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I LOVE JAYMES MICHAEL THOMPSON! YAYAYAYAYAYAY! now that i can say it again imma tell everyone...woot!



DK

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Hold me

Like you held on to life

When all fears came alive and entombed me

Love me

Like you love the sun

Scorching the blood in my vampire heart

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The shadow within me

The sorrow at my feet

Going to lead the revival

Simple Survival

I still cant believe you were here today. I wish i was in a better mood...maybe its becuz it was sooooo hot. Maybe it was the butterflies in my stomach... But in the end, this was all worth it. There were so many things I wanted to say...that I needed to say. But i didnt know how to say them....I hope your serious. I know I am...Like i said, I waited 3 months...i cant wait as long as it takes. But this is not going to be easy...I still have those feelings for you and I want to act upon them...Im scared and nervous...i feel like i am meeting you all over again. I want my life back...our life back. The way it was in the beginning....I know we can get back to that..but only if u want to. Ah i dont know what it is about you...but whatever it is..i hope it never goes away...

So, i found some cds that (someone) made me. Broken...and placed back into my cd case. Who the hell does that...really. I cried when i found them, and I know who did it. Which makes the whole thing piss me off. He knew that they were important to me...I told him to put them back and to not touch them. Aaaand, he breaks them and places them right back in the sleeve. Heart broken and irritated...and just fucking pissed, i had to throw them away....Why would someone do that...what was the over all point to it.

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I have been talking to someone lately...which makes me feel a little better knowing he does not hate me...and it made me feel a little better after he said sorry. That was all i really wanted. Everyone has been giving me shit for talking to him and i am personally getting sick of having to explain myself to anyone. I told ppl in the beginning...if i have a chance to talk to him, i will take it. if i have a chance back with him, i will take it in a heart beat...ppl need to really get a life...and give me a fucking break. I dont care what ppl like about it...

its about fucking time i get to go to the gathering. I have already been to Hallowicked..now its time for the gathering! AH i am so excited, i cant wait! I just saw the lineup and i am down for anything...carnival and pyscopathic reconds? Uh...yeah. Just ordered my ticket...hellz yeah!

I really miss Allisixx. I mean, i still get to talk to her. But its not the same...this weekend is her open house. I was invited, but cant go. i cant bring myself to do it...so i just got her a card and a HT card. God i miss her alot...she told me that im still her sister and i mean alot to her...and that hurts.



On another note, I am auditioning for a zombie movie this monday. Im pretty excited about it...i wanna be a zombeh!



Just finished downloading some songs...maybe i should go lay down...well, finish talking to Allyson, then go lay down...maybe. GRR



DK*

lame....and boring. Been hanging with my friend Jessi lately, shes soooo fun. and been talking to this new guy named Jesse (yes another Jesse name) hes hot... lol oh well...most of the morning consist of taking the evan to work like 45 mins away every morning....blagh!



Roadhouse!

Today is the day, two years later. We almost made it...u gave up and threw me aside. Like something used up and broken, I was thrown away. Midnight hit me, I cried...the moment I saw the clock...my heart sank in my chest. I choked on my tears and choked on the date as I tried to swallow it whole. God ur so oblivious, cant u see what u have become? The very thing u hate, is now ur own reflection. Ill never be able to let u go no matter how hard I try. U were different than the rest, now ur placed beside them. U always told me forever...u said u would die before u lost me...i hope u choke on todays date, I hope ot swallows u whole. My scars add up and the wounds continue to bleed as u throw salt on them, happy two year anniversery...i hope she was worth it...

So...watching balls of fury...laying in bed...played nazi zombies alllll day today. cant wait til the sleeper cell concert this saturday, woot! Oh, got a nrw favorite song, makeshift romeos the morning after. Still sun burt...still sad...still feeling likr complete shit. Fot some reason mu phone wnt load mu coven page which screws me big time. I had a date the other night...i didnt like it...not ready for something new. Not sure when I will ever be ready. This weekend should help me have a little time for fun. Anyways, going to finish the movie then head to bed. Again, hope my pointless entry was a good read lmao! Tah tah

Well, I fried my hair again...bleach plus purple equals brittanys an idiot lol. Looks good but now its straw lol. Oh well...im sitting in a jeep waiting for logan...did I mention it rocks outside!! I got a little tanish going on, woot! Ugh not sure what logan n josh r doing...its hot and im a little bored...thought I would write something. OH ps to my coven, I dnt have a computer, im on my phone so its a little hard to sign in daily but ill try to as soon as I can. Tah tah



DK

SO...i am slowly starting to except Jaymes being gone. Life is so slow right now, it feels like it has been a year since he has left, tho it has only been a little over a month. I hate that he is gone but there is nothing i can do about it. Time to get over it for good...not sure when it will happen or how long it will take...but i am ready for it to happen. I am tired of hurting...I am tired of wondering....i am just tired. I see that he has been on my profile lately...its okk. I dont mind it...i did at first. But not anymore.



Tah Tah For Now~