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So I did something last night that I rarely do- I revisited the rates I received from when I joined VR. I find it interesting how many of the members have an "idea" to never revisit a profile even if it has changed.



I found it a walk into where I started out here, and to where I've come. Interestingly only small bits have changed: I play the game, but now I don't really look. I remember when I viewed anything over a 7 as a "good" rate. Now because of attitudes and our ridiculously high "standard" I see the rates differently-



How that is, I still don't have words for. But what I have seen many times this past year, is that people genuinely do not want to see you succeed, or if you do- they want to be a part of it.



I do not talk about my friends, or the people I've met here in London, they have stood out to me as being more than that. They have renewed my thoughts that people do care about community and personal growth.



In Seattle, it was different. There were some communities that worked together, but it was a jaded working. A type of "you scratch my back, long and hard enough... then I will THINK about scratching yours".



Here I have had people look after me, be truly concerned about how I'm doing... and still I fight this, because in Seattle it meant something very different... much the same way our ratings here I view from another perspective.



Publicly I need to say this, as in person it is so much more difficult:



Thank you, truly. Namaste.

Well I don't want to ruin the book for those of you that haven't finished it yet, but YAY- I finished it Sat evening, and I was RIGHT! :P



Sorry had to gloat on that bit.



But rowing is going to make me crazy here for the next 2 weeks. Then a small break- until Henley. During that time I will not be able to be online- probably at all.



Trying to prep for that, print brochures, write a new brochure... please shoot me?! lol, not really, but right now- free time is a luxury I simply do not have *sigh* Still around, but I will be speaking less and less-



Simply there is enough for me to do to fill 48hrs- if only I could increase our time to that per day. Let's just say right now, my thoughts are on a boy named Harry ;)

AKA - I just bought Harry Potter 7



Do not expect anything from me until I finish it!

Assumptions=errors.



Ironic then that people will jump to assumptions based off of one sided interactions? Not really. It is sad.



Still it is not my place to teach, nor explain unless asked. Perhaps it is an assumption on my part, either way it is not my concern.



Until asked, because only then will there be a potential for my side to be heard.

I have to say I love coaching right now.



Although it's hard. I want to have my body back, not injured, not stressed. There is a dormant side of me. One that waits. Hopes to be seen for what she is, and not what is on the surface.



Perhaps that will never happen, in reality I am fine with that. Still I wonder if I let her loose, if I could just trust her- who would I be?



There is something about struggle that I enjoy. The way it twists and distorts me into something more. I wonder if I took the easy road who I would be... how much happier would my life become... and then I realize the depth of what would be missed.



So I choose the path less traveled. To be misunderstood and a little less than what at first seems to be my full potential; and far greater with what the depth hides.

Saw the 12:01 am showing of Harry Potter last night. For die hards of the books, well I think this was the best one so far.



Too short in my thoughts, but this time they managed to keep the key plot points so that at then end you didn't 1. have to explain to someone who hasn't read the book what happened. 2. you felt as if you got all the major pieces.



Sadly many of the "priceless" scenes were lost in getting the primary points across, but to me that is why I will keep re-reading the books. Over all it was faster paced, a bit jarring at times with how they jumped right from one scene to another... but finally the series feels like it has found it's voice.



Some of the things I missed:



"Weasley is the best, he can do anything, Weasley is our king!"



SNITCH



Quiddich



Trelawney's total breakdown



McGonagall



Weasley's pranks, esp the toliet....



Over all, still not the book... but far better than I was expecting. Granted if someone doesn't like Harry Potter or doesn't know the story, the darkness of this one and the fast pace may not make sense.



Hmmm I think it's time to pick up the books again, as the countdown has begun for the final chapter!

Who would have guessed that a wandering onto a web site that long ago would lead to a move into another country, a place where I finally feel like I am starting to get "me", and oportunities that I dreamt of- still never really thought they would happen. Many thanks to all of those of you that have shown me not just cyber support, but real tangible things I hope to one day be able express my true feelings. Even with all the changes, drama and stuff... I still really dig this place.



Cheers to good friends, good times, and the future.

Of all the things I think of to write, and trust me there are several thoughts going through my noggen.. that is the one that spurns a journal entry.



So much to do, and time just goes.



Today was a lazy day, alot of spacing out and nothing. ok, bed time as obviously I'm rambling... and I need a bra since, well, my top is broken.

So those of you that read Cancer's journal read his review.



Here's my point of view, they followed the cheesy tv show too well. That is why the plot is horrid. BUT- if you go in with expectations of awesome CGI and well cheese, you will enjoy yourself.



Best for the families... because of this it is kid friendly although might be too intense with the violence.