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siting here with bowl in hand and just kind of thinking about everything. i have so many thoughts in my head and i need a way to let it out so here it goes and please forgive me ahead of time. i don't know what the world wants from me and i don't know how to get what i'm after i want someone who is there for me if i ever need them someone that if i was in trouble even if they knew there was nothing they could do they would still help i need someone that if all the odds are against me they'll still stand there by my side someone to smoke with and talk about the past&future and the meaning of life someone to make plans with someone to love and love me back i want a laid back partier who likes to sit around and talk this person is proble not out there and for all i know i could be truly alone in this life but i dearly deathly wish that this isn't truei'll never know what to say or what to do all i know is this small little place of being alone...truly alone i've never had someone understand me completely and it kills me am i really that different that they don't know that they can't figure me out it really does scare me what can i doi feel so lost and confused what is wrong with me god what is wrong with me i feel hopeless