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Photographic Venom

18:08 Nov 26 2008
Times Read: 571


Second attempt at poetry. Yeah, this too is a few years old.



I'm crying my eyes out,

and no one seems to care.

I'm screaming my head off,

and no one seems to hear.



My sheltered cries drowned,

In a sea of thoughtfulness.

Nothing to save this poor soul,

For all there is is worthlessness.



If I tried to save myself,

I'd only be shouted down.

My only solace being,

That this noose is my crown.



What if I died,

Would anyone care?

What if you never saw me,

Would you even notice I wasn't there?



What if I crawled to you,

Begging for a helping hand?

Would you ignore me?

Would you plaster yourself where you stand?



And if you saw the pain in my eyes,

And saw the helplessness,

Would you simply walk away,

Leaving me in the distress?



What if you knew,

You could save me?

Would you even dare to think it,

If you, the one so blind, were the one to see - me?



And if you saw the tears

That are staining my cheeks,

Would you be willing

To help me, you, the one I so seek?



Now that the blade is running,

Now that my flesh is gone.

Would you still rescue me,

Even if what I did was wrong?



If my dreams had been

Shattered to pieces.

And if my hope had

Dissipated till nothing was there?



What if I called to you,

What if I needed you?

Would you let me die,

Would you save me, would you.. ?

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Security In Piece of Mind

18:07 Nov 26 2008
Times Read: 573


Very first attempt at poetry. It's a few years old.



Shadows within me felt,

Wonder around me held.

To the sky, written no more,

Just awaiting to knock upon Death's door.



flanking my ever-held ambition to see,

Fear took hold, grasping me.

I found myself in another place,

Never did I recognize a face.



Breath caught in my throat,

While curiosity became my overcoat.

Not longer did I begin to wander,

Cautiousness held close in armor.



Seeking my new found land,

I got more than I had planned.

A shrieking arose from the night,

I found that I was frozen from fright.



Quivering like a new born dog,

I waited patiently, searching the fog.

And just when I relaxed, it lurched forth,

Sanity thrown from my mind henceforth.



Giving out a mournful cry,

I thought I would surely die.

Saliva dripping from it's mouth agape,

I knew there was no escape.



Its eyes red with hunger,

Thought I thought this had taken my number.

I was done for, surely so,

Until I realized I had a bow.



There was a certain miss,

As my arms became aware of this.

Steady and true, I aimed the shot,

To fire into those orbs so hot.



I froze once more out of curiosity,

For I still held no animosity.

I stared it down, my gaze full of fire,

It stared back, with the same desire.



When I moved, as did it,

As though it were my own sick puppet.

My weapon drawn, poised to strike,

I found I had not the will to fight.



I dropped my arms to my side,

And tossed this shame aside.

I crept to the monster, quiet as can be,

It did the same, heaving as it neared me.



When I lifted my solemn hand,

As did it, exactly as I stand.

I could not deny my wonder,

Nor defy my fear asunder.



Reaching out to touch that creature,

Only caused more terror to conjure.

As I did, so did it, matching my frail movement,

None of which was on my mind an improvement.



I found myself staring at my sinister half,

Still fearful, it could not help but laugh.

This was a terrible sound,

As agony was what my soul had found.



Realizing I was this monster,

My future only grew bleaker.

Suddenly it all went black,

This vision of truth fading back.



I awoke with a start,

Confusion still gripping my heart.

Sitting up, I did not find

It ever existed outside my mind.



My baneful ways made all too clear,

I came upon no fear.

I would find my truth and make it so,

Nurturing it and making it grow.



With this to me revealed,

My soul, my self could be healed.

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Elisabeth

02:15 Nov 26 2008
Times Read: 581


You grab at his shirt as he walks through the door.

You knew he would leave but you still ask for more.

Don't know what to tell you..

He just had to leave.

I'll hold you if you can't sleep,

Elisabeth, Elisabeth



Confront me with your pain and show me your scars.

I'll try to protect you, keep you from harm.

I know what to tell you,

I'll always be here.

I'll listen to you my dear,

Elisabeth, Elisabeth

You don't know how to break it down to words;

You just can't hurt yourself to make it worse,

Elisabeth you just don't know how to deal..

I'll try to help you make these wounds heal.



A few months have gone by, you move on with life.

You're tempted to give in, but still you will fight.

I know what to tell you,

I know you're alright.

I won't let you lose your light,

Elisabeth, Elisabeth

Elisabeth you've got so much left to live,

The world will benefit from what you can give,

I'll help you pick yourself up from each low,

And let the world see just how brightly you glow

Elisabeth....

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Leave A Kiss

02:14 Nov 26 2008
Times Read: 582


Every time you leave me here

Alone,

Every time you say I'm needed,

Yet you won't

Leave a kiss.

It lasts much longer than empty words.

Leave a kiss,

Even though each time it hurts.



Leave a kiss,

Trade your words for my actions.

Leave a kiss,

Trade your wounds for my reactions.



I swear to you

I have much more than good intentions.

These words to you

Can't amount to so much action.

I'll leave a kiss,

So you know it's not this place I'll miss.

I'll leave a kiss,

Because my words couldn't say all this.



And when you're done..

Leave me here; there's nothing left to say.

Leave with the sun,

Leave me here to my disasters,

But leave a kiss

To seal the moments on my lips.

Leave a kiss

To say I'd do it all again..

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Untitled. u_u

02:13 Nov 26 2008
Times Read: 583


I'll write these words, I'll fill this page.

The only way to say,

The words I wish your heart could hear.

I'll write you every day.



The words I right will fill my mind

Until there's only you.

The problems that you've faced me with

I don't know what to do.



And I know if you could see me,

You'd calm my every fear

And stay with me.

And I know if you could hear me

I'd know just how you feel,

If you're all right



I can't let go, I can't give in,

You have to be all right..

Your silences are moving in..

You just might lose the fight..



The doctors say it's one last try

To save you from this pain.

But I'm okay, I'll be alright,

If just for one more night



And I know when you can see me,

You'll calm my every fear

And stay with me.

And I know when you can hear me,

I'll know just how you feel,

That you're alright.



The letters that I wrote you, Love

They aren't important now.

I leave them as my final words..

I'm coming to you now


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Stapled

19:56 Nov 20 2008
Times Read: 597


I'll be revising this one. Should see why as you read. u_u



Take all the times,

The good and the bad,

And staple them to the wall.



Watch me laugh,

Watch me live,

So you can staple it to the wall.



Watch me sin,

Watch me cry,

Watch me choke,

Watch me die.



Watch me swear,

Watch me hate,

Watch me Love,

Watch me be great.



And take all of it and staple it to the wall.



Watch me bow,

Watch me beg,

Say it again,

Those things you said.



Say them again so I can staple them to the wall.



Watch me shuffle,

Watch me dance,

And my feelings,

Still enhance.



Watch me struggle,

Watch me crawl,

Watch me give up,

Once and for all.



And take that shit and staple it on the wall.



So lets take a picture,

Of us both,

Take a picture,

Of a ghost.



Take the print,

Staple it high on the wall,

Use a staple,

So it wont fall



And I'll look at it,

Every single day,

Things come back,

In a good way.



Staple it on the wall,

Watch me behave,

Watch me shower,

Watch me shave.



Watch me scrub,

Until it hurts.

Just to make

Sure that it works.



Watch me crumble,

Watch me fall,

From the staples,

On the wall.



Hang me up again,

I know you will,

And I'll sit,

Perfectly still.



Drive that staple,

Into that fucking wall.


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Heart Strings

19:53 Nov 20 2008
Times Read: 600


You've always said

My stories

Tug

On your "heartstrings" but,

I've always pictured,

An accordion in

Your chest, the way it

Expands and

Folds when your words

Float haphazardly, the way

I am hypnotized,

A capuchin monkey

In your street performance,

And as I swing, bereft

Of rhythm, to the pulse you

Bang out in c minor, you

Smile regardless

And clutch me

Back to your chest.


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A Secret

19:47 Nov 20 2008
Times Read: 603


I'm not so perfect, did you know?

Do you remember every word that you wrote

“You're perfect and lovely" and you couldn't see

Then you saw I wasn't perfect and perfect wasn't me



Old scars line my arms and legs

Thoughts of you replaced with thoughts of death

Lyrics sprawled out on the floor

I've sunk so low, even music can't help me anymore



And I’ve kept all your poems, cds and notes

I've got the disease but no antidote

I'm lovesick, lost and wishing away

Wishing for you for the best part of my day



I'm trying hard to be thin, so hard to be pretty

To be something better, something that isn't me

“It takes time, it'll pass. Don't worry these feelings won't last"

But I’m mesmerized, captured in the past



Can you find my heart? Is it still by your side

I'm lost and I need my heart, my guide

They say follow your heart when the going gets rough

What if your heart's gone? And just you isn't enough



You can stare out the window

Stare through the haze

But there's nothing you can see

Weeks become days



Time grows longer, you struggle to breathe

Is this what you wanted to see?

Is the vision all wrong, am I imperfect still?

Because if you need me to change, just know I will



But I’m falling to pieces so I hold myself tight

The nights filled with creatures and I’m not alright

You laugh and you smile, you just don't see

What loving you has done to me



It's been quite a while and I’m yet to heal

Although I’m forgetting how it feels

To not be a slave of cupid, a slave of love

How it feels to be free. To be enough



How it feels to breathe and not choke on air

I'm stripped down to nothing, my soul lying bare

And the winds whip away all that's left

It pushes me over, leaving me there



Thin and cut to fragile remains

Reaching out to grasp the falling breeze

My expression pained, hair a mess

I've got a secret I want to confess.


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The Floor

19:44 Nov 20 2008
Times Read: 605


I slept on the floor last night,

Couldn't sleep through the storm though.

Found solace only in five-minute dreams that,

Bottomed out like the rain gutter-balling down our windows.

Lightning wrenching its way,

Through my eyelids.

Thunder echoed by my joints,

Crunching with every toss and turn on the carpet.

Every house-shaking-wake-up call like a reminder that,

I am not happy.





-Sigh.- u_u

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Love Lost In War

19:38 Nov 20 2008
Times Read: 606


Memories keep me company,

In the time of your absence,

I await your return,

Come home to me.



The last touch from you,

Keeps me dreaming,

I await your return,

Come home to me.



Time may pass,

But I will stand strong,

I await your return,

Come home to me.



Words long spoken,

Keep my faith soaring,

I await your return,

Come home to me.



Hope is now dead,

In the ones that love you,

But I await your return,

Come home to me.



I closed my eyes,

Unwilling to believe,

I stood waiting for you,

You came home to me.



The peace on your face,

The calm I could see,

I knelt beside you,

And gave you a kiss.



Hope long gone,

Words all forgotten,

Your touch; a dream,

The memories; my company.



My love you've returned,

Silent and asleep,

Await my arrival,

I'll come home to you.

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A Seasonal Happiness

20:06 Nov 17 2008
Times Read: 622


In this cold,

My breathe rolls out

In small circles

Like a failed promise

Ring,

But you always

Read my lips,

And I could feel it in

My fingertips,

Because



While my whispers just

Toyed with my own lips like

A six-year-old chimney sweep in

The hazards of London,

They’d elicit startled gasps of

Child-like tension, with

The choke of cold air that

Wraps around it.



My vocal chords played

Like a harmonica,

Out of tune and

Dusty, with unfamiliar fingers

And a lack of breath,

But you still heard

The music

Above my loud shivers,

Snapped your fingers like a heartbeat,

Tousled your hair

And made an angel

In the sky with a

Warm waving motion that

Expressed,

To me

The simplicity of

Keeping warm

In a cold summer.



And I was trapped by this feeling--

This wondrous lack of

Clear thought, when

All my breath comes out in fog, like a

Slow

Deep

California burn,

When I spend all my time

Recycling metaphors,

Abusing similes,

And looking up words

In the dictionary like

Irony, release,

Exile,

Godsend.



It is November

Now, and I am baking

Inside my clothes

When I see you

Now, with your

Hair still tousled

The way it should

Always be, your smile

Like cracking a window open

(the way that summer

Was supposed to be) and

My lips don’t quiver in the cold

For the first time

When I realize what’s

Been here

The whole time.





I do hope this one particular poem is enjoyed by all.

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BlackStarArms
BlackStarArms
01:38 Nov 18 2008

Read several of your poems but this one stands out in particular. You have a way with words, your own way.



Amazing, very impressive





yamato0koya
yamato0koya
04:43 Nov 18 2008

This one is one of your bests. Absolutely beautiful.





 

Mummy's Scarecrow

05:29 Nov 17 2008
Times Read: 628


Mummy's got a scarecrow,

Hair made of straw.

Mummy's little secret,

Isn't pretty anymore.



Her mouth is sewn shut,

She comes out after dark.

She's living in the attic,

Mummy left her mark.



The crows all fly away,

Too scared to return,

They all flew away,

Will mummy ever learn?



Mummy's little experiment,

Just wants to belong.

Mummy calls her 'monster',

And she isn't wrong.



It takes one to create one.

Mummy can't you see?

That your little monster,

Is a reflection of thee.



Mummy screams at her monster,

Beats all the beauty away,

Because the monster used to be prettier,

Than mummy is today.



Our little scarecrow,

Lays her mutilated head to sleep.

The sun smiles through the cracks.

How long will mummy's secret keep?

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The Monarchy

21:13 Nov 14 2008
Times Read: 649


The Jack of Spades.

The Jack of trades,

He knows not what he do.



He’ll take your dimes.

So trade the Nines,

And he’ll see you when he’s through.



The Queen of Clubs,

Will breed her cubs.

In more outstanding ways than One.



So clear the halls,

Here come the dolls!

They’ll take you in Twos for fun.



The King of Diamonds.

His name was Thiamond,

He’ll kill you in the dark.



Make fun of his Fives,

He’ll spear you with knives,

And you’ll kiss the fish at 400 ft in the park.



But the Ace of Hearts,

He will play darts,

With consorts with Four and Three.



So Six made the Noose,

Eight hung the goose,

And Seven decided that he should flee.



Ah…



The Jack of Hearts,

He knows his parts!

And allows the Ace his bodies use!



He’s but a slave,

Called slut and knave,

He is everything if not loose.



He takes the pleasure,

He takes the pain,

He’ll take all he can get again.



He’s the Jack of Hearts,

And he knows his parts!

He said, “you can only get pleasure for pain”


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yamato0koya
yamato0koya
09:04 Nov 15 2008

That is magnificent. I'm almost tottaly lost for words to describe the imagination you have to put this together.





laurell
laurell
16:46 Nov 16 2008

Love it...:)





ConSpirito
ConSpirito
00:39 Nov 17 2008

Haha. Thank you both. ^ _ ^



 

Unseen

21:11 Nov 14 2008
Times Read: 651


Apart in a sea of genius minds,

Unseen pond un-noticed,

Un-defining characteristics all wrapped up in one.



Shunned from a domineering society;

Hypocrites sneering from all sides,

Self-righteous importance blinding their site.



Never bothering to really know,

What the mask conceals behind it;

Imperceptible talent hidden deep within.



Most essential of all surreptitious parts,

Disregarded with no compunction,

The true person within the heart.


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A Souls Last Will

21:07 Nov 14 2008
Times Read: 653


The duality of my mind,

Continue their conquest in their last hour.

I no longer wish,

To see a dominating side.

I've made my decision long ago,

To obtain equilibrium.



Friends and family speak to me as I lay here,

But I cannot hear them.

They rest their hands on my shoulders,

But I cannot feel them.

I can only hear my own thoughts.

Only Me, Myself, and I.



Me.

How I wish to see Him again.

How I was wrong to bury Him,

And think that He would have been forgotten.

For years, I have felt that guilt upon me.

Haunting me in my dreams.



Myself.

The only person I hate in this world.

He is the cynical side of my mentality,

Always criticizing my views on life and seeking to destroy my spirit.

My pursuit of Clarity ensued because of him. To eradicate him.

It was he that convinced I to bury Me.



I.

Who am I? The soul?

Yes, is it not I that manifests this passion to write?

Or is this all just a dream? I could be a Wolf.

Dreaming of being that two-legged God.

I don't know anymore... Life is strange.



In this silence, I ponder the meaning of it all.

It was all revolved around the pursuit of Clarity.

I remember a time where He ran beside me.

And a time where we've also fought together.

Then, one day, you ran faster than ever before.

I don't know if it was Your intention, but I followed.



For years I ran after You,

And I still haven't caught up!

I only need one question to be answered.



What happens after death?



All my friends and family... they're deeply saddened.

Is death such a terrible thing?

Not one had smiled.

I don't want to depart with their faces like this.

I am about to be free.

Please smile.



Captain Wolf Larsen!

If there is one person I'd like to meet after this, it is you.

I want to see if you are still exactly the way you were.

Ambitious, ruthless, invincible!

You were truly the biggest bit of the ferment.

I long for a dual with the greatest.



So have a legion of demons ready for me,

For I challenge Lucifer himself!

Do you not feel this, Wolf Larsen?

This desire to both kill you and fight along side you?

This is the immortality of the soul.

Bosh?



We shall see.



The war is beginning to cease,

I know my final moments have come.

So my eyes move to look at every single person here.

My head turns to the right and my cheek lays there upon the pillow,

As I look at just about the most beautiful thing I've ever seen.

Her.



She smiled at me,

The only smile I've seen in what seemed to be centuries.

I knew not who she was;

My angel, lover, or simply a figment of my own imagination,

I knew only that I smiled back,

Just before my muscles relaxed and all faded to black.



Like newly born butterflies sailing in the wind.

I am amongst them now.

Everyone smiled the day I was born.

Birth is beautiful, is it not?

I only ask that my death is as such.

My mates...



Please smile.


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Requited

21:03 Nov 14 2008
Times Read: 654


You make my heart glow

Cliché, I know,

But I can't shake the blush from my cheeks.



And when you glance at my soul,

My mind glitters to know

That with me you say you're complete.



I'd give you the stars, a bus ride to mars,

More than money can buy.

But you say you're content

With the time that we've spent

Pointing out clouds idling by.



I wish you could see

Yourself through my eyes,

Wish you could feel the

Flutterings you've placed in my chest.



And I wish there was some way

To truly express

The fact that

To me, you are the best.



I would, if I could,

Give you all that I have,

But I know that that's not what you want.



So I'll give you my hand,

And curl up in your arms,

Locking your heart away with mine,

And we'll stay young together

Throw away all our clocks,

And laugh at the shivers of time.


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Maybe We'll Find Love

21:01 Nov 14 2008
Times Read: 655


I don't know how well you catch these things.

Always reaching and stretching and grasping

More than anybody else in the world ever will.

But I think that, maybe, there's something more

The reality beneath the surface,

So instead let's study that a bit,

Maybe we'll find love beneath it all.



They tell me I can be rather convoluted, at times.

For reality to seize the heart,

We could offer, mutually, an unrequited comfort

Something more than the eye first catches.

Its tugging at your heartstrings,

Trying to find out just what's there



Although I don't see what's so difficult

To whisk us away into a paradise where

If we really truly wanted to.

As one two souls could be,

But I don't think you want to give in.



When talking about love and affection,

We can always be alone.

So that towards eternity we can go

If only we both could see



Because simply put, I know

She can recognize when unrestricted,

Together, her and I.



The one who offers tranquility to conclude my day, she oft does

Peruse a piece and understand



Smile for me. She's special, I think.


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Life

20:50 Nov 14 2008
Times Read: 656


If I let go, will you promise to catch me,

If I fall, promise everything will be alright,

And if I loose everything, you’ll stay by my side



I don’t know what’s going on around me,

It’s too dark to see a thing

I can’t hear anything around me…



I was only sure of just one thing

That’s the fact that I love you

Or was I just loosing my mind?



You said you would stay with me…

But then you left,

And I fell to pieces



Now I don’t know what to do,

To go after you or someone new

I don’t even know what love is…



Anymore…



How can I be falling when I was never on firm ground?

How can I fall to pieces when I was never even whole?

And how can I loose it all if I never had it all



Now I’m sure of just one thing,

I’m sure everything will be alright

I’m sure everyone will be okay



But still promise me…

Promise me everything

And everything WILL be okay







I’m starting to see,

See what’s going on around me

And hear everyone yelling



But I know I’ll be okay

As long as you’re here,

Cause together we can do anything



Now I’m finally standing on firm ground,

Even though you’re not around

And everything IS okay



So good-bye and so long,

I can go on without you for now

And I don’t need anyone to promise me anything will be okay



Since I know it will,

Although I could always use a reassurance

But that’s what family and friends are for.


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Lullaby For The Fallen Soldier

19:36 Nov 14 2008
Times Read: 661


Hush young soldier don’t you cry

For I am here to give you a lullaby

There’s no need for swords or shields

For there’s no more battles upon the fields

This war has finally come to an end

For victory just came around the bend



Oh hush fallen soldier don’t you die

Could you please just stay alive

Your wounds are severe

But to me your survival is clear

For the time of healing isn’t far

And soon those wounds will just be battle scars



Oh hush little soldier don’t you cry

Oh please just for me, stay alive

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Blessed Thursday: only piece of writing I'm overly happy about.

06:50 Nov 07 2008
Times Read: 682


On Thursday

They gave us heaven

On Thursday

They gave us hell

And who here could tell

The difference

Between pain and pleasure

Whether there’s hell on earth

Or heaven ever after

The poet

And the starving artist

They work in league with Lucifer

The tyrants

And the high priests of Jerusalem

Oh, they stand before the lord!



On Thursday

They said what’s holy

On Thursday

They measured sin

But if I were to look within

I might find

That my soul is just asleep

Calmly dreaming of a pasture

Slowly moving amongst sheep

The quiet lamb

And the dreaded tiger

Were both formed

By the same hand

And everything is holy

When there’s eternity in an hour

And infinity in a grain of sand



Some of us pray to Jesus

The miracle and the man

Some of us pray to our Father

And His ever-present plan

Still some of us pray to that

Which lurks there in the darkness

Between our heavy hearts

And our heavy heads



Yet we all still pray in churches

Be they house or be they home

The great house of the lord

(Where millions kneel in reverence)

Or in your tiny bedroom

Thinking on your own



The whole world is a temple

Filled with joy and filled with woe

But all of it is inspiration

If you can dream it

Then it be so



On Thursday

They burned a wicked man

On Thursday

They anointed a king

And if life were but a string

Then why don’t the sheers

Rest in our hands?

If one of us can create so very much

Only to be blown away with the sands

The marriage

Between heaven and hell

Is a ceremony

For the senses

The songs

Of love and hate

They must be molded

Into one!



How could there be no natural religion?

Prophet, I know you said it yourself

Yet in your art you show me your vision

Of a world torn apart

You build your own mythology

And you create a selfless virtue

And you would love us all to agree

That the question is the answer

It’s all in how you see…



I would do this thing for you

I would open up my eyes

But you had holy vision

All I have is your demise

I fear that your religion

Will wither with your death

Like all the prophets before you

The word only hangs upon your breath

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Not sure what to title this one =(

06:46 Nov 07 2008
Times Read: 683


In the beginning --

Well, there could've been

Other initial impressions, but, fuck first,

I bet that was the worst day of my life.

...although I really can't remember.

-- I thought they were the highest powers.

There was God, sure:

But He was in Heaven, and

I'd yet to learn about saying goodbye.



Then, it changed --

My dad died when I was ten.

...how?

Cancer, of course,

Growing in him like my early adolescence:

Consuming slowly, torturously. We...

They rejoiced when it receded,

But a standing tree isn't always green;

I never said goodbye.

-- I learned,

The powers were the police,

the planet, and the worms.



I didn't understand them, but I soon would --

My first real girlfriend told me she thought she was pregnant,

And I believed her because she liked the way it felt,

And I wouldn't let her change her diet,

Since she was pretty

Healthy;

I didn't want her to sacrifice that.

We were only happy for a year,

But when she sundered us;

And, too, my heart, it hurt;

Like the memories of my youth,

I didn't want to say goodbye.

-- they, or, rather,

she...

She was the same as me.



So I happened upon an important epiphany --

Well, I didn't reach it by myself,

In fact, it was completely unplanned

Probability, genetics determined

The shape and color of my second cousin's eyes were precisely,

Without a shadow of a doubt, like mine,

Narrow, and dark brown without being black.

I became her namesake, and I felt...

...such a strong tie.

I thought it was weird, it wasn't

The first time I'd taken care of a baby.

Her eyes were always changing, they got so big,

Quick to black-eyed peas, her nickname, and

Quicker to chocolate almonds.

But I knew her true name would remain,

Stay the same, and that...

I won't be the one to say goodbye.

-- I answer only to myself

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Further Understanding:

06:43 Nov 07 2008
Times Read: 684


Wait!

Stop the tape,

I'll give you this moment to escape,

As I sit and look into my empty glass,

And speak of lies and moments passed.



To those enlightened few who stay,

Whose minds enlightened know the way,

I speak to you of the over man,

Who needs no God, no helping hand.



And this is you who has no bounds,

Man never hunted by moral hounds,

Standing for your own true creed,

Never bowing to mankind’s sickened need.



I speak to you yet you do not know,

Of the virtues that you may yet show,

Bound in time by dead mans words,

Not quite trusting what you heard.



Celebrate for Dionysus' creed,

For wine and love are all you need.

Break your slaves shackles and freedom find,

What questions sit on your misted mind.



Now is the time, power be yours,

Find for yourself what society cures,

Its rotten carcass, septic and sore,

Now can you see what you didn't before?


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What Is:

06:38 Nov 07 2008
Times Read: 685


What is Sin?

It creates an Iron Curtain.

What is Love?

It scales the Iron Curtain.



What is Hate?

The river that separates us from others.

What is Love?

The bridge that connects us together.



What is Pride?

The insult to Human Dignity.

What is Humility?

An apology that mends our hearts.



What is Envy?

To be like someone else.

What is Confidence?

To be like yourself.



What is Avarice?

The urge to get more.

What is Charity?

The desire to give more.



What is Lust?

To see others as Tools.

What is Chastity?

To see yourself in the faces of others.



What is Wrath?

The Impulse to Destroy.

What is Patience?

The Will to Rebuild.



What is Sloth?

Refusal to act.

What is Diligence?

The call to Renew.



What is Gluttony?

To Ravage

What is Temperance?

To Endure



What is Vice?

Humanity.

What is Virtue?

Redemption.



What is Evil?

The Crooked path that leads away from Him

What is Good?

A detour that leads us back to Him.



What is Faith?

It finds the Problem in Life.

What is Reason?

It solves the Problems in Life.



Who am I?

You.

Then Who are you?

I.


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Seek Note:

06:30 Nov 07 2008
Times Read: 686


Oh gentle winds 'neath moonlit skies,

Do not you hear my heartfelt cries?



Below the branches, here about,

Do not you sense my fear and doubt?

Side glistening rivers, sparkling streams,

Do not you hear my woeful screams?



Upon the meadows, touched with dew,

Do not you see my hearts a'skew

Beneath the thousand twinkling stars,

Do not you feel my jagged scars?



Seek not my mournful heart kind breeze,

For you'll not find it 'mongst these tree's



It's scattered 'cross the moonlit skies,

Accompanied by heartfelt sighs.

It's drifting o're the gentle rain,

A symbol of my silent pain.



It's buried 'neath the meadow fair,

Conjoined with all the sorrow there.

It's lost along the stars this night,

Too far to ease my quiet fright.



No gentle winds, seek not my heart,

For simply ... it has torn apart

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Unilover
Unilover
03:19 Nov 09 2008

Absolutely beautiful.





 

Dropped Your Face:

06:28 Nov 07 2008
Times Read: 687


If you dropped your face, how far would it fall?

Are you a tall person, or are you small?

Do you stand proud, or do you crawl?



If you shut your mouth, how long would it take?

Do you yell, or consider what is at stake?

Would it open again, or stay shut for the cake?



If you closed your eyes, how would you be?

Do you stare in blank, and complain of how you can’t see?

Would you cry dry, dreaming of visions of the sea?



If you gave your life, who would take it?

Do you fear what would happen, hide yourself from this shit?

Would you face it, lay down your arms and sit?



If you dropped your face, how far would it fall?

If you shut your mouth, how long would it take?

If you closed your eyes, how would you be?

If you gave your life, who would take it?



Face your fall.

Shut your mouth.

Close your eyes.

Give your life.


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Just Another Poem:

06:26 Nov 07 2008
Times Read: 688


There's inspiration in his eyes,

he’s writing fiction, writing lies.

An idea blooms, the pencil zooms,

And none know where it flies.

The clock ticks, the rain drips,

And a new idea is formed.



Her body tenses, his mind aches,

her stomach flips, his fingers shake.

A first kiss, a minute's bliss,

is near to wonderful to take.

The clock ticks, the rain drips,

just another moment passes.



Wedding bells, the families cry,

the parties rave, the seeds fly.

Now married life, now husband and wife,

now kiss childhood goodbye.

The clock ticks, and rain drips,

just another day passes.



Another job, another fight,

another wrong, cause no one's right.

The life they chose, was like a rose,

beautiful with thorns to bite.

The clock ticks, the rain drips,

just another week passes



A legal war, a lawyer's game,

a painful divorce, none take the blame.

Till death do us part, was fun at the start,

but cold winds blew out the flame.

The clock ticks, the rain drips,

just another month passes.



Another beer, another man,

another girl, another can.

Now light up a smoke, now life is a joke,

It didn't go quite like the plan.

The clock ticks, the rain drips,

just another year passes.



The grave is marked, the funeral set.

They come, they cry, they leave, they forget.

Life in a flash, leaves two dates and a dash,

that none will recall or regret.

The clock ticks, the rain drips,

just another life passes.



Words and rhymes you've heard before,

poor lines and images galore.

The pencils scratch, but the words don't catch,

they're dumb, they're bland, they're a bore.

The clock ticks, the rain drips,

just another poem is written.


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Elements of Life:

06:21 Nov 07 2008
Times Read: 690


Like water,



Be at peace with those around you,

Allowing things to happen as they do,

Sometimes life is simply out of our control,

And what we do is believe in the dreams that carry us through.



Like Earth,



Know your balance that keeps you calm,

Enabling yourself to attain the most out of some,

Don't allow others to tip you over,

For faith in yourself is what will last you forever.



Like Fire,



Be alive with everlasting hope and lots of courage,

Being a strong, determined person who does all despite one's age,

Live each day as though tomorrow will never ever come,

Try all things new and let your mind take it all on.



Like wind,



Fly free of problems that tie you down,

Never letting these things hold you from the clouds,

Let your love and trust of those around you,

Guide you through your troubled times.



Life is beautiful,

Live and enjoy it.


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Broken Christmas

09:29 Nov 06 2008
Times Read: 708


Reddest flowers, whitest snow

Little stories everyone knows

Happy smiles all for show



Snowy nights, crystal flakes

Dancing colors on frozen lakes

Small lies everyone makes



Golden stars, green trees

Under mistletoe with a dirty sleaze

Tiny secrets no one sees



Cold hands, a cold heart

Words thrown like darts

A home begins to break apart

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Lucifer's Fall

08:55 Nov 06 2008
Times Read: 715


Whispered words

In a dark, black cavern,

A thousand, thousand voices



Echoes

Of tomorrow.



Drip, drip, drip,

Water falls slowly,

Amassing into a deep pool



Ripples

Of yesterday.



Wings folded over,

Head forever looking upward,

Abaddon guards over the sleeping



Sighs

Of eternity.



While Lucifer weeps

Each tear gathered incontinent,

Poisoned with empty love



Memories

Of lust.


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Deep In Thought And Left Behind

08:55 Nov 06 2008
Times Read: 716


Deep, dark, black eyes

Staring back at me from the mirror.

These are my true colours

The ones we never see

The sad

Depressed

Crying

Me

I want it,

I want it to come out

Show you how

Sad

Depressed

And crying I can be

But then again you wouldn’t like that side of me

The side that you never see

The one I keep hidden away

In a dark, deep closet

Where no one can ever see

Can ever find

The real me

If I was like that all the time

Do you think you would understand?

No. You wouldn’t

Because you couldn’t


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It's the:

08:45 Nov 06 2008
Times Read: 718


it’s the how’s

and the when’s

and the what did you do’s

that brought us to an end.

it’s the simple structure

the calm before the storm

the obsolete mannerisms

that called out the end

of all that was going.

it was the sullen smile

the i miss you

love you

touch me

do’s.

it was the forgotten

forsaken

placed hands and

wilted lillies.

the shock

and the aftermath

the

wish you would

could

love.

it was the understand-me

please demand-me

want to fuck me

but wouldn’t.

it’s the

don’t deceive me

don’t perceive me

aspect of this mess

that ended all

what we had

and

lost the fight

for empty gaps

and mended nothing

for either of us.


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yamato0koya
yamato0koya
03:44 Nov 08 2008

. . . wow. . .





 

More Than You Think

08:43 Nov 06 2008
Times Read: 719


I said don’t do this,

My fingers clenching,

Heart p-p-pounding…

And then the world just came on down,

Pieces of us,

Knew no safe ground.

My career,

and our distance…

Most important to you.

But a wise friend once said,

Why live your career,

Before living your life?

And of course I agree,

Because I feel you…

You are good enough,

better for me.

But you fought and you fight,

And we lose sleep these last few nights.

I don’t know what more,

To fight…well, for.

My eyes are all burning,

I think even my stomach,

It’s churning.

I don’t know the damage,

But the cost of repairs,

Well, that might take some years.

Because you see,

You took a piece of me..

And it’s vital for survival,

But somehow I want you to keep,

That very important piece,

That emotion,

That thought,

My heart, I believe…

Because you meant…

So so much more than you think,

To me.


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yamato0koya
yamato0koya
00:39 Nov 08 2008

Very heartfelt. T.T





 

Poem: Fall

08:42 Nov 06 2008
Times Read: 720


It's autumn now; the sky is white and cloudy

and the leaves are golden and red like fire.

But here I am, as usual, leaning against the door

and trying to hold it closed as I long for the

feeling of the open road.

I keep running from all the sensations that

I used to feel because I can't taste anymore.

And my fingertips seem to pass through

your skin like I'm touching a ghost of

a good thing; a ghost of a human being.

And the cool air of Fall blows the leaves

in slowly drifting circles and tries desperately

to lift me. But it cannot.

October nightmares fill my sleep and keep

me awake through cold and empty nights

with sad rain at my window, beading down

like tears rolling upon a crystalline cheek.

And I try to speak but the mute T.V. drowns my voice

I have no choice

and I try to taste but this liquor is waning,

and I try to lift myself. But I cannot.

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Isis101
Isis101
03:52 Nov 07 2008

Wow...very good. I wish that I could write poetry ( but I suck, so I enjoy reading the poetry of others).








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