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So I'm in "high" gear to finish unpacking hanging all my curtains, finish the painting etc. I have a LOT of time as I'm hitting a "lull" right now. That said, this time of year is typically very busy for me, so it's time to get out there and let people know I'm around.



My coach has added a program that she is letting current coaching clients do for free... OMG YAY I'm so excited as it is exactly what I need right now, and I honestly wanted to sign up, but could not afford the extra *I am SO behind already*.



That stated, I am making certain to do things for ME.



I can think of SEVERAL ways I could spend the extra to pay off debt and such- but in the same instance, I know when I'm happy, I work harder, and honestly people see me more.



Right now I'm having serious attitude issues, and I have to pull my head out of that or I won't have ANY money. *I'm happy=more money, I'm piss=less* to some who work 9-5 this may not make sense, but in a service industry...



Let me ask: who do you tip more? The wait staff that makes you laugh and feel at ease? Or the asshole who made you wait and got your order wrong???

Hope all my friends on the east coast, are doing well. It was one hell of a storm. Here there are several people without power, but nothing to magnitude of New York City.

I feel bad telling certain people no regarding going out. But honestly I don't feel like dancing tonight, and more importantly I've had 12+hour days since Thurs and I'm exhausted, and just want to spend time with the pups.



It just gets to a point of I don't want to over do it, and while it is a holiday, I simply am just tired and honestly, if I didn't have to, I would not be going to crew today.



But it is unloading the trailer and from there I will go to yoga and then movie night with the pups.



It's gonna be epic!

So, I'm working on breaking the puppies of eating "kitty roca". Winston just tried to do it in front of me, and I called him- he came.



Sat down right in front of me with litter still sticking on his nose.



"Bad dog, Bad Wintston"...



Right then Spazz come running through the dinning room and chases Winston.



"Good girl Spazz".



I just may be able to break the bad habit, with the help of Spazz.

HOLY CRAP. What a ride.



I haven't been on a rollercoaster in 10+ years. Wasn't certain how I'd do..



This was the second one we went on:

http://leviathan.canadaswonderland.com/



UNREAL.



You know the kind of unreal where you are midway on the "climb" and you think... "maybe this wasn't a good idea..."



Yeah, it rocked.



Try the point of view video, you'll see ;)

Coffee, Rollercoasters and Rain, OH MY!

Today was AWESOME.



In the double which was by far the most competitive women's JV event (three full heats), my girls placed second. Had the water been a bit better, and if they would have been able to bring the stroke rate (cadence) up by 2 beats I think they could have won. As it was, still a stellar finish.



The four... well, the four did more than I wanted. I had two entries, and I told them that they SHOULD come in first and second. More over, I wanted the second place boat to try to beat the first place. I even told both that if my top boat made a mistake, the second boat was to "destroy" them.



What happened is they had open water on the rest of the competition, and my second boat, did just what I asked... with 500m to go, they pulled a move and almost got even with the top boat... well, they did NOT like that, and from there went right into a sprint. It was STELLAR. There is nothing greater than being a coach knowing that no matter the outcome, your girls have done awesome.



Tomorrow: Rollercoasters in the rain!



Bed soon, so I can really walk the dogs tomorrow am... plus make up on my much lacking sleep!

UGG! There is football game today. Which means my gut feeling to get to campus early was correct, as they would not let me park so that I could take the bus to the race. Good side: I have an extra hour before I have to go now, and even better the puppies get to run amuck (part of why I was late this am). And I get a moment here, answering emails and coffee :)



One thing that as I let the information from yesterday "sink" in that I'm realizing, is how "rich" I am in very good, actually great connections. Before, well if I'm honest, my work was removed from my social life. While that is nice in certain aspects, it also allowed for those that are not beneficial (I mean supportive, without ulterior motives, and with integrity) to have more access to my person. Why is this a big deal?



They put their "shit" in my life. What is worse, is I saw some of it, but honestly that type of attitude is like acid. Which is why I would constantly tell Garry they were like poison. Only thing is, I got too close. The biggest difference, is I have always had more than one group, and I always have diversity. Just because this small group here is poisonous, doesn't mean that I have gotten rid of the group.



Instead the ones that are in alignment are still around, even though I'm at my break neck busy speed. They will "wait" and they make small efforts to be "seen" and to let me know they are thinking of me. I truly appreciate that.



On the other side, it hit me yesterday that my business coach was one of the first people I met in London. And I know personally (as I've watched) where she went from unable to even work - DEBT DEBT DEBT- to now she is pulling in money and making WELL over six figures and it's been less than 3 years. AMAZING! And she's been a friend/colleague, this entire time, and I was "blind" to it.



Things are aligning, and while this move and other aspects of finances have me stretched and scared as shit... I TRULY feel good. I feel like I am getting exactly where I need and want to be, and more importantly I'm regaining control of my life, my practice and walking what I try to teach clients.



That is what they call living the dream.



Tough as it has been, I would simply change nothing.



Because lessons no matter how hard they are, give you the option to choose your greater good, or another lesson. Everything is a cycle, and in this moment it is as if I see it laid out right at my feet. Similar to how it is when you stand at a top floor window of a large high rise. You see the patterns and the flow, but you still don't know the details until you walk the street...



Brilliant.

Look at some of the past written in code, I wonder: what was Bob, what was Garry and where was I?



Make no mistake, several times I would have told you one, but in retrospect it was the other. Still others were another all together; yet they all blend, into the perception that in that moment, from that view, I held as true.



Fascinating.

ooooooo



am online with my home internet

So I'm having a day of no shows. Which normally annoys me (still does) but it's such a beautiful day and I'm just grateful- I don't care. Granted my pocket book will care, but over all, I'm good and that is what matters :)



Internet is up and running! YAY and tomorrow I have an all day business meeting. Friday is the big regatta for my team and then Saturday, I get to be a big kid.... WOOOO



AWESOME week :D

It burns!!!!!



Cut hot peppers for dinner, washed hands 2x, ate dinner and dessert. Sitting watching the Witches (love Angelica Huston) and I rub my eyes...



It BURNS!

Tomorrow... Internet gets installed...



Netflix you will be MINE!



*mwahahahaha*



Oh and tickets for the weekend have been gotten... WHEEE I get to go on rides until I'm sick, and now that I'm old I'm certain that won't take long :P

Zoink!



I'm going to rollercoasters and rides on Saturday! Yay!



It just hit me, that I didn't do anything for my birthday as I knew I wanted to do this... And it is on Saturday! :-D





Yuh, so what if I'm a big kid trapped in an adult body?



YAY!!!

Last week of crew... And I'm excited/scared to have all my free time back. I'm also excited to get everything moving better as in unpacked.



Today I paint my entry way. Wed my Internet gets hooked back on, as I will have my newly hired assistant work and wait (sounds so awesome, but normally she only does an hour or two a week. Not nearly as cool as it sounds.) I have more work than I can complete and it doesn't make sense for me "sit on it" when I can have someone do it for me for less than I earn while I work, plus I can have things organized better for my accountant, and for the book keeper I'm looking at working with. That's the problem with running a business, you get to a certain place and you simply can't do it all, and paying people has to happen- yet your budget isn't increasing. Big old balancing act!



I have to say I am loving my new place, hating the budget restrictions because of it- but I have done more living here than I have in any other place I've been. I think this is a good sign that I'm doing better, feeling more like me.



But damn if a load of bricks doesn't seem to be in the way at times. How bad is it, that a part of me simply wants to deny him and push it under the rug? I am fine, truly. But there are certain times when I am alone, that it is still so real, this loss. And after mechanic boys fiasco I'm simply not interested at all in meeting new people. I want to focus on business and family.



Yet then the loneliness hits, and it gets worse.



I see now what Wendy meant. I never would have left. The pieces we shared even just as friends, gave a sense if whole- and ability, that now that they are gone, I am unable to replicate. What's worse is how I was before, seems so hollow and frail compared to that... Still I try and go back to what I can change.



Which my mother just might retire the end of this month. They have offered her a severance package where she is retired, but collects wages until April. Here is to hoping!



What I truly hope for? Is that she sells a house and buys something here- that way I can hire her to do my reception work, and someone else to do my admin. considering she is a 30+ nurse she is more than qualified, more importantly, that way she has more spending money in her retirement. Win-win.



Especially because I'm certain she will travel most of the spring/summer. We shall see what she wants to do.

Busy busy busy... but beautiful too.



Next week: crew ends, internet gets hooked up and I go to Canada's wonderland :)



Great things.



OH wish Imagesinwords a Rockin' Rocktober Birthday! :)

Wooo another libra birthday, time to rock it out birra!



In other news, I order Internet today... Here we go! :)

Stop being so damn sensitive. It is really annoying when you jump to the wrong conclusion at every touch.

Bone chill tired from yesterday. Time to get moving as we have crew today as well.

Sometimes it is not about failing, but what you do with that failure that determines the outcome.



Long week. More still to come and "deal with" but over all, it's been going quite nicely. Glad I have the rest of today to paint and unpack... ooo and cook.



Hoping to have internet connected again by the end of next week. Lord, it's taken forever (mostly because of bills and time).

Dear Imagesinwords: I'm still waiting on that recipe for Eggplant stuffing...



It was a wonderful weekend. But today it was very much back to the "grind" with news of another former roomie's wife's cancer. Luckily her sister is an MD and has recommended a surgeon she knows. With it being early detection, let's hope this one is an easier go.



So my friend who was cured? She's in the hospital fighting for her life and has been since Saturday. Thanks to chemo. That's the thing, treatment destroys the body. Damnit. Still I'm hopeful that she'll be out soon and on her way to recovery.



I have so much to be grateful for, but so much happening, that at times it is simply overwhelming.



I think I'm going home to a little painting /unpacking and left over soup :)

Turkey is in the oven. Broccoli salad is made, sweet squash casserole and home made stuffing with squash, pumpkin pie and yams... Soon dinner will be served when the bird is done then it will rest and we'll make gravy.



To tide us over we made butter squash and butternut squash soup with what didn't go into stuffing and casserole. So good...



Other than that, watching history channel drinking wine. Tis a great day :)

Happy Birthday to one of the first people here I got to know. Requiem, you had better have an awesome birthday, or the zoo will come after you and make it so. Heck we just might anyways...

I have my turkey, now I need to figure out when I'm doing my Canadian thanksgiving. Mostly I'll be unpacking and painting the last three rooms: kitchen, bath and guest... But I know I'll make time for movies... Maybe a Charlie brown thanksgiving :)



We shall see!

Short term goal:



I will have enough saved so that I will be at the next meeting with these women.



http://www.100womenlondon.com/



What an amazing concept to strengthen community.

Im so angry at the ignorance of Doctors. My friend fighting breast cancer was told after 5 treatments she's "cured".



:-/



Why am I upset and not happy?



Because my client that died in July was told the SAME thing, yet five years later the cancer was back and didn't give her two months.



The correct word is "remission". The reason? We don't know all the triggers cancer has (we know many but not enough to stop it from occurring), we also know that as the body ages it becomes more susceptible to cancer, and also that sometimes treatment leads to a weaker system that in turn falls to a different disease or different type of cancer.



I believe in the power of words and intent, but I also believe in science, which means NO ONE should say cure when it comes to cancer. Our cure will be when no one gets it or no one dies from it. Till then, we have won this battle and should celebrate; but not forget all the means of prevention we can muster. Because I would rather have my friend for 30+ years in remission, than dead in 5 because she thought the worry was over and she was "cured".

I want the VR blanket :(

So I have a radio interview on the benefits of Acupuncture for PSTD.



I did an interview with this same person about a month ago about the benefits of Acupuncture. We'll see how today goes. *sigh* NOW I'm getting nervous.

Egads. I feel like I've been running marathons today and this past week. With the amount of stuff and time in the day, it seems like I'm perpetually behind.



Tonight I HAVE to make certain I get hydrated. I am WAY behind on water intake from the weekend at the Head of the Trent.



Gah.

Happiness is two puppies on my lap and the last few minutes of relaxing before bed. They are really starting to adjust to the new place, although we have a LOT of work to do with leash training.

The old place is clean, went through with the landlord and all is good, which is why it took me so long- she is a friend and I wanted her to have it ready for whomever she is renting it to next.



I also found two boxes that had personal aspects that needed to go with me. Small graces that they were found.



Today I finish painting my bedroom and the kitchen. New landlord came over for rent last night and he likes the painting I've done so well he plans on keeping it :) this made me happy as a did a "burnt" burgundy (has touch of yellow base instead of blue) for the cabinets and the pale orange (he thought it was yellow) for the walls. Looks SO much better than the off white they were painted and staine over.



My sewing room is painted a lovely canary yellow. I scumbled two walls with the light orange. It softens it just enough that it will be an excellent sewin room. I still am not certain what colour for the guest room. I might do it in the green accent I have in the living room simple because it will be my "reading" room.



I also have to clean out under my stairs as I have my gazebo there and will be putting my bikes there. In so many ways I'm SO excited, I have room for everything and still room to organize, paint and live. It is so refreshing.



Now I have to focus on work, and getting back in touch with everyone I haven't had time or Internet to connect with. January is not my "start" of a new year; October is for me.