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i feel frozen



standing waiting for the lights to



change



i hear nothing



i feel



irrelevant



i feel dreamy



it is almost dream like



self created silence





i need to learn how to stop destroying myself

stop being hard on myself and be nice to myself

i need to keep telling myself that

i need to keep wanting something

something nice

something warm

more than just a fur coat

because i can make other people happy

i can understand other people's pain

because

i can love even after all that is left of me is gone

because i have that strength.

im so happy in newyork with my new friends!!!



they look like nice decent girls but actually



they wake up at 7am to listen to trance music and



scream/sing along to russian trance songs



moscow never sleeps .



and



shoot a bitch named nikolai w ak-47s

insult you



silently



to hurt me









but



then i feel pity for you



and myself

enjoy the power?



what power?



im not interested.



pretend to be interested?



i am not entertained.



then entertain yourself



i am not entertainment



beat yourself with work



only cry for help when you are about to die



when you are on the floor



until no one cares



until not even yourself cares.