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23:36 May 12 2008
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Another entry yet again today. I was talking to Adam on the phone, and now I am feeling like total shit!!
I feel like I am nagging him about Richard. My biggest problem is how he talks to everyone, including his father. I really don't agree with it, and I want Adam to know and understand that I will not put up with it when we are living together.
See this problem has been around since I've been with Adam. At first I tried hinting around about it. But Adam never saw the hints. So then I tried telling Richard myself that the way he talks to people is unacceptable and that it needs to stop. He has not listened. Its getting worse. I keep replaying in my head the words.
"You don't care Dad."
"You never care Dad."
"Holy shit Dad."
These are just a few examples of the things he says to his father. He doesn't have any respect for his Aunt penny, her house or her family. She has twin girls who are his age, and a son who is 14.
I'm really afraid that one day I may give into my feelings and smack him when he opens his mouth. My children don't talk to me that way, I'll be dammed that I will allow him too.
Anyways, today I brought it to Adam's attention that maybe he should take himself & Richard to some kind of Counceller. If he wanted to, I would go with them. Maybe they need to talk to someone. Maybe Richard needs someone other then his father, family members or myself to talk too.
If that doesn't work, I've told Adam that maybe Richard needs to be on the medication all the time, and not just when he is at school. When you think about it, the school had him tested for ADHD because they figured there was a problem. Now I know the school system sucks ass these days. They wanted me to do it with my son as well. I did it, turned out he was not ADHD. Anyways, Richard's tests came back positive. He has ADHD. He was placed on medication while at school. Since he has been on it, his grades has improved some, his attitude at school as improved.
At home his attitude sucks ass. Always back talking his father, will not do homework, will not listen to reason, will not sit down, always on the go, never shuts up, he always expects for everyone to do for him no matter what it is. He does not know the meaning of the word "respect". Hell he will not even talk to his grandmother on the phone because she doesn't give him things.
If I am going to be spending all summer with all 3 kids at home with me. Richard's attitude needs to change. He needs to calm down some because I am afraid of walking out. I don't want to do that.
I've always been told that if there is a problem, then it needs to be brought out in the open so that the problem can be resolved. If you don't address it, then the problem will remain there, and become worse. A relationship is a 2 way street, no matter if its just a friendship, a love relationship, a relationship with a family member, or a relationship between a child and a adult. A relationship is a 2 way street, and for it to work, both parties need to work at it, not just the 1. I cannot solve this on my own, I need Adam to step in and take control over his child.
At the moment Adam is gone painting the house. He told me to call him later on. I don't know if its that he doesn't want to admit that there is a problem, or that he doesn't want to admit that Richard is ADHD. I don't know what it is. I know that he thinks Richard could be doing better, I just don't know why he doesn't try and make things better. When I ask him to talk to me about it, he tells me that he doesn't know what to say. Well how about starting from the beginning, tell me what you would like to see Richard do. Once you pin point where a problem starts then it can become easier trying to find a solution to it.
Adam's sister is always on his case about Richard, Adam's own mother is always on his case about the child. You would think that with having so many people telling you that there is a problem, that you would get off your ass and try solving it. I have not seen him do anything..
Maybe its because he feels sorry for him not having his mother. Well thats not Adam's fault. Richard's mother was not ready to become a parent, she did things which was not acceptable, and Richard was taken away. She signed the adoption papers, and Adam fought the groverment to keep his son.
Adam has nothing to feel bad about. He has did his best when it comes to raising Richard. He has always been there for him, he has always supplied a roof over his head, food in his mouth, clothes on his back, and love.
Adam is what you would call a "real man", and I am so proud to have him in my life. Richard may not have his mother in his life, but I am more then welling to try to replace that void. He has wanted to call me mom, and I've told him that its ok. Maybe he only wanted to call me that because he felt left out. My kids call me mom. I don't mind him calling me mom. Atleast I am there for him, I've always been there for him. His school teachers knows me, the babysitter he had knows me, I've always treated him like my own. That will never change.
But my own don't go around being "disrespectful" so he has to change that! No child of mine will never be mouthy to me, or any other adult around them. Yes I am strick, damn straight I am strick. My reason for that is I don't want the kids falling the way I did. I made my mistakes, and I paid for my mistakes. If I can help my children not to make them, I will do everything in my power to do so. Eventually they will grow up, and like myself realize that everything I said and did was not to hurt them, but because I love them.
Having a smart mouth will get you no where.
Having a chip on your shoulder will land you in trouble.
Not being responsible will cause you nothing but grief.
Learning to say no to the right questions will save your life.
Having respect will get you places you need to be.
The 1 thing I will never do is hide things away from my kids. They need to know the truth about life, and its never easy.
- Get an education
- Respect your elders.
- Work your little asses off at every good thing you can do.
- Work your asses off at the things your not so good at, so you can become better at them.
- Do not ever expect for things to be handed to you on a silver platter. You'll only be disappointed.
Life is not easy, nor is it a straight line. Its a rollercoaster with ups and downs. You want something, you work towards it.
18:28 May 12 2008
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I finally told the ex that we are moving on the 15th instead of the 1st of June. He bitched me out! Nothing I wasn't expecting.
Why are you moving on the 15th? I thought it was suppose to be June 1st? Why 2 weeks earlier? Now I am going to have to travel 2 hours to get the kids....Blah, blah, blah....
Look! Mr. Asshole you knew we were moving. Regardless of it being on the 15th or the 1st of June you were going to have to travel if you want to see the kids. The date of the move would not affect the distance no matter what! No good complaining about it!
You would not have so far to travel if you didn't uproot yourself and move even farther away yourself! So that is your problem...Not mine!!
Here you are complaining about the distance, yet it takes me forever to get the child support out of you??? You use to call the kids everynight to say good night to them until you got "Shamella" in your life...Now they would be lucky to hear from you once a week? WTF is up with that??? Within the past 5 - 6 years you have moved basically once a year, the kids have never been in one place with you...Yet you are complaining about my "1 move"???? Atleast I have their lives stable with me...What have you got to offer??
Life would be much easier if YOU would just DISAPPEAR!! GO POOF!! BE GONE!!! I think you only stick around just to make my life a living hell...Well guess what????? This move is a symbol of me taking over!!! You never did have control over my life, I just let you believe you did just so I would have some peace within my life. Now I don't give a flying fuck! This move was never to make you travel or try to take you out of the kids lives, this move was a sign of me moving on, having someone in my life whom I wanted there. Someone fulltime, someone who can spend the time with my kids that you are never there to do. Not to take your place as dad, but to fill the void. Unfortunally you will always be their father, but that doesn't mean fuck all in my book!
Anyone can go out and get their dicky sticky just to make a baby. But it takes a real man to be there everyday and help raise them! They may not be his in blood, but regardless they will be his!
I wish you all the best when it comes to your life with Shamella....Hey I hope your blessed with more children...Maybe then we'll be left alone!
Either way....God help Shamella, she doesn't know whats instore for her!
05:29 May 12 2008
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I am getting so nervous about this move. The closer the day comes, the more my stomach is feeling upset. I know why I feel this way. Its because of the kids. Not so much my own considering they have been with me their whole life, and knows how I run my household. Its more Richard which I am scared about. I don't want him thinking that I am the "Evil Stepmother". I don't need him taking it out on Brittany or Steven because of the way I do things.
I've tried talking to Adam about this. I thought that maybe he would have a couple suggestions. Just maybe instead of doing something 1 way, that maybe, just maybe there was another way of doing it. But Adam tells me not to worry about it. Things will be done the way I would like it to be. Maybe I'm a control freak. Actually I know I am a control freak. Not that I mean to be. But I've always found that if you want something done, you do it yourself. So I've taken control of most everything.
God, I sure hope and pray that this move is the right decision. I want to move, don't get me wrong. I just hope that everyone will be happy after the move is complete. Having a relationship where both parties have children is really not a easy thing.
You have your ways of "Doing Things". They have their own ways of "Doing Things". All children have been raised differently. Different attitudes, personalities. Bringing 2 families together to make the 1. Then Adam suggested him and I having 1 together. My kids are all for it. Brittany has always wanted me to give her a little sister. Steven of course wants a brother. I just don't know what Richard wants. If he even wants 1 at all.
Talk about being confised. I'm actually sitting here laughing at myself for being such an idiot!
02:03 May 12 2008
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What a weekend!!
Where do I start of? Well Adam & Richard came down. The kids went with their father, and of course all Richard did for the entire weekend was complain. He complained because the kids wasn't here, he complained because I would not allow him in "my" bedroom 24/7 to be with the cat, he complained because I had the Playstation & all the games packed, he complained because of what I made for dinner...Complain, complain, complain!!
I was tired of it!! He would not sit down quietly for 5 minutes, yet when he wanted something, he was to lazy to get it himself, and expected his father to get it for him, even though it was only 2 steps away!
He really isn't a "bad" kid. He is just to hyper and spoiled. He will be 12 on the 24th of this month, yet he acts more inmature then my 7 year old. If his father doesn't jump for him, he starts saying "oh dad you don't care."
Here let me show you I care Richard "Smack!" The kid needs what I would like to call "tough love"!! We told him about the chores this weekend. The kids want an money every week. Ok, I don't have a problem with that. So you'll get your money if your chores is done.
"I give, you give"
Brittany's chores are....
-Help with the dishes. I wash, she dry.
-Keep bedroom neat & tidy.
-Pick up after yourself.
-Do homework!!
She doesn't have a problem with that!
Richard's chores...
-When the "small" garbage is full in the kitchen, take it and just place it in the big garbage can.
-Keep bedroom neat & tidy.
-Pick up after yourself.
-Do homework!!
Steven's chores (Now remember he is only 7)
-Make sure the animals are fed!!!
-Keep bedroom neat & tidy.
-Pick up after yourself.
-Do homework!!
Guess who has a problem with their chores and refused to do them???......One guess.......
Richard!!!
He said "Brittany can do it!"
I don't think so, you don't do it, you don't get your money!! He complained, spazzed out, took a fit, and I told Adam he has 4 days to straighten out that child or else me moving may be PUT OFF!! I don't know what more to do.
Any suggestions????
20:59 May 09 2008
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Well Adam just left to come down. He'll be here in about an hour. I cannot wait to see him!! He is bringing me more boxes to pack. I'm here now waiting for the kids father to come and get the kids for the weekend. I still have not told him that we are moving on the 15th of May. He sill thinks we are moving June 1st. I'll tell him after the weekend is over. I just don't want to be putting up with bullshit over the weekend. I have enough on my mind to deal with now.
I did some more packing today. Packed up 2 more boxes, and cleaned the house. This place still looks terrible. With all the boxes stacked up on one another. Cluddered is more like it! I am going to see how the cat will be around Richard & Adam this weekend too. I've already made up my mind when it comes to the animals being "man handled". It just isn't going to happen!
Anyways, I must be going here. I have construction going on out in front of the house, and the kids are out there watching. Best go and make sure everything is ok.
18:22 May 08 2008
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I am so tired! I've been here all day fighting to keep my eyes open. My friend Laura came over to give me a couple boxes she had there. Thank God too!! I so need more boxes. My mother called this morning from work and said she was bringing me 5 more boxes this evening.
I'm still roaming around the house in my night clothes lol. Been to lazy to even get dress! After I pick the kids up from school, I'm going to take them for a little walk to the little convience store just down the street. I'll get them a little treat, but my purpose for going there is to grab a few boxes which I know the owner has there for me.
I guess I should get going here. I need to get this house straighten out before tomorrow. I don't want Adam walking into a complete mess here. Just think 1 more week, and I will be out of here. Its kind of hard to believe that we are finally doing it. Actually its even harder to believe that I am doing it! Kind of scared, moving out of the city where I have lived for the last 6 years, leaving not only family, but also all my friends here. Don't have many of those to start with. I can count all my friends on 1 hand.
Cindy, Laura, Meranda!
LOL Yeah, those are all my friends. I'm not one to make friends. If I happen to connect with someone then that someone is lucky to have me open up to them. Meranda I've known all my life, talking to her is like talking to my sister. Cindy is someone I met 3 years ago, her and I just clicked right away. Laura I've only known for a year. Still not quite sure about her, however she is someone I would consider a friend. Just not someone I would tell my deepest, darkest secrets too!
Oh well, off to pack boxes I go!
08:57 May 08 2008
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Oh my God!
It is now 3:45am!! I am still up!! I don't know what has been wrong with me lately, but I cannot seem to sleep!! I go to bed at night, and all I seem to do is toss & turn! Unbelieveable!! I can hear the birds waking up outside, and they are singing!
I don't know what to do with myself. I got out of bed around 1am. Came downstairs, went outside and had a smoke. Came in, sat down at the computer, and I am bored! I've did some rating. I've posted within the forums. Hell I even voted on some polls. I feel like I am drained, yet I am unable to sleep.
My kids will be up in 3 hours basically for school. I know I have many thoughts which has been running through my mind lately. I just cannot seem to stop thinking about them. I'm starting to think I need to go to the doctor and get some sleeping pills or something!
05:22 May 08 2008
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Well the plans are made. Next Wednesday I will have the moving truck here, and hopefully everything will be placed in the truck. So when Thursday morning comes, we can just get up and go! The kids will be staying here with my mother for the day until I get everything up there. Then later on that evening she will be bringing them to me.
The kids last day of school will be Wednesday. They will have Thursday off school, and I will be registering them in the new school that Friday. Then hopefully with luck on my side. Monday will be their first day in that school.
So I will not be on here for a while. Maybe a week or 2 while I get us settled in the new house.
I updated my profile tonight. Needed some new changes. I added some of my fav. photo's on there, along with placing some new pictures in my portfolio. I was bored, and well that was something for me to do.
Adam is coming down this weekend to help me pack the rest of my things. I can't wait! Already Richard is starting to complain about it because the kids will not be here for the weekend. This is the weekend they will be with their father. So of course he is complaining because he will have nothing to do. I can't help that. If I could have the kids with me all the time, I would!
Speaking of which, the ex knows that we are moving. But he was told that it would happen on the 1st of June. But since we sign the papers for the house on the 13th, we could move in 2 weeks early. Now I have to tell him. He is so not going to be to happy about this. Lord only knows what he will have to say to me about it. Knowing my luck, he will try to tell me I cannot move until the 1st of June. I don't know why he has to try and make things harder then they should be.
It has taken me almost 6 years to finally get any child support out of him. He has moved now 6 times. Each time he moved, I've basically had to pull teeth to get his new address from him. I don't see why I have to fight for the address my kids will be staying at every second weekend. Seriously, what if something had to happen to them? He has did more harm then any good for these 2 children. My daughter use to have nightmares because of the things she has heard come out of his mouth.
Oh well, I guess I'll just have to wait and see! He cannot do or say anything worse then what I have already heard coming out of his mouth in the past.
Must be going here!! 6am comes to early these days.
21:23 May 07 2008
Times Read: 718
Just got home from picking the kids up from school. I had ask Brittany how her day went, I really wanted to know what happened today when the swimming went on.
When I called the school this morning, I had spoken with Brittany's teacher. She said that the children who are not swimming normally bring a book to read. I told her how Brittany felt about walking there when she is not taking part in the swimming. Anyways, she had to go!
What I don't understand is that the school is trying to promote "healthy eating". Yet, they offer "pizza day", "cookie day", and today while swimming was taking place. Brittany's teacher took Brittany along with the other 2 students, walked to a Shoppers Drug Mart and bought treats for them. "Treats" as in "Candy".
Where does the "Healthy eating" come into play? I had to call the school when I got home and complain about those "treats" which was given to my daughter. Brittany told her teacher that she doesn't eat candy, yet the teacher said "Oh a couple wont hurt you." And still gave it to her. I don't feed my kids junk food.
I had the principle and the teacher on the phone. I told them, when someone says "No", normally it means "no". Peer pressure is around everywhere, and Brittany's teacher telling her "oh a couple wont hurt" was basically pressuring her into taking it, and she did! Maybe instead of "buying junk food" for the students, they should be cutting up fruit! Apples, Oranges, Grapes, Banana's!
Brittany is already a big girl. Both tall, and stocky. The stalky comes from taking steriods from the puffers she is on. So eating healthy is 1 thing I take seriously around this house.
17:43 May 07 2008
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I really do not feel like doing any packing today. Most of my things are packed which belong to my bedroom. However, I really don't feel like finishing it off (Waaa)!! It doesn't seem like there is much to do. But when I start it, I just feel like sitting down and doing nothing!! It is "One of those Days!"
I got upset with Brittany first thing this morning. Her class is doing swimming classes for the next few weeks. Anyways, when the permission slips were sent home, I was planning on allowing her to do it. Had the money out to pay for it. Then she tells me not to bother. I had ask her why, she said because she would only get to attend 3 of the classes. She said it would be a waste of money.
Anyway's, there are only 3 students in the class who are not taking the swimming. Brittany being 1. So the teachers thought it would be a great idea to have those 3 students sit and watch the other's swim. Brittany doesn't think that is fair. She believes it is throwing it up in her face. So I will admit that for the past 2 classes of swimming, I have allowed Brittany to not attend the afternoon of the school day. The first class, I made a doctors appointment for that time and day, so she didn't have to be there watching everyone swim. The week after that she called home complaining she was sick. I knew she wasn't, but went and got her anyways.
So now this morning comes. I couldn't keep taking her out of school. Sooner or later the teachers will realize that it is only happening on the days there is swimming. So, I told her this morning she would have to stay at school. She got all pissy with me. Of course!
I was more then welling to pay the money even if it meant she would only go to 3 swimming classes. Atleast she wouldn't have to sit there and watch.
Children! They are never happy! lol
21:25 May 06 2008
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I am almost done the packing. All I basically have left is the big things. My couch set, wall units, bedroom sets. All that good stuff! I still can't believe I've basically did all of this on my own. Wasn't easy. I threw out more then I've kept.
Adam & Richard are coming down here this weekend. I'd like to see how the cat is going to react around Richard before we move in together. Someone really treated that cat badly, and I need to know who. Last year I picked up 2 kittens. 1 for this house, one for Adam's. They are sisters. Anyways, since the cat has been up at Adam's. She turned into a demon. You could not pet her without her meowing at you, you really could not pick her up, she would try to clawl your face off. She was really a mean cat. Now I have brought her down here with me. She was so use to being the only animal in the house, now she had to get use to her sister all over again, plus my dog Harley. Anyways, the first night here she bit my face, drove her clawl in my lip. She bit my hand. She was terrible!
However, I did take it into consideration that at the moment she feels like her owners gave her up. So I gave her another chance. Now...
She is a totally different cat. She has no problems with the other animals. She sleeps with me at night. OMG she even purrs! She has did a complete 360 turn around. She is loveable, she loves to cuddle.
But my problem is, I know Richard was hard on her. I saw him smack her before and I have told him off about it. The first time he was down at my place, he decided to chase my dog around the house with a baseball bat. I told him you hit my animals, or do anything to them, and I will use the bat on him and show him just how it feels. He never did it again. Now see the doctors has placed Richard on medication for ADHD. He cannot go to school if he doesn't take the medication. So the pills are at school, and someone there has to give it to him every morning. On the weekends, Adam will not give it to him, and to be honest with you, I think he needs to take it. Now I've did some research on ADHD and they say the first signs of it is being mean to animals.
So at the moment Richard is not allowed to be around my animals without his father or myself around. When he is around them, he is not allowed to play rough with them. Actually at the moment I would perfer if he didn't even touch them.
I've taken Adam's cat to a vet when she first came down here with me. I just wanted her to get a check up. The vet told me that she seems like an abused animal. I can see that being man handled by Richard. It even looked like she had a bite mark on her ear which had scabbed over. Now no fur is growing back in that spot.
Anyways, the vet wanted to see her again before we moved. I took her today. The vet was so impressed with her. Its almost like she never trusted anyone, now I cannot get her away from me.
So I want Adam & Richard down here this weekend to see her reaction to them. The first time she acts mean towards Richard... He will not be allowed near the animals. I'm an animal lover, and I'll be dammed if I will ever allow someone to hurt the animals I have. Afterall, they are a part of my family, and if they cannot count on me to keep them safe, then who are they suppose to count on?
Anyways, I must be going here. Have to start making dinner. My little boo bears are home from school and they are good and hungry!
05:40 May 06 2008
Times Read: 730
Well, I am unable to sleep tonight. All I've seem to do so far is toss and turn. Was talking to Adam about an hour ago. How I love that man! Every now and then I'll catch myself thinking about the teenage days. Being 13, 14 & 15 years old and having the worlds biggest crush on him. He was my first love. Although we never did anything other then kiss lol.
He is so excited about us finally moving in together. He went out tonight and bought some new things for the house. He is so amazing. I often think back on why him and I never stayed together. I guess being teenagers you really never know what you want. All I know was that the little community I lived in wasn't the place I wanted to be, and although that meant leaving my dad and him. I had to do it.
Its just so wonderful that him and I found each other after 14 years. He was telling me tonight how he never wanted me to leave.
I honestly cannot wait until we move in together. Although, I do have my fears when it comes to certain things. I'm just hoping and praying for the best.
Steven keeps counting down the days until the move. He is such a little sweetheart. Yesterday he went to his bedroom and went through his toy box. He took out all the toys which were broken or ones that he no longer plays with, and said "mom these can be thrown away." The toys which he wanted he put back in the toy box and said "mom my toys are packed and ready to go."
Brittany on the other hand. I feel she has mixed feelings about everything. She seems out of reach these days. Even moody. Maybe its her age, I don't know. I cannot remember when I was 10 years old. I've tried talking to her, but she says everything is fine. She seems happy, just distant from time to time.
I'm totally scared when it comes to Richard. He is really my stepson. Adam has raised him on his own since he was a baby. Long story there, but to shorten it up. Adam was always his mom and his dad. He has called me mom, and ask me if it was ok if he called me mom. I've told him he can call me whatever he feels comfortable calling me. So mom has stuck! He tells me he loves me and everything. But see now he is going to be living with me. Unlike his father, I have RULES! BEDTIMES! CHORES! He has been so use to getting his own way, and always giving his father a guilt trip to get his own way, that now I am afraid once we live together he will end up hating me. Afterall, I am the "Stepmom!"
My kids are use to my ways. He isn't! I don't allow swearing, or any bad language in my house. His favorite words to his father is "Holy shit Dad"......Yeah, not going over well with me!
If he doesn't get what he wants, he actually spaz's out!! Seriously!!...My kids haven't spazed out since they were 2! My kids have bedtimes...9pm & 9:30pm....I don't think Richard knew what a bedtime was until I came into the picture!
So yeah, I have my work cut out for me. I'm ready for it...I'm just not so sure Richard is. See, I am the kind of person who is "set in her ways." My dad raised me on his own, and well he didn't go easy on me. If I quit school, he would have kicked me out, if I wasn't home on time, I was grounded, hell if I didn't eat what was placed infront of me, then I guess I would not have ate anything! Never the less though, my dad was and still is a great man. Maybe I didn't see it at the time, but everything he said he said because he loved me.
I'm the same with my kids. I request that they bring home some kind of homework everynight. I like to see that my kids are learning, and what they are doing in school. Richard never brings home anything, and I've already made it loud and clear, if you want me to treat you like one of my own, and if your father wants me to treat you like one of my own, then your going to be! There is going to be homework, there is going to be a bedtime, and there are going to be chores to do.
How is a child suppose to learn anything if they are not going to be taught? Keep your room nice and tidy, it will teach you how to respect your things, and keep your own place tidy when the time comes. How are you suppose to get a job if you don't have an education? Thats where bringing home homework comes into play. Giving each chores to do on a regular basic teaches you responsibility.
We use these skills every single day.
I don't want to be really strick and tough on them, and I try not to be. I just hope and pray that Richard sees it like that, and not the "Evil Stepmother."
02:37 May 06 2008
Times Read: 733
If there are anymore surprises out there for me which anyone knows of, can you please tell me...
I don't know how much more of this I can honestly take. Now I find out that my cousin Mavis is basically on her death bed. Brain cancer. We knew she had it, the doctors told us she may have 18 months to live. Her time is almost up.
I haven't went to see her because I already saw what cancer does to a person. I went through it with my stepmother, I don't want to see Mavis like it. I want to remember her as she was, not as she is now.
I think the family is getting upset with me. I don't know what more to tell them. I don't want to see her in this condition. I am not going to take my kids to see her like this. My daughter is afraid of death because I took her to see her Nanny Alice, and it scared her. She remembers, and yet she was only 4.
She doesn't have any clue who is around her. She cannot talk, nothing..
I have such a headache now. Moving, the "ex", now the family. If it isn't one thing, then its something else.
21:29 May 05 2008
Times Read: 739
Well the ex finally showed his face here with the rest of the support payment. His 11am turned into a 2pm. I knew that was going to happen. It was a no surprise to me. We talked for a bit. I told him that this has got to change. He just recently moved farther away from the kids, come May 15th, the kids and I will be moving to a different city. What are we going to do? I told him I think this would be a good time to give him my account number and he can just deposit it into my account.
Here I am trying to make things a little easier on him, meanwhile all he does is try to make my life a living hell. Always bitching and complaining about something. Trying to weasel his way out of paying the child support, then trying to basically cut it down in half. What am I to do?
He is one of those people who blame the world for every wrong thing which goes sour in his life, even though it was his own fault in the beginning. He is his own worse enemy!
16:05 May 05 2008
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How I dislike the first week in every month. It takes forever to get child support from the idiot! What part of you helped make these kids, now you need to help raise them does this fucktard not understand?
Him and I have been split now for 6 years...6 years!! Yet it still takes the idiot a week if not more to get the support payments to me. I really don't see how hard it can be honestly. He works, he gets paid, he pays his rent, he buys his soon to be wife whatever she wants or needs. He has no other kids but the 2 he has with me. Yet I always have to jump on his ass to get the money to me. What is the problem I am failing to see with this picture?
Is it that he doesn't want to pay it? I've had the court system on his ass because of this. There is an order stating he has to pay this, so what is the problem? On Friday he tells me if I can get down to Toronto at this certain time and meet him at a certain place, he'll be there with the money. I go there, he shows up....Just not with all the money! He gives half of it. I said to him, ok so what now? He said, I'll come by tomorrow with my brother and give you the rest. I was like, ok then.
Saturday came, I never heard from him. I called, he picked up the phone once, I heard his voice, yet he hung up. So I called back, no answered...Time & time again....No answer! WTF??? Never heard from him for the rest of the weekend. So yesterday I called his girlfriend up, and I so ripped her a new asshole over the phone! I know it isn't her fault. But crap! Your with the man, at least help him make sure that his kids are being taken care of! You have them there every second weekend with you!
Appearently I "had" to tell him that I was moving. Then he tried to make me knock off $150.00 each month because of me moving, and him having to travel to pick up the kids....I was like, Mofo, give me a break here. You want me to do that yet here we are your travelling to get them, and then I am travelling to get them back from you. Screw that idea idiot! I'm not the moron, you are!!! Knock off money, give me a break here, that money goes to the kids. They lunches and snacks for school, Brittany's Girl Guides, Steven's Baseball...The hell you say goofball!!
So yeah, his girlfriend calls me this morning, and tells me that he will be here at my place by 11am with the rest of the money. I was like, ok thats great! It is now all, and yet a no show! His 11am, will turn into a 3pm, you just watch and see. This crackhead is never on time!
I honestly do not think this man will ever grow up. I'm just hoping and praying the kids will never, and I mean never!!!! Turn out like him! I know Brittany won't. She is way to much like me! Little Steven on the other hand, well I'm really praying for that 1!!!
I don't regret my kids. No, they are my life, my whole world....However, I do wish they had a different dad!
18:07 May 02 2008
Times Read: 748
What a day I have been having. I got the kids ready and off to school this morning. Then I starting in with this place. I've been cleaning and packing all day, but when I look around, it doesn't look like I have much of anything completed. It looks like I am throwing out more then I am keeping, which isn't so bad. But when you don't have anywhere to put the junk, its terrible! That is why this place is looking like a storm hit it.
Some of the things I was planning on getting rid of, my neice Marina is coming over to get it. She is moving this weekend. Yeah, this is her first time away from her mommy & daddy! She is coming to get one of the TV's I have here, along with a coffee table set which I am not taking with me, and a little tv stand which my son Steven was using. At least I am getting rid of some stuff!
1 of my bestfriends is moving on the 10th of this month. I thought I was moving far enough away by going to Kitchener. She is uprooting her family and moving all the way to North Bay! I know I'll never get to see her again! Good thing for internet and phone!
Anyways, I must be going here. All this packing and cleaning is not going to magically do itself! If I don't do it, it will not be done!
14:11 May 01 2008
Times Read: 751
I really have to get on the ball here and finish all this packing. We only have 2 weeks left here, and I may have half of my things packed. I am so excited about moving.
You know, sometimes I still cannot believe that Adam and I are back together...Finally!! As a teenager I was so madly in love with him. But at the time it would not have worked out. I was going through to much shit to even know how to have a relationship. Still, I remember the feelings I had for him. I knew they were real. I remember the day I left home. I cried because I was leaving my dad, then I thought about Adam, and I cried for another 2 days.
We both have had years of growing up. Now I would not change a thing. I guess it is true....
If you love someone, let them go, if it were meant to be, they'll come back to you.
Must be true! He found me after all those years. I must be going here, have some more packing to do, plus I have to make a couple phone calls to change my address. Oh the joys of moving!
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