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Periodontal disease. Dont know what that is? Think gingivitis with an immunity problem. Causes bad gums and bone lose which leads to teeth loose and denters. Ever try to bite someone when your teeth keep fallin out?

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deathnitegrl
22:11 Dec 30 2009

good one!

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Ok so note to self and all others... When you go a year without a good night of drinking you become a light weight again. Or at least I did. I had had maybe one drink a night occasionally since the baby but no actual night of drinking. Well last night I had two glasses of awesome wine with dinner then after the kids went down our friends came over. They are good friends too. A married couple with kids of their own ( oldest kids at home was 15 and left in charge for a few hours) they are amazing in what they can do and over come together. Well when they came over we turned on my new WII and started bowling and I made a screwdriver for myself.. and another and another and another. I think I only had four screwdrivers but let me tell you it was enough. Im lucky I only have a small headache. My mate who was drinking burbon thinks the sheet moving is to loud.

If you cant get screwed, have a screwdriver.

So I am a stay at home mom so when I say back to work it is eaither chorse or in this case, getting back in shape. My mom and all her sisters (except 1) are overweight and most have diabetes. I refuse to join that list. Just before giving birth to the twins I weighted 210. By the time they were a year old I was back in shape weighting 145 and able to run 2 miles. That was even after recovering from complications due to the c section. My newest son is now 8 weeks and I have started working out again. I do not have weights or a treadmill to use but I have the Tae Bo boot camp series (ok I wait for you to laugh, it is a litte gay but it does work) and have mesured out a mile loop in my neighborhood to start running. Thursday was my first workout and Iwas pleasently surprised I got through the whole 60 min video. Saturday I did the 30 min ab work out and now today I will be doing the 60 min one again. I cannot wait till Im back in shape..... I HATE not being able to run.

Have you ever noticed that sometimes you get these really bad storms that blow roofs off of houses and cars get carried away by rain waters but when things calm down there is just this refreashing light rain that seems to lazily fall around you? Its this light rain that seems like a pat on the head or a calm statment of "Im sorry, all is well now" that helps us to focus and pull things back in order. Well this light rain is what is happening right now in my den. I think that my mate and I just got caught up in the day to day things and hadn't actually sat down and enjoyed each others company in too long. So we had a huge storm that carried for a few days and now all is well.



But that is just life and how it works. Anyone who thinks or says that you can have a perfect relationship and never fight is delusional. Yes there is such a thing as happiness and soul mates but guess what? We are still individuals who do not agree on everything and so fights WILL happen. People change too. As life goes on and we expereince the good and the bad we grow and change. As we change the ones we love are changed too. We impact everything.



But anyways things in the den seem calm agian. Hopefully the other night was our last fight for a while.

So last night we had the battalion Christmas party which was actually nice. It was held in the banquet hall of a casino and horse track in NM and the hall looked nice. The food was great and Santa even came and gave presents to the kids. All three of the kids did really well and there wasnt a crazy 2 hour slide show on the workings of the battallion before we could eat. It was a thanks to people for setting it up, prayer then on to good food and company.



The aggrivation came after the dinner on our way home. I was contemplating things that he had been saying for the past few weeks and how he hadn't really been close or it seemed like wanted to spend time with me. I swear my hubby can hear the gears moving when I think this hard cause he asked what was wrong. Now at first I said nothing because anytime I had tried to talk to him lately he REALLY missunderstands or puts some horrible twist on what I say and it turns into a HUGE fight. But he pressed me so I relented and told him how I had been feeling and what he had been saying to cause me to hurt so much lately. He appoligized and said he was carring anger home from work than he realized and would try not to anymore. Good right??? So I thought. We get home and I say I'm going to get on the computer for a quick min to type something up. I start typing that poem I have on here and he starts asking every few mins if Im done yet. I dont know about everyone else but I cannot work with someone doing that so it took even longer. Finishing the poem I go to the kitchen to make our hot coco he had suggested I make and even in there he askes repetedly what Im doing and how much longer I was gonna be. Finally i had enough so instead of biting his head off like I wanted to I give him his coco and head to our room to read. He makes a smart comment and all hell breaks lose. I'm trying to tell him it's not helpful on either of our ends for him to hound me like he does and he is tellin me that I'm trying to guilt trip him (something my mom does and I cannot stand) Finally he stops yellin and I let it go cause I didn't even want to fight anyway.



I feed the baby, got him in bed for the night, put on a warm sweater, grabbed a beer and headed outside to stare at the moon for a bit.... Anyone else for get it was a new moon last night. *sigh* I try and we fight, I stay quiet and we fight, I just agree to everything and we fight.... I want my mate back. He needs to let go of what he cannot change in life and work and focus on what he has and the joy in life. But I am not going to tell him. I think staying quiet for a while might be the best way to go.



It hurts far to much when we fight.

So My mate found out yesterday that his battalion has a Christmas party tonight and he is required to come. Well they didn't command it but it was highly recommended. So I get to find clothes for all of us (the three pups and I) to wear. Fun. What is even better than the last min info on this is that when I asked my mate what the dress code was he instead told me where it was. I laughed and pointed it out and he appoligized but the kicker is I never found out..... You know these things can be REALLY dressy which in my case would be bad news cause then I would have to go out and buy something cause all my nice stuff doesnt fit my body right now cause I havnt lost all of the baby weight yet. But if its dress casual Im ok. Shot it may even be straight casual because it is at the casino here. The question for the day is WHICH IS IT???

Ok I am so gonna vent right now and if yall dont want to hear (or read) a woman venting then just change pages. Is it really that hard that once a week someone get up and take care of their kids? I get up every week day at 430/5 to make coffee, help find socks, get uniform stuff out for him and everything then when he finally leaves is when the baby wants to eat. When I get done with that guess what? The twins are ready to get up and want to get some juice and snack and start thier day. So no I dont get much sleep. Add to that that I have ALWAYS had a sleep problem and you have a very tired mommy who can flip out and have one hell of an angry rage.... So just maybe once a week if someone could get up and handle JUST THE TWINS for a few hours so I can get just 2 more hours of sleep that would be great!@!!!!

*sigh*

well I feel a little better. One other thing that I want to get out there because it it bothering me and this is the one site he dosn't share an interest in too. How the hay does not touching untill the doctor gives the ok translate to a good thing. Yes I just had a baby 6 weeks ago but he wont let me touch his arm or just hold onto him. He keeps askin if ive made the appointment to see the doc to get the go ahead for other stuff but that aint for another 2 weeks. I can understand he is frustraighted. So am I but I have always NEEDED to touch. Even if its just our legs touchin while he drives the truck. I need the contact. I dont get it and it is hurting. He's been doing this for a week now and I am more on edge than when I was about to pop the dang kid out. I need my comfort. No before you ask he is not the touchy feely kinda guy. But he has stress releivers around here for him. He has his chopper he is workin on, he's been workin on the Accord to get it leagal and to improve the hp. Oh and lets not for get his smokes....... I NEED contact and not getting that comfort is starving me!!!!

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wolfmoon
05:26 Dec 16 2009

girl tell that man how you feel i have been in your shoes over 10 months ago i told my guy how i felt just hold my hand for crying out loud so he did and when the doc gave the go ahead to you know we didnt cause it still hurt and he was just fine with it we would cuddle instead so just talk to him and get it out there

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So I have been gone way to long. Everything that I had learned about the code to write for my profile I have forgotten so will have to look it back up and also I have forgotten where just about everyting is.... really bites. And no not in a good way. wish it did. Anyways, tired.

Side note: My dog is to smart for his own good and Really retarded sometimes.

Yeah, I've been MIA for a bit. The move from one den to another went well. Also I have another pup now. He is 6 weeks old and currently cuddled up to my mate. The twins have accepted him and are doing well to... Now that we got that out of the way-

It is strange how you forget how strong the desire to protect a loved one can be. I have been pretty dormant for a few months now. Caught up in the day to day things and the comings and goings. Suddenly a good friend who I have claimed as clan is attacked. He was badly hurt and I raged with the need to strike back. I wanted to hunt down the one who made him bleed. The aggrivating part is he has requested that I dont. It was his chosen mate who had struck out at him. So he is hurt but to protect or stike back would hurt him more...UGH. Why do the ones who deserve peace the most have the most damage done to them.. He is also in the military and know how to hold his own.. Wants in special forces but has been denied because of his mate.. screwed once again. I will just have to watch and do what I can from afar. Maybe she will wander into a dark ally somewhere.