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i mowed my grandparent's lawn today. at around noon. it was like 90 or something. and very bright. i got sunburned, pretty bad. extreme uncomfort. :(



but it made me think; without uncomfortable times, would comfort be as good? or other things, like sadness, death, pain, times of loss...i mean, if we were always happy, then maybe it would not be such a special thing. if there were no such thing as death, i wonder if people would even value life?



an intriguing subject. a friend of mine and i were talking about something similar yesterday: what motivates people to do certain things? i've always been deeply interested in this subject. in why people choose favorite colors, or their 'style', attitude, and actions...



and that before-time question, Why?



why anything?



why do we care so much about our short lives? why do we even care about life at all? why does anything matter? and what determines what does matter?!?! why does the world go round, the sun rise and set, the moon pull at the earth? why do stars have lives, too? why do such beautiful things have to end? why do we have to end? why did anything start, anything continue, and anything at all end?



why don't people stop to realize the little things? as wonderful as some small, everyday things are? why do people get carried away, too wrapped up in their own lives to care about what is real? so many people strive for stupid things! so many lives wasted, so much time and oxygen wasted on selfish people who spend their lives trying to attain the unattainable, then to die miserably?!?! why do people forget what is real and what is dreams? why do we have dreams? most of them will never happen, anyway.



and yes, it is dreams by which some find solace, escape from their pathetic lives...but if they stopped wanting what they could never have, and just lived the life they were given, they could find happiness! maybe not the 'perfect' version of happiness they imagine, but it's something!



i don't know. this probably doesn't even make sense. and my fingers are tired. hm...i have to go pack. i might continue later. like it matters, i doubt anyone would be wasting their time reading such nothingness. heh....