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Yeah... You do sertainly make me feel speciall.... Umm... What can I say? You make me the happiest girl on earth, but at the same time so worthless! AHH! I don't want to play this game anymore! STOP IT!!!





I just want to live! Is it to much that I'm asking for?

Yeah. I've got mixed feelings for everything today...



And like yesterday when I was going to bed.

It felt so hard! I was happy that he lied next to me, but at the same time I just wanted to cry... BUT I COULDN'T!! AHH! Something is seriously wrong with me.



I can't sleep.

I can't eat.

I can't laugh.

I can't cry.





OMG. What should I do?! Coz' I really don't know! I'm going to talk about it later today with some ppl. But that won't help much...

I just want my friends/boyfrend to help me.

But... um... It feels like it's too much to ask for.

At least from him. :'( Buhu! But I don't want him to help me at the same time. Ohh. It's difficult!!





Love you my dear.....

My feelings for him grows for everyday I'm with him! Ohh! I'm sooo in love with him. But he's just properbly thinkin' that I'm nuts or something... ^^

But I don't care... B/c... umm.... I just don't care what he thinks (as long as it's not a good thing) Haha! ^^



Umm... And if you're reading this (and I think you do) I know you wonder what goes on in my head while I'm just smiling, and you begin to waaaaiiiining! ^^

Umm... While I'm smiling I just get a funny feeling in my stomach, a nice feeling though. And umm... I can't really explain it. But it feels great... And in that moment I just wanna say how much you mean to me, but I can't....

So.... Yeah. Now you know.

Umm.. Yeah. Today I'm pissed-off at everything, or so it feels.



Can't concentrate. Can't do anything but write...



AHH!





Help me my love. I really need your help!!

PLEASE!! Come and save me from madness!!

Or something...



Umm... I got some really, REALLY bad news yesterday... And I'm not sure how to react...

And I wonder if it's true or not?! But the questions is who of no1 and no2 is the liar in this game...



Umm... I can't find any reasons why no1 has to lie to me. So....

And no2, I don't even got a clue why he would lie to me neither. So. I don't know what to believe, or WHO I'm gonna believe in... Umm... It's hard to say.



I just think I'm gonna go home and think about it all. When I'm alone... I can't really focus around these ppl...



Bye bye!