THE HARDEST PART OF LOSING HIM
LINGERS DEEP WITHIN
THE PAINFUL CRIES THAT RUN SO DEEP
MAKES THE HEART GROW THIN..
THE PAINFUL PATH THAT GROWS SO LONG
MAKES THE MIND SO DAMP
ITS SET TO KILL THE MEMORIES LEFT
THOSE HOOKED BETWEEN THE CLAMPS....
AS I LOSE MYSELF TO DARKNESS
JUST LET THESE WORDS BE KNOWN..
THE LOVE I HAD FOR YOU MY FRIEND.............
THE KISSES HAVE BEEN BLOWN......
AS DARKNESS COVERS MY SKIN SO DEEP
I FEEL NOTHING BUT THE LOSS
THE CHERISHED MEMORIES OF THE TALKS WE HAD
NOT REALIZING WHAT THE COST.........
I'LL MISS YOU!!!!
SO SERIOUSLY.... PEOPLE HAVE PROBLEMS.. THEY EVEN GET SHORT TEMPERED AT TIMES.. BU7T LOSING THE PEOPLE THAT MEAN SO MUCH TO YOU???? IS IT WORTH IT???? IS THE PAIN THAT DWELLS SO DEEP IN MY HEART WORTH KEEPING?? SOMETIMES ITS ALMOST AS IF I CALL OUT AND NOBODY HEARS ME ANYMORE.... FRIENDS TURN SO QUICKLY INTO ENEMIES, FAMILY RUNS OFF, LEAVING NOTHING BUT A DUSTY TRAIL OF MEMORIES, HAS BEEN RELATIONSHIPS, AND FINGERS POINTING IN MY DIRECTION..
pEOPLE ONLY LISTEN TO THEIR OWN CRIES FOR HELP, THEIR OWN AGONY IN THEIR VOICES, AND BLOCK OUT EVERYTHING ELSE THAT SEEMS OF NO IMPORTANCE ANYMORE..
nOBODY UNDERSTANDS THE FEELING OF LOSING EVERYTHING.. INSTEAD THEY RUN AWAY WITHOUT ASKING WHY THIS HAPPENED, OR WHY I CRY AT ALL. MAYBE ITS BECAUSE I CARE TO MUCH ABOUT THE LIMITED FEW IN MY LIFE AND NOT READY TO LET THEM GO....
THERES THREE CERTAIN PEOPLE IN GENERAL THGAT I WOULD RATHER NOT LOSE AT ALL.... ONE MNORE THAN THE REST.,... IM HOOKED, AND I CANT BREATHE WITH THE CERTAIN ABSTINENCE OF HEAVY CONFUSION AND GRIEF THAT SURROUNDS ME..
AS HE HAS GIVEN UP, SO HAVE I.... AS HE WAS THE ONLY THING KEEPING ME TOGETHER.. THE ONLY THING I HAD THATR FELT SO REAL....
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That's sad but it's true.
Everyone hears their own cries and no one elses.
damn honey, you still got people, just not living there with you.
you know i hate that place n wouldnt survive there long. but kelsey n i are ok here and you doing ok there to a point. you just need a break.
I can empathise, only too well.
the email and me, await you, if you ever need.
you're one of the few I'd miss, y'know?
So, I finally moved. Havent made it to Europe yet, but I'm working on it.. Some things in my life are more motivational than ever before.. I want to succeed in my life. Not just sit here on the couch and rot and wait for good things to happen. I want to be the best I can be. With all lifes little perks at my fingertips..
Emotions sometimes get in the way of our dreams.. I'm pushing out my old emotions, and starting new.. Everything I ever wanted is within my grasp, and I'm going to reach out and let it in.. I have the most inspirational person in my life right now. Hes taught me so much just about being the kind of person I've always wanted to be.. He is truly an amazing individual, and I don't know what I would of done without him guiding me through life..
Thank you Brandon, you are a truly amazing person.... And I'm glad your in my life..
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glad you found someone to treat you like the great person you are.
That's sweet however you're giving me more credit then i'm due. I'm not babysitting you babe. You've always been who you are, you just needed a little bit of a reminder.
mwah.
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