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Well I got to see S.O.A.D it was mega fantastic.

I had a really good time and all so thats a first :) lol.

I had to borrow money off my ex which sucked (things you do for music eh??) I'm a lil pissed off though a couple things are getiin added to my cart right now that really do NOT needed to be added but mhyey it turns out a simple life really is TOO much to ask for but mthhen again you'd think that bein alive(ish) for 20 odd years I woulda learned that sooner.....................................oh wait I did I just placed my faith in ppl, maybe thats the same as putting faith in Jesus (who don't exist) eventually you still get disappointed.

The reason I hate bein pissed off right now because it makes me do this.bitch I HATE doin that IT AIN'T ME but god when you haven't talked to someone about it for nearly a full month you need somewhere or some way to dump you know.

Right now as well I'm gettin help......YAY you may think (or not whatever) but it took me 2 months to ask 4 it but then again that apparently was expected I am

"Very proud person" (SIDE NOTE::Is it really that bad to want to be tottally self sufficent??)

And last Saturday SUCKED bifg time I don't wanna even recall the memory :( faith in ppl *BLEEEUUURRRGGGHHH*

Someone hand me reality I think I mislaid it somewhere and I DESPERATELY need it back ASAP.

Only person I got 100% faith in now is my lil one *beams with pride* she is gettin bigger everyday and smarter no word of a lie :) I swear to whoever you believe in she is gonna go far and be happy (if not she's got me all the way behind her everydahy :)

Oh yeah lol she made me lose a....lot of weight lol I've been walking from my home to hers and that my friends is a 45 min walk each way :) but she is worth it (DUH!!) lol still she is only bright spot I got right now :) maybe I should count myself lucky that she is ok and in the end that is all that matters.

Don't really matter about my bills or the threat of eviction as long as she is ok.