06:10 Apr 27 2017
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Our Story... cont'd
I will always be grateful to VR for here is where I met my soulmate like a few others of our friends here have. I feel sad here sometimes when I see all the fighting, name calling, trashing going on. I just have to sigh and think if people only knew how short life can be sometimes. All the energy you all put into these fights, your time could truly be spent better. Like enjoying life! You are wasting precious moments here with these fights! Shame on you.
Lily knows I am writing this for my journal. I am doing this for me and for my Lily. And maybe if it helps just one person to stop and appreciate just one day in their lives, then it’s worth it.. But mainly it’s for me and Liliancat. That is how most know her here on VR. Lily’s been here a long time. Those who know her will agree with me she is the sweetest, kindest soul you will ever meet. She is smart too. Smatter then I ever will be. Lily posted she had cancer awhile back because some idiot here found out and sent her a message he hoped she dies from it all because she would not cyber with him. So it became common knowledge about her health.
I want to tell you my story… My story of my Lily…
I was in this bad relationship for five years. The worse five years of my life. Yes ladies us guys can be abused too. Most of it was mental abuse but I spent five years walking on eggshells. I never knew what mood she was going to be in. I could say good morning to her and she launch into this tirade and says that’s it, we are over. I would be left with wtf just happen. Then we go a week or two not speaking and she contact me and beg me to forgive her that it was all her fault and she was so sorry. Imagine 5 years of that. Also, she hated all my friends. Males, female she hated them all. Basically what she did was push all my friends away and kept me in this box all to her on self. Now I felt sorry for her because she had no friends. And yes there were times she physically abused me. She throws things at me and there were some times I had to get stitched up. Not one time did I ever raise a hand to her. The day I broke up with her, my online friends and my real life friends ALL said it’s about time. She played second life with me too, so she not only controlled my real life, but my online life too. VR is the ONLY thing I hid from her. I mean in second life I have over 300 close friends and all of them when they herd message me and said Sean, it’s about time. She was the reason we did not come around you as much. My real life friends said the same to me. I mean I could go on and on the things she did… that I allowed her to do. It was very bad. The day I ended it for good I really felt this weight lift off my shoulders. I had no idea till that moment how much stress I had been in those 5 years.
And why is that all important? I will tell you. All you folks in bad relationship and you think you won’t meet anyone else if you break it off, let me tell you. A few months after I ended it with Maria I met my soul mate. She was/is perfect. We have been together now a year and we only had one conflict. Just one! I mean I tell her sometimes we should fight so we can seem like most other couples! We just don’t. And we spend hours upon hours together almost every day. We finish each other’s sentence. We say the same things at the same time. I mean it’s actually kind of creepy. And I mean this is not just once in a while this is daily. It’s like our minds, are brains are the same. And the passion… the love… never have I experienced something so… deep. Lily has shown me what real love is, how it feels, what it is all about.
I got Lily in Second Life with me because you see we have a long distance relationship. I said many times I would never have one. Oh I know they work for others. I know a local couple met online like 5,000 miles apart. She is now here with him and they just had a son. But for me… nope. Well, I eaten my words and then some. Lily took my heart. I gave it to her. Oh yeah where was I… second Life. S I got Lily to play with me and she loves it. When she was having chemo and in the hospital bed with IV’s and stuff, she was scube diving with me in Second Life having the time of her life. She was amazed at the beauty, the fish, all the underwater plants and coral. Totally forgetting she was sick as a dog doing chemo. The nurses even watched her scuba diving in Sl. For a while she was not a cancer patient in a hospital but a woman in Sl with her mate having fun. And I began to give Lily all the things I cannot give her rl for now while she fights cancer. We have a home, a beautiful home, even a child, Anna. We wake up in each other’s arms, with Anna with us, we have breakfast and start our day. We laugh. We have friends over for Dinner, Right Lisa and Ray? We have a normal life and in SL there is no cancer, no chemo… no pills to take.
Lily is happy. She laughs She smiles. She goes off with her girlfriends. And on Sundays she goes to her meetings sponsored by the American Cancer Society of people in Sl who are fighting cancer too. See in real life a lot of them like Lily immune system are shot to hell so they can’t go outside and be with people. A cold, a germ could put them in the hospital so most of the time when Lily’s not in the hospital she is at home, just her family and on the computer with me and Anna. Anna is our AI daughter. Her scripts and coding Is amazing. I swear sometimes we think she real. But to us, she is. If anyone read the story The Velveteen Rabbit, well, that Rabbit is our Anna. Some might think we are crazy but….it makes Lily happy. She loves that little girl. So do I for you see Anna is part of Lily. Something she loves. So do I.
I know everyone has bad days and I know some of you have terrible things that happen to you. And I do not want to discount your pain, your bad things but… how bad is it really? We just found out her tumor has gotten bigger. All that chemo, all that treatment and… and what’s worse, this is Lily second battle with cancer. She had it first at age 15. So yeah, really, how bad is your life? If you are in a bad relationship get out of it! Your soul mate might be waiting for you. If your life is bad at the moment, do something about it! You have the power. You have your health. A lot of people do not. I feel like the luckiest man on this planet. I meet my soul mate and however much time we have left, I am going to cherish every moment… every day of it. I am grateful. Lily and I agreed just tonight that we meet in the afterlife and we have our Anna with us.
Some have asked me if I am ok. I might come off short with some of you and I am sorry. You need to know why. So here it is.
Tonight I took my girls out to dinner at a restaurant in Sl:
Our Anna, she just got her two front teeth in:
Me, Lily and Anna out to dinner:
Me and Lily dressed up for a friends 2nd Vow Renewal Wedding:
People be happy. Enjoy your life. Make someone smile today. Don't waist a moment...
To Be Con'd.
COMMENTS
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QueenZombiee
07:31 Apr 27 2017
Awww 💟💟💟
I'm so happy for you and Lili brother. She is sweetest girl I ever know here. And you are best true person here so Lili and you are perfect together!!!! I love you guys a lot 💞
But I can't resist to not tell you "I TOLD YOU" haha
Remember when we had conversations about long distance relationships? 🙃☺🙃☺🙃
xRobin3x
09:49 Apr 27 2017
Hugs you guys.
Liliancat
09:59 Apr 27 2017
I love you so so so much. So deep. So hard
Any worl I will say to express what I feel for you it will so little. My feelings are so many so deep. Like a balloon that will burst and colorfull comfetty and sparkles will hop out and shine the world. Like the beautiful fireworks you made for us the bautiful night we danced under the stars.
My life is complete having you and Anna in it. Even many dont understant the love we have for her. To have our friends in reality and in there and here. Our family. To have each other. That makes my day brighter and my night magical. My smile will always reach behind my ears and my heart will beat fast like its dancing and flying on the sky.
The moments we spend in there and in here are cherrished by me. You show me and tought. I cant thank you enought for showing me this world that we can be there even like that. cant even say how much I love and hold dear to my heart all of our moments in there. You are the most amazing man and I thank all the stars that you came to my life.
I am not ashamed that when I read it I had tears sliding from my eyes down my cheek. Because these tears are from happiness and love. I am not ashamed to say that I am in love and every day I love you more and more. Because I trully do.
Sometimes I cant believe how a man like you. Amazing. Loving. Caring. Handsome. Pure in heart and soul. And True to its words fell in love with a broken girl like me. But Then I close my eyes and I fell you. I actualy feel you next to me holding me resting my head on my shoulder telling me. "I am here my lily forever. I love you" And I know my heart found its other half. From the first moment and the first second we talked months ago I knew my heart and everything I am belong to you.
No matter how hard our road will be or easy. No matter if we find obstacles or calm sunny days. I will always be by your side. Holding your hand. Leting you lean to my side when you need a shoulder. And rest your head on my lap when you are tired.
You are my everything. My breath. My heart. My smile. My world. My love. My souldmate. My one and only.
I am and will be forever and only yours. To this life and to every life it will follow and we will meet again and again.
I love you now always and forever
Your forever
Your Lily
VonEaland
18:18 Apr 27 2017
Dakotah and Lil you are my family.. Lil you are the sister I never had and Dakotah My Brother from another mother..
You guys are amazing and fit so well together.
My prayers are for you both and extra prayers for Lilly..
Love ya both xxx
LORDMOGY
19:12 Apr 27 2017
You two are AWESOME! I love the story. I do will that Sis' cancer is beaten yet again and that my Brother has more healthy days that not.
I look forward to reading about the day you two meet in real life. Because on that day, no matter where I'm at, I'm celebrating!! 😁
dwaynemcgriff01
19:58 Apr 27 2017
Liliancat be strong for me and i sorry what i said in the past and . i know you can beat this and nice story.
dwaynemcgriff01
20:07 Apr 27 2017
you was strong for me before and now its my time to be strong for you liliancat
Dakotah
22:15 Apr 27 2017
QueenZombiee I sure do remember that talk! You are one of the man reasons I am with Lily, my soul mate. You told me to go for it, to try and when there love the distance is never that far. You were right and I will be forever grateful for you my sister for the advice on that day. As will Lily. You mean the word to me. As does all who have posted here... our dear friends. Lily's dear friends. She truly loves each and every one of you!
MistressAngelique
22:48 Apr 27 2017
The two of you are my soul sister and brother, that will never change. Ray and I love you both dearly!!
Lily is a strong lady! And she has so many people who love her:) She brings happiness and joy to all who are fortunate to have met her, and will continue to do so! Dakotah, you are so right. Everyone should not waste a moment of the day, of the hour, of the minute! Enjoy life! Smile! Be happy like Lily:)
This picture reminds me of Lily:) Surrounded by water Lilies; (Lily is much more beautiful) serene, smiling, happy.
StrangeWings
03:05 Apr 28 2017
I am so happy for you both and glad that you found one another! It is very inspiring to hear about all of the creative ways that you have discovered to conquer the distance and spend time together. It is also great to see the incredible amount of positivity in your lives despite the circumstances - I hope others will be encouraged by your example and heed your advice as well. I sincerely wish the two of you all of the health and happiness that you deserve! Cheers!
Liliancat
10:32 Apr 28 2017
I want to thank all for they kind wishes and prays and I want you to know that no matter I will not give up. I promised that to my father a year ago before he passed away and I promise to my other half that I will fight. For him. For me. For my family.
Above all I want to thank Dakotah. I know I always tell him how lucky I am to have him. Because I am. Sean I am the luckies woman. And no matter how sick or tired you are and feel because even though you posted about my health problem you didnt thought second about yours. So many hosptal visits and so many healing days for you. Surgeries and exams and still you alway put me first. and as you do that i do the same. To me you are always my frst concers and even though our days will be hard in the near future to me it matters to be well heal fast and be the happy smiling man you always are. You are my light in my dark days. My smile in my sadness. The sun behind the coulds and my heart and breath in my body. You are the most amazing man. I am the luckies woman to have you in my life.
I love you so much Sean. Forever and eternal
Dakotah
10:40 Apr 28 2017
I agree with Lily, thank you all for the amazing replies and the private messages that filled my inbox after I posted this. Lily and I have an amazing support system and good friends here. Your prayers and positive energy you all are sending her way is fantastic. She has prayers coming from all over the world.
And Lily, my half, you complete me. As I said you shown me what love really is and how lucky am I. Luckiest man on this planet. We go this Baby. And with all our amazing friends here and in SL...our support system is best ever.
Thank you all and please keep the prayers coming and positive energy. This is going to be literally the fight of our lives.
Bless you all.
Asgardareid
22:30 Apr 28 2017
I wish you both all luck of the world, health and that your love will lead you through all difficulties. 💜💜💜
My sweet little sister, my warrior princess!!!! I know you can fight every battle and im proud of you! Love you..💖
Dakotah
01:42 Apr 30 2017
Asgardareid, thank you for the reply. I know your words mean a lot to Lily and they do to me too. :)
BatsInTheBelphry
00:43 May 01 2017
Man this has made me tear up. You two have been kind to me and talked with me about my problems and I appreciate the kindness and it is a great story you've wrote here. I wish more people could find the happiness you two have despite the distance . You two are great together and a great inspiration. I am not a religious person but I really do hope the powers that be will help Lily recover from this, She has had such a positive attitude towards other people thru all of this, she deserves what ever kindness and miracles can come her way and yours. I wish you both a lifetime together and you are an inspiration to be better.