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Nope. Just hopeless.

Ok kiddies just so know I'm single again but any other time I would celebrate, well this one is a little different. Ok I initiated the split (kinda had to, no guts no glory right??) and after due care and consideration well the merry go round which is life I get my explanation and it is about as absurd as you can imagine.

I made a person insecurities and darkness and all other bad stuff go away I was a light in someone's world.

(All her words I kid you not).

But she would never love me cos there was no spark. LOL can you fucking believe it?? I was perfect (her words I kid you not) and yet it wasn't enough.

WHEN THE HELL WILL IT EVER BE!!!!!

Yeah I'm in pain a little bit which is nothing compared to my confusion, don't give me rubbish about "The heart wants what the heart wants".

What about my heart???

What about what I want??

This is the first time in my life I have ever asked that question I swear down on my life and a precious other.

I just wanted to be warm, held...............I no longer have that.

A girl once told me I never knew what love was and I think she was right. About the girl I wanted maybe give that to her cos of what she made me feel .............I was close......very close.... no more.

Forget all this I'm a fighter its what I do so from now on the Honour the compromise the thing that makes me a "Gentleman" will be killed. I will be another meat head cos hey lets face it they get the hottest chicks and affection RIGHT????

..........Or can i?? I don't want to change but goddamn I can only take so much more of this.....................