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I don't like people. Period.



Yes it was a day that I should have stayed away, yet with the power outage yesterday and loss of internet connect I am not not one day behind but three.



How the hell is that possible? BAH.

FTP is my enemy... and I would rather shoot myself than deal with computers any more today *sigh*

Not only did it give me uber cheap electricity, it was also central air.



And now that we're steadily getting into the 80's and 90's my poor animals don't go down into the basement where it's coolest, they wait for me by the door.



Crazy week so far, trying to time adjust again, and work. I'm slowly getting back up to speed, but have been needing naps more frequently than I usually do.

I have many thoughts on right and wrong. While they are formed from what I experience, I do try to remember one thing: Others.



So to see someone who so obviously is only concerned about themselves bothers me. It is understandable, but not at the expense of someone else. Life is not about: well I'll take this if I don’t get what I want, but for now I will try to keep both.



It's about choices. Sometimes we screw it up, and make a wrong one. Live and learn, grow and don't do it again. But to not choose because you are scared, well, that I just don't respect. I can't, because it hurts those I care about.



Part of being an adult is accepting responsibility, even if your choice means you walk alone. Worst part is that the ones hurt are the ones that do not deserve it, that in fact, deserve more than they give themselves credit for.

So when I arrived at Seattle I expected the worst.



Thankfully, there was signs of about 3 days work having been done since I left in December. Sadly, what they threw away were my college essays. I have some in London, but some of the ones I wanted to put onto my computer I know I left and since become recycling.



Hard to loose those words. I would have rathered that they threw away my crafting supplies, but to them those are worth money. Oh well, life goes on.



Worst part of this trip as been the 24 hr flu I was hit with. I'm not certain what caused it, but it was a really bad stomach flu. I'm just thankful it was so short, as there is much to do today. Today I have 2 rooms to clear out, and YAY me then I just have one more and painting tomorrow. Very do able.



If my mother is unable to clean the house after this and rent it, well then she should sell it. There will be NO excuse. All that will need to be done is:



1. New floor in upstairs bathroom

2. Cleaning stove/fridge

3. Cleaning all the floors

4. Getting cobwebs and basement floors cleaned.



We shall see.



I sent 12 boxes to myself so that I can start my company web site again (I have met some women who will be doing the candles, I'll do the salts and a VR person to do the pillows) WOOT!



Many things are in the works, and the strange thing is that this trip has really prepaired me for it. I feel that I needed to come back here and to look at what I love, knowing that I just don't like enough to stay.



There will be one more trip.



Where I bring the last of me away. First thing is to get off what I've sat on. Organization is not something that happens over night. It is a process, on going and in truth is just one of those things that you just do and not think about.



First the process has to be habit. No excuses, it is or it isn't. It's easy to take the small things and allow them to be someone elses fault. I create my own chaos. For my own growth or rest. Now, well I am going to work on changing that.

Subject: what am i

Date: Jun 06 2007



Question: ive heard that u do some thing and u find out what kind of vampire u r is that ture if so how do i find out



ARGH. Why do I look at Acolyte questions? They always seem to find a way a annoying me. BAH.

Well I made it back to Seattle, and after 2 days of hard work on the house, promptly got sick.



Doesn't help that I went out after working and am still on Eastcoast time. Well am better today and heading out to worky work.



If I don't respond it's simply because I don't have the time.

Made it, am fatigued as the time difference this way is harder... up at 5am O.O then again it's 8am in Ontario.



Spent yesterday doing errands, and today we start on the "beast". I will be here only shortly... so if I don't answer it's because my time online is limited to the extreme.