiling so quickly that he does.

i've never had someone who is in my mind twenity four hours a day...



HE is the reason for my smile..

He is the reason i cry thousand's of tears.

HE causes me all my restless nights.

and HE is the reason for all the great moments.



and still he has no idea...

that i would change anything for him...

i would risk it all just to be his...

i would be what ever he wanted me to be...



im not sure how much longer my heart can keep playing in his game...

does he like me...or does he not...

am i just is friend...or could i ever be more...

theres just so many things i dont understand....



that place in his heart....

where no one has ever been...

thats where i want to be...

and i never want to leave..



so please...if all this you are doing it just a game please stop..

because you just dont understand how i feel at all.

you have no idea how much pain you cause me...

you have no idea...how many confuseing thoughts you put in my head in just one day..



YOU are the reasons for my many smiles..

but YOU are also the reason for thousand of my tears..

thoughts of YOU are what keep me awake at night...

the best moments of my teenage life are thx to you...



but he will never..

have any idea what he mean to me...

he will never figure out..

how much i truly love him..

Thinkin back on how you made me feel, i see now you were never worth it.

why waste my time waiting on you when your just gonna keep leaveing me hanging.

your just gonna keep twisting my emotions. your gonna keep me on this up and down rollercoster to heart break.

but im not gonna take it anymore. this may break my heart but im not gonna let you tear me apart.



so im not gonna cry anymore over you

im gonna stand strong and start over brand new.

you dont have my heart anymore.

im gonna pick up all its broken peices up off the floor,

and im gonna put them back togather and give to a guy who dervies it.



gonna give it to the one i know will care

the one i know wont hurt me. cuz dont ya know, i dont need you anymore.

im moveing on with my life. looking to the future and leaveing you in my past.

you never understood how much i really cared for you and now its to late, you will never even get the chance to know now.



cuz im not gonna cry anymore over you

im gonna stand strong and start over brand new.

you dont have my heart anymore.

im gonna pick up all its broken peices up off the floor,

and im gonna put them back togather and give them to the guy who dervies it.



yea, you knew i liked you. but you just never took the hint that i would do anything for you

i would of gaive it all just to be with you. but you lost your chance and now its never commin back.

so now you can go and be with the others but remeber none of them will be as true to you that i would have been

i would have been the best you ever had. always true and faithfull to you



but no, im not gonna cry anymore over you

its time i stand up strong on my own and start over brand new

im takin my heart back and not letting you get it anymore.

gonna pick up all the broken peices up off the cold floor,

and im gonna put them back togather and find that one who dersives it.



oh yes so tired of all the tears

not cryin for you, dont need you anymore

startin my life over forgetting you in the past and start it brand new

takin my heart back and not looking back to you cuz no i dont need you anymore.

picking up all the shatterd peices to my heart up off the cold floor

and im gonna put it back togather and give it to the one that will hold and not break it.



takeing it and breaking away from you.

cuz i dont feel the way i used to.

you had your chance and blew it.

you took my heart and broke it into bits.

but im not gonna cry over you anymore...

The Feeling of incompletion has filled my world.



It’s nothing like it used to be when you were in it.



My world is no longer brightened by the sparkles in your eyes.



My world is no longer filled with joy by your gorgeous smile.



My World is no Right without you.



My world is just...Incomplete.









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People call me crazy and tell me to move on.



But, how can I when the best thing I ever had is gone...



I know I’m only human...so I’m bound to make mistakes...



Though the biggest one I’ve ever still leaves me in heartache...



All those mean things I’ve said..and the way I made it seem like I didn’t care...



The truth is I did it because I was scared...



I was Unbelievably scared of not being with you...









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My worst fear had come true...and the day we said out goodbyes...



I wanted to believe you were wrong and all you were saying were nothing but lies....



At the time, I honestly didn’t think I would stop hating you.



But as time passed without us together, the love came back and the feeling grew and grew.



There’s something special about you that only I can see,



and it makes me hope and pray that again someday soon, **we** could be....









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I want the missing piece back to my make my life complete.



I want my world back like it was when I was with you.



My world needs that Twinkle in your eyes to keep it bright.



My world needs the missed joy from your gorges smile.



My world needs to be set right.



My world needs you in it..and I need to be back in yours...



and only then will my world be complete again

You had my heart for a year and a half.

Then in a split second you ruined it all.

Chance after chance I gave you,

Time after time I thought you had changed.

But never again.

I’ve learned the lesson to never make someone your everything,

Because when there gone your left with nothing at all.

Someday in the future I will make sure that you regret it.

Someday I will make you regret everything you did and everything you said.

I’ll make you eat your words and show you what you could have had.

And when that day comes and you finally wake up and realize how truly good I was to you…

It will be just to little to late for you to come back and say your sorry…

Because you had my heart for a year and a half.

Then in a split second everything was gone.

I gave u chance after chance because I just couldn’t let go of you.

I kept thinking time after time you would chance…

But never again.

I’ve finally woke up and realized that you wont change.

I had to learn the hard way to never make someone your everything.

Because when there gone, your left with nothing at all.

And never again will I make you my everything.