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Well im calmer than i was yesterday.. that shit had my flying off the handle completely. but im more content and subdued today. i have come to the conclusion that mercury has been playing me, but hey, live and learn. this heart has been surounded by a steel cage for years now, nothing can harm it anymore. in other news, i may be comming into a decent amount of money soon. which should allow me to live in a bit more comfort than i have... yay

screw them all! my fucking little sister thinks she has the right to make rules for me? fuck you! im a goddamn grown ass man, ive seen and done things that would crack your naive little brain. ill live how i want to live. ill die how i want to die. its nobodies fucking buisness but my own

Yes another great day.. not. theres so much fighting between my friends and family that i cant begin to plug all the holes. and added to that, people seem to forget that i was always the shoulder they could cry on, and when im in need, they dont seem to have enough time to do anything but bum a few smokes and leave. bad choice of friends perhaps? or maybe i just seem too easy to use and toss away. it is what it is. i have friends by choice, nobody seems to remember that i used to be perfectly content isolating myself form everybody. is it really time to go back to the old me? it seems the human race has dissapointed my expectations once again

Yesterday was a thrill ride. rather the night was. i decided to spend it in the park. i didnt try to catch any form of a nap untill about.. 3am i spent the rest roaming the woods and being at one with myself. im content for the time being, now just waiting for my mate to show up so we can discuss the dyas plans



(Edit) i love animefuel.com for always having what i wanna watch

you cant protect everybody all the time. no matter how many times i tell myself that, i just cant stomache it. mercury has chosen to stay hte night with 3 people she doesnt know, and one of them has rapist written all over him. i tried to talk her out of it but i refuse to tell people how to run their lives. no matter how much i may care for them. sigh



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and then the depression hits. damn my choice to not be medicated



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well thats changed. self medication is the shit boys and girls :P time for a run in the woods as nature intended me :)

And its happened, ive given into my lust. for better of for worse i shall have what ive yearned for all this month

So have people forgotten that the war is long since over? what is with all these people openly putting down lycans and hybrids as if they were lesser beings? honestly, its 2011. communities like this exist to bring together all species, not to spread olden days rivalrys

Schandmaul - Wolfsmensch: http://youtu.be/VP0znNriKxI



Seasons After - Cry Little Sister: http://youtu.be/y3eeGTFH_Fo



Static X - Cold: http://youtu.be/GNohq2JJMQY

So heres todays issue, though its been a week in the making. I have two friends, mercury and star. they are a couple, mercury is a hybrid, and star is human, she has yet to decide if she wants turned. mercury is originally from out of state, she only recently moved here and already there is an issue. a man has stalked her all the way from georgia, claiming to be a friend of hers off of facebook, but he acts and looks nothing like he did on there. he has a very dangerous obsession with mercury. the first day he met us i sensed a darkness within him, one that for sure was neither human, lycan or pyre, to the best of my guessing i placed him as demonic, he hung around us for a day and then mysteriously vanished when he saw my pentagram. he was gone for almost a week, and then he reappeared, no longer showing interest in mercury, but in me. i have felt his attacks ravvaging my mind and spirit. he brings out rage and hatred in all that he sees. within a span of hours he had 15 grown men and women who were normaly friends, about to slaughter eachother. myself included in them. this has convinced me that he is indeed demonic in some nature, as he does not smell of any specie iv ever encountered. i will keep all updated in this, but all i know is i need to weave some powerful magick in order to send him away so that he wont harm innocence any longer

Lust is a dangerous thing to be a slave to. My instincts betray me in many ways. While i still have my morals intact there are many moments when i would wish to throw them aside and indulge in my deepest of fantasy, regardless of what it may do to others. Laying awake at night i can do nothing but imagine it all comming true, but the price of making her mine is too steep.

So i have decided to keep a blog and this sufficed as a site. First to answer some questions. no, Cyrus is not my real name. It is a name i have chosen for my other self, none need know my birth name as it will only lead to non nelieves harrassing me, or give power to those who may want to hurt me. I was born Lycan, and though fought it for many years, being raised in a "Christian" household, now as i am free on the streets i have begun to persue my darker of urges and instincts. I have fully embraced what i am and will happily pass on this gift to humans that i deem worthy of being in my pack. So dont ask me, i will ask you if i choose.

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Mayhemme
07:26 Apr 26 2011

DONT CHANGE YERSELF FOR NO-ONE HUN. :-)

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