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When humans grow up, they lose all their child-hood. They lose everything dear to them because they go through experiences of which that makes them drop their complete and natural behavior. Which also drops their ideas of acceptance and the way things really are. They believe something to be evil because they do not understand it. Like just because something is dark or rather different from their own selves. I feel pitty upon them because of this.



One person in perticular as I have noticed...tends to know alot of things but only helps others in the benifet of their self. Saying that I contribute nothing to this world. However...that is not true. I am here for compassion and to help those rise above their fears and innibitions so that they can become what they are meant to be. For some this is to late, for others it is not. But I know for certain that the ideas and things they have lost are not truly lost, just forgotten. The positive things that exist within us all are still there, its just most people choose to ignore them.





I don't know why we met...maybe because we are supposed to learn from one another? Two different people in different worlds co-existing yet...to only "fight" about what is true or false. But yet what is truth anyways? We only go by what we feel, not one thing written has truth to it unless we choose to make it our truth. But I believe that the real truth is our natural feelings, the way we naturally are. If people do not face their fears, they grow cold and distant because they are refusing the transformation of life and there by not accepting their choices by their own faults. This is how we learn from mistakes on earth, to learn from our pasts and to face what we fear. If we face our fears even if its in the past and it is painful then in the end one will grow from that and see what they did wrong and it will allow them to become a better person. If one refuses this...they run into problems because they ignore their own feelings.





One cannot ignore their own emotions as it is part of them and no amount of spells or incantations will ever make them forget about that. I my self having done this and with first hand experience on people that came into my life to help me realize what I was doing wrong. Those same people allowed me to see my faults and accept them. Although I am not perfect nor will ever be, I still have faults like everyone else but still...I learned from the ones that hurt is the important thing.







I think if people could see past their "normal" eyes then they would come into an amazing world filled with wonderous things. But only if they merge with all that they are, which means see as a child would see but also know their responsibilites and what they know now but what they didn't from back then.





All and all, its a very hard lesson to learn as it can be painful but I think the people who pass such a task will grow to be a better person then they were before. Even though that this does not happen with everyone, at least the few who do get passed it still give a loving feel to the world.

When I dreamt this...it was weird. But I swear I either saw it with my minds eye or it was just a dream. A demon was on my bed laying next to me. He was kind heavy set wearing this type of brown leather vest. He had a beard as well. His belt kinda had spikes on it and he had a dagger in his hand!!! I thought while this was happening that his intention was to kill me...or try to turn me into...maybe something else... Thats when I woke up to realize there was nothing there...

I was in my room playing a game when all of a sudden it started raining. I went to the window to see what it looked like when all of a sudden I felt raindrops falling on my head. I put my arm up and then this huge thing of water fell on my hand. I then went into the living room and mom said it was a big flood.



I closed my eyes and suddenly it was like we were in this part of the house that was moving outside and we went beside the house and all over! We some how ended up back where I used to live several years ago in the trailor park. When I noticed this and said it outloud a voice spoke and said "silence and submit". I then demanded to know what was going on but it just kept saying "submit" no matter how many times I said to explain.



Some how the piece of the house turned out to be the van. We drove over on the street my cousin lived (finch street, the street by skateland) and then thats when the van and mom and my aunt disappeared and I was left alone on the dark street. A man in dark cloaks appeared there. He said it was time. Then we fought against each other with our supernatural powers! (o.O)



No matter what I decided to throw at him, lightning bolts, and mental surges didn't work! He just kept freezing the lightning and whatever else in mid air and moved out of the way. So I decided to obsorb his power! Every last ounce of it almost was hurreled into my being! I then defeated him. He then said "you are on a journey, one of which that will be difficult. Your powers are great, more so then most. You have a great destiny."



Then my tarot cards appeared! He said to choose one. I did and it ended up being the death card. He then said "you are going through a trancending phase in your life that will allow you to tap into your powers of greatness, this change will be difficult." Then he laughed smirking and I dematerialized my self from the dream as I knew I was actually dreaming and woke up amazed.....

A peaceful place above the bright lunar light. It shines down upon the crystal lake every night I visit it. I feel one with the nature and the spirit in this night. Listening to those soft tones of music. It brings me into that clearing of the lake. Fills me with such relaxeation with this extreme peaceful feeling. I raise my arms in the moment and sparks fly from them. I create fireworks with the mere energies of thy self I make the stars brighter, the animals come to watch and even a few join into this dance as we all bring forth the spirit of old. Harnessing our inner powers creating lights from our bodies, paws, and thy fingers. Swirling circles of light surround us in the dance creating this awe everyone stares at. We continue to make contact with our inner powers in this endless night of peacefullness.





This feeling, this power....it is divine and those who reach it ready them selves for the experience of a life time!

Behold my power of a thousand life times. Abilities that of which no one could reach. With my spirit I can do anything. With my magic, I can become nature. The belief of the wizard:



All things are divine



We are all connected



Treat others as you would treat your self



Knowlage is the key.





Say not these words spoken by those of old. Taken within the caves which we set in stone. Forge the eternal fires into the mountains wrath. Indulge in the mightest war at hand. I take with thee my power of greatness and bound my self with magic embrace! Take heed in this warning, that all magic is eternal. Curses are leathal. Remember the promise you echoed through those hollowed trees. Protect, teach, and learn. Let the ancient magic flow through your spirit, let it become one with you! BECOME MAGIC ITS SELF!!! Only then, will your true power come to be.

The power of the mind is a great gift we share among the magical community. We can alter, distroy, or even create new ideas or energy. We use our own powers to our own rules. I believe magic its self can be used to not only gain from, but to teach with in life. As all life is magical and sacred. There is good and bad people in the world just as there are good and bad experiences. Us magic folk are the creators of our own paths, carving our own destiny.



What most people don't know is that they also use magic. Everytime they work for something and do their best to get it, that is using magic. Using the will to make what they want manifest, its just in a different way. Even christians use magic in prayor. They use their wills to make something happen. Its just also in a different way.



In conclusion, all creatures use magic, even if they don't realize it.

While I was sleeping on my bed watching tv I closed my eyes. I suddenly said outloud "guardian of the raven I call to you, appear to me!" Suddenly from my being feathers came and formed a cocoon at the foot of my bed. The cocoon black with feathers it opened to reveal a dark angel! It spoke to me through telepathy. My thoughts clouding my memory of this wonderful event...only knowing he said something of importance and something I had to do.



Then as soon as he was there he sealed him self inside his wings forming the cocoon of feathers again. Then those feathers floated out and his form disappeared. The feathers floated back within my being and I awoke from my slumber only having thoughts of the dark angel. Wondering...what he meant.

I had the urge to simply put on the dress in which I implanted spiritual properties. For whatever reason I felt as if I had ruled over something and my power was greater then ever.



I simply put on my makeup and the dress its self. Suddenly...I spoke to my self in the bathroom while looking in the mirror. It was as if I was looking at another being! My reflection spoke to me saying "In time you will find your self, for I am that mere expression. I rule over all darkness and the moon. Either if the darkness is used for negative or positive does not matter, I rule over just it. I am its guardian. You are searching for you self, only you can make the path and in those moments to come you will find the light within, THE DARKLIGHT!"



I was still feeling like the being that felt had entered me with her power. I seemed to feel as if I was one with her in every way, as if she was me! I went outside and spoke to my self for about 20 to 30 minutes. Talking to the cats...and the creatures of the night watching my every move. I felt the moons power and the energy of the night. It was as if...I was a goddess on earth in those very moments.







Whatever this being was, it seemed to exist within me...