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Wow. You most certainly are childish. Why don't you just blame ME (who asked Imagesinwords to watch for this member) of abusing my power?



Get over your crusty #Ihavenolife #favourisreal #respectmycoven #myauthoritay (last one south park style for maximum humour) out of the basement and go out and do something real. Like an effing job (what I was doing that made me unable to induct the member myself).



Stop the dumbass rumours or I WILL abuse you with my honour. Wait. That is NOT abuse, it is my choice; numbnuts.

I feel like continuing my junkfood... so I think I'm going to make pesto pop corn with lots of cheese. Or I might just do butter, garlic and cheese... sooo many choices!

Great time at brunch with friends (although a former person of our group is dying of cancer- and with this time of year being the same time we lost Garry, there is a parallel that can't be ignored). Good time at the Basketball game, was able to talk non-stop to get to know dude, and after had coffee with locally made chocolate... yum!



Still not certain of anything more than I like the dude, and that for a first kiss it was awkward, but not terribly so in much more than the realization. Odd. Not disappointed, overly elated or anything else- but there is a feeling of contentment with getting to know dude.



We shall see.

Almost caught up on my favourite journals. Just a few more to go... but first: Brunch and Basketball :D



I met a dude (seriously, can I call him that? He is an MD/PhD dude... heh) online and we've had one brief coffee date - I only have told one friend about; and today we're going to the local Basketball team's game. I'm UBER excited... but for the Basketball.



Don't get me wrong, I like the dude. Yet I wonder if I'll ever be ready, as right now I'm really LIKING my life as imperfect as it is. No. I LOVE it. Each time I've had something where I can "ease the stress", the internal answer has been "nope", struggle on and stay happy. It isn't worth the pain of unhappiness. I get it. Completely.



Still I'm working on making changes that will benefit and shift the situation to a more ideal one (have to be realistic, there is only so long you can carry debt). So back to the dude... yeah, I don't know what I want to think or feel. I kinda just want to do a few adult things, and wait it out and see.



No rush.



Dear gawd no rush or I'll flip a gasket. K I'm gonna be late, ACK!

Holy EFFING drama.



Seriously. Y'all that complain about how rough things are, some of you don't know DICK about tough times. The situation I just witnessed, holy ball of a cluster fuck. I'm just glad the people I know have stepped up with donations for the person; so hopefully they can get themselves out of this horrid space.

I am seriously behind in my journal reading.



Time to change that ;)

Who else does this? Puts the user name in brackets after their real name with VR as the company? Seems like even with those I know and stay with all the time I'm like "who? OH YEAH, duh..."



That's one thing about when perspective works against you (not recognizing someone because you're seeing them "out of context").

I'm glad I did nothing yesterday (well I cleaned my kitchen, put some things away, shovelled snow and watched netflix while I crocheted belated Christmas gifts). My neighbours were kind enough to give me a plate of food in exchange for using my oven (they cooked for 16). Over all it was a relaxing day, and from the looks of what I have to do, I will need that down time.



Today I have to go to a friend's house, drop off a present and then check another' friend's cats (they are up north with family). From there I have to put my office back together (I painted over the weekend so it's a pretty colour now) and decorate before my first client at 1:30. It looks like I'll be able to leave at 6 if no one books, so it isn't too long of a day. But I've got paperwork and frankly, I kinda just want to sit at home.



Next year, I think I might get Mom to come out here (as my brother works Christmas for the extra $$) that way she and I can do a massive meal, and just watch old movies while crocheting. I know, sounds way too old. But in truth; I think it would be a splendid day.



So, back to the awkward time between Christmas and New Year's; and hopeful looking at next year with everything I am doing (I'm scared, but excited at the same time). Ok breakfast, a bit more coffee and let's do this!

I have a weenie trying to cuddle ♥ so I need to be brief.







MERRY CHRISTMAS





May today, be an ideal day- with or without family, may you experience joy, laughter and love.



Me? I'm drinking Mexican Chocolate Coffee with eggnog, and having a cuddle fest on the couch. Yeah, it's ended up being my only "day off" since Saturday with all the "things" to be done. So, I'm doing only what I want to. And right now, that is netflix, and puppy time.

There is so much, and nothing happening all at once.



I have to say I'm taking advantage and "hiding a bit". Not because I don't want to be social, but because... I can.



This week will have a bit more for me to do, and more importantly there is more that I have to keep working towards.



I think that has been a key difference: distraction. I simply have to keep doing what I know needs to be done, and working towards it.



So one thing that I have to do is my game plan. Getting everything put together key elements to help me move forward. I have another meeting to set up tonight regarding this. Still precarious, with what is happening, but there is a calm- I'm doing everything I can, and well if it isn't enough- there are things I can do. But right now instead of focusing on those, I am focusing on what is in my control.



Part of that: painting my space. It needs it, and it's important to get things "energetically" moving.

WHERE IS MY TIME GOING?! Ack!



There is so much being busy... that my year has slipped away. o.o



How does this happen every year?

I'm trying to choose if I do take out Chinese for dinner tonight or if I do sushi tomorrow for lunch... oh the choices.

Well the open house did quite well. I was able to pay off my washer/dryer and bed - which is a huge relief, and I'm finally starting to feel as if I'm getting "control" back. Granted I have a LONG way to go still but it is far better than even two months ago.



I'm also trying to keep learning the lessons as they come. It's eye opening truly. A lot of self reflection and rest, because I treated 28 people during the open house and then worked the next two days. It was a glimpse as to how I want my clinic to look in a few years...



but now it's weenie time and some more super natural :)